i just wanna

“i know the tour was ‘fun’ and all, but christ, i’m glad we’re back. i think all the stylists must have worked the longest hours out of everyone. plus all the built-up jetlag, i’m going to be catching up on sleep for months!”

“Will they let you sleep for that long? I figured it was right back to work as soon as everyone got home.”

“Why be part of one disbanded group, when I can be part of two right?”

“You haven’t disbanded yet. And it’s not the worst thing in the world if you have other things you’re good at doing. Or go solo.”

“i mean, i didn’t think you did– we’re kind of in foreign territory….literally.”

“You’re right.... Maybe I should’ve come up with a plan before asking so I could look like I knew what I was doing.”

“you know, being in english speaking countries just makes the urge to sing classics like ‘barbie girl’ even stronger.”

“You’re the only one, dude.”

“thanks, that’s actually a great and comforting way to look at it.”

“Just call me Captain Comfort. Things are rarely as big of a deal as you think they are. Think about it like that and you’ll probably stop stressing about it so much.”

“no– it’d be nice to get some time away from the girls every once in a while. we can go wherever you’d like.”

“Well, if you ever need someone to take a break with, I don’t have a lot going on. I’m starving, so I was thinking....look for somewhere to eat and then go from there? I’m not really too sure what’s around here, honestly.”

“mm, that’s true. you’re lucky to not be nervous - i’m okay once i get up there, but the five minutes beforehand i can still find not fun. and i know, right? i feel bad for dynasty and majesty, debuting in the midst of this. ginny’s already performed in unity for a year, and she’s amazing, but i’m still nervous for her.”

“Maybe it’s because I don’t really consider myself much of a performer anymore. I was that way when I was still an idol, I think most people are. It’s stressful to be on a huge tour like this at all, let alone this being your first real introduction to the public. They all seem to be doing well, though. People are loving them.”

“i think gemini’s fanbase and my individual fanbase are big enough for that.”

“Exactly. So you have no reason to stress over being half a beat early or your voice cracking or something minuscule. Your fans probably think it’s cute or something.”

“true, though some articles about mess ups aren’t entirely bad. most authors find mess ups cute or funny.”

“When you have a big enough fanbase, the number of things that fans won’t find a way to turn into positive shrinks exponentially.”

“sorry, sweetie– you might just have to grin and bear it.”

“It’s a little late to back out now, isn’t it?”

“really? huh. i guess that’s one way to think about. shouldn’t that make you more nervous, though, if you see yourself more as a producer? and, i mean, i’m not opposed to performing solo at all - i had a solo track on idol project, and it was great. i really loved performing that. but the crowds here are huge, and often not there specifically to see you. the idea of facing that kind of crowd alone right now is what grosses me out.”

“You don’t really forget how to perform. I’m not nervous about it, but I don’t know what they expect me to do up there for an entire set. I haven’t done very much solo work. There are a lot of people here, though, you’re right. It must be stressful for anyone who’s never been on tour before. Kinda seems like being thrown right into a pack of wolves.”

he cleared his throat awkwardly, scratching the back of his neck. “i…i mean….if you want to, i could probably find time. they don’t need me 24/7.”

“You don’t have to if you don’t want to, but I was planning on doing some sight seeing and I thought it could be good to go together. I don’t really.... Know who else to ask, and we can’t keep avoiding each other. Not that it’s worked all that well so far.”

“fair point, most of the time i bring up my mess-ups to the members none of them remember it or even knew i messed up at the time.”

“If there are no articles about it, and you’re not kept up at night thinking about it, you can probably let it go.”

“they would if i got mad enough.”

“They could probably pick you up and walk away with you and leave you somewhere far away from anything to do with fire.”

“that’d be much appreciated.”

“You got it. Even though almost everyone I know thinks I’m a dude, I can’t wear guys suits because I practically swim in them.”