my photo journal

@nabarun_j would ask your shadow to shift if it wouldn't please the frame. Styling by @_vaish_kulkarni_ and my baby @aurdetha made my face . . . . #wlyg #fordmodelscout #futureface #newgenerationscout #scoutmechadwick #thelookout #willyscouts #m1modelscout #transmodel #indiantransmodel #indianmodels #brownmodel #bangaloremodel #scoutmein #transmodel #indiantransmodel https://www.instagram.com/p/B-lXdisDTzD/?igshid=1t0jyen8wh6wq

I like what you do, your subculture turns me on, your choice of taste is what I want, It's not you who me desire's, It's the pride game that I am in for, you don't like me because you never did, it is my projections that you have fallen for, but isn't that why we have labels, and price tags for https://www.instagram.com/p/B-JnQrij73N/?igshid=1p4l7efc1vztj

at In Quarantine https://www.instagram.com/p/B-EAT4gDNri/?igshid=1fku33vk6rdnl

You found me when I thought I lost you, hidden were you like moth beneath silk, your wings were spread like an open book, darkness was your means of flight, took me up like blood- head rush, safe was I, thought I in rock bottom you let me shine like silver gold, you let me die and mystify, I lost me in the time I found you, Yeno kaladu hogiddu wapas sikkange. @nabarun_j -📸 @euporieleo - 👽 https://www.instagram.com/p/B9wzvSGlkiV/?igshid=nu0orphzpo7g

O imaginary love, I have never felt you, you have never seen me, fell down again- alone, blisters smile at you, numbed my blues, yesterday's hikkies you never got, today is spoilt for you, my guitar isn't tuned, and the song is an impromptu, I am curious though, if I will ever miss you. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9rHmZojCKG/?igshid=1fws4nrah4cqi

Your face has got so many stories, can't stop seeing. I can't stop telling you, how much you make me want to talk. When I ask you to let me know when you come back. Do you know that I want you to let me know? I used to love a girl who was like you, but then I lost her into the time of fear, afraid was I of me claiming her heart, might make me loose my blame on me. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9gokXPjxeE/?igshid=1ekxp7unpsf5y

He was on a bike and he stopped me "I have seen you somewhere, I have a wife and a babe, they don't live with me anymore, I am bi", he said " I saw you on tinder, I see you thrice on the screen on phone, I don't know what Grindr is", whispered "I am going to Goa this 20th, no one sees you there, you see, I have another friend with me", he smirked, "Sit behind me, hold my shoulder, don't hesitate, We'll go to a park, Just to talk, just", But parks close post 8 at night, he thought "on the bike I will grab your ass, and you'll kiss me back, Hypocrisy activism neither exchanged, You will dial my number and call me back" P.S it just got dark @vaishi_kulkarni 👻 @nabarun_j 📸 @aurdetha 👽 https://www.instagram.com/p/B9d8CxjD_k8/?igshid=hki8gklyersf

I was raised in farms- soil in mouth, peace disguised in muddy stones, solid meaty bones and blood made my veins and body walls, waters whispering in morning woods, gravelly earth was where I played, grey brown were my hands and feet, soothing fires and calming breeze, nothingness in those noony days, taught me love for solitude, haven't seen a place like that that now aches in memory, Indian summers were meant to be, blues despite greenery. Human society is an altruistic society, it takes a team to make a plan work, it takes a team to make a plan too. Collaborations make art -an amalgamy of talent, hardwork and energies. Auras meet eachother, a new aura is formed, a new colour is made, a new poem written. MUA-@nirrhiti PC-@ankitrawey (at Hindustani) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9NoYeBjgW1/?igshid=1oy1wqci6p58v

You are being looked by you too, you do not know, you are being looked by them too, you don't know, Is it what you want or what you need, the choice is yours, that you don't know, need was taught to you, but wanting is the truth that you don't know. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9GKx1ejA1O/?igshid=28j4igv21g0e

@indranil__ your assignments have really helped me prove the point. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9BvGRHlCfn/?igshid=wj8ch0rrjrlu

Just tell me, that it's not real, And I will fall in love, Summon all my and me, For your sweet lie -Years ago, when I suppressed my femininity , I suppressed my attraction towards girls, thinking that it is an illusion - to prove myself that I am not odd(gay)... but now that I can't deny these feelings, and at the same time I can't neglect my individualistic desires to embrace the feminine in me along with the other. A spiritual journey through the vast spectrum of gender and sexuality has begun. Love Beginnings https://www.instagram.com/p/B86nFpljNUA/?igshid=9owox3nd44in

Ride with the mob ,Alhamdulallah. https://www.instagram.com/p/B8xhlvjDrOC/?igshid=1eimwnqqoe31e

On a scale of 1 to 10 how trippy do you want to be in life? https://www.instagram.com/p/B8qGTPXJ6Iw/?igshid=15jn08sva15el