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| Daily Dose of Rust |

Too lazy to update these past days. But here I am, early in the morning updating here.😙😝

Tuesday | March 3, 2026

Nothing special happened this day. I told my boss I can't go to work cause I'm not feeling well. My body is aching, I really need a rest.

Afternoon, after taking the medicine, I fall asleep then woke up in evening still not feeling well.

Wednesday | March 4, 2026

I still don't go to office for work, but ask permission to work from home since we will release the salary of our employees the next day.

I was given permission late, so I timeout by 6:37pm too.

Thursday | March 5, 2026

I almost got into accident twice. First the vehicle I'm ridding on bump in the car in front. The the second one, on a mini bus where I hop on to continue my ride on my way to the office. When the driver suddenly hits the break, I hurt my arms and bump into other passengers Infront of me. I almost lose my balance. What a great way to start a day.

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PART II

Sunday | March 1, 2026

I got home before 3AM then I fall asleep because of exhaustion. I woke up by 8AM, but my body is aching I could get up. I just lay down until lunch time.

Later Afternoon, I treated my family with Ice cream, cause I actually craving for something sweet and cold. Since the weather is hot.

Afterwards, I decided to start making the school project of my cousin as requested by his mother. But at 3PM again I feel the so sleepy and decided to pause and take a nap.

Before 7pm I woke up. Then continue working. Honestly this is not my best, but my creativity is also drained. That's all I can do. Huhu

Monday | March 2, 2025

My body is still aching, but I push myself to get up and work. I couldn't focus on my work and actually feel so anxious. Maybe this is because my body is tired and still needs rest.

Now, I want to sleep. I can't think anymore. I'll stop here na. Hahah

Next time, remind me to update everyday since I'm too talkative, one post is not enough for rewinding my days of inactive. Wew~

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Wasn't able to update for three days but here I am again. Been busy these past few days, and my body is currently aching right now. Physically, mentally, emotional and financially exhausted. What a life~

Where's my recap of my days that passes by...

PART I

Friday | February 27, 2026

Continue preparing for team building and work on the payroll for employees under four clients. So far, we were able to finish the payroll that day.

Treat myself a fast-food because being busy and stressed makes my really hungry.

Saturday | February 28, 2026

Woke up at 1AM, my sleep was disturb by the noise outside. My cousin together with his friends and my brother are drinking outside the house.

I decided to get up and dye my hair green. I bought it yesterday with my co-workers, planning to dye our hair for team building.

I fall asleep by 5AM that causes me to be late again.

We plan to start traveling by 10AM, but it was delayed because I have to prepare the things that we need to bring like, certificate, attendance, tarp and some designs. I also check the materials needed for the activities and secure that we are all ready to go.

Honestly, it was my second time to facilitating the team building for our employees with this specific client. Last December was my first time, I guess it's okay cause they enjoy the activities. Hoping this time they would still have fun.

I'm actually nervous, I wasn't able to prepare my script for the mechanics and for hosting. I hosted and facilitated the game— impromptu. At first, I don't know how to get their attention and I couldn't able to understand myself to. But afterwards I feel at ease and the flow become smooth.

I'm happy to know that somehow they appreciate the activities that I- personally plan and prepared for, especially the jigsaw puzzle that I created with collage of their face. They also enjoy the games, even though at first they have some comments and reaction because they feel like I'm treating them like a primary schoolers (we had banner and chant making and jigsaw puzzle). They also play the Blindfolded maze, primal instinct (finding teammates using animal sounds) and tug of war. Their Boss seems to enjoy it too. He seems impressed with my ideas and that makes me happy and feel appreciated— really.🤗

After the activity we travel back home. It was really exhausting. I fall asleep at the car. The next day, I couldn't able to get up my body is aching all over.🥹

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I fall asleep early last night, hence I wasn't able to share my daily Dose of Rust.

To sum it up, I got busy planning for Team Building. I was assigned to take the role and we are expected to facilitate the activities.

I want to use the theme inspired by Divergent. They approve it so, go girl— push it. Hoping I could able to do this.

Today, I'm still busy preparing for team building. But at the same time I do some other task like preparing the billing and buying office supply.

I couldn't finish all my task and worried that tomorrow I will got bombarded by payroll and preparation for team building. That's why, I join my co-worker in her over time. I wasn't able to do all the things I need to finish, but at least it was lessen.

Currently on my way home, stuck in traffic. I will update here coz' I might get knockout when I got home. It's tiring, but I'm enjoying it.🤷🏻‍♀️

I hope they would enjoy the activities I'm preparing.🥹 May God bless me.🙏🏻

@rusty-crown

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Woke up early, and started overthinking, thus decided to start my day watching Chinese short drama in YouTube to keep myself calm and distracted but it's not helping.

I feel so restless because today is the schedule for our reflection.

Last minute, I try to review and browse information that might be related to our evaluation. But it feels like the words are floating. My mind is in chaos, i really can't focus. 🥹 I've been praying to give me clear mind and take away all my negative thoughts and doubt.

12:30pm we should be there at the venue, I arrive before 12. Still anxious.

I occupied the seat at the back, and wait until the evaluation start. We are given one hour to answer the questions.

Honestly, every question makes my mind blank at first read. I actually don't know where to start and what to write. I just scribble and let my hand write. We aren't allowed to have a scratch paper thus my answer sheet looks like a draft.

But thankfully I was able to answer all the items. Although I always think that if you compare it to other answer, mine is average. Ain't good at writing especially in English, just use simple words to describe what I want to say. Plus the fact that I feel tense and pressure, because of time limit.

I actually had a traumatizing experience in answering essay when I was in college, and it keep running in my mind earlier. I'm scared it might happen again. Like what if my mind went blank again? What if i couldn't write a single word? What if~

So far, I was able to give an answer base on my experience. And I'm happy for myself because of that. It might not be the best answer, but that's my best I can give.

Of course, I didn't forget to give my appreciation for giving me opportunity to experience this and for guiding me today.

While walking home, I also reward myself with Ice cream. This is my way of appreciating my effort. Been doing this seen college days. Now, I'm still practicing this to keep myself motivated especially when I had stressful days. I've been anxious since last week when they released the schedule, but now I could breath just fine.🤍

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Woke up early but rainy weather makes me too lazy to get up. Ending— late.

Go straight to health center for laboratory, but we need the community tax number, so even though I'm running out of money I don't have a choice. Luckily it was reimburse.🙂

Afterwards, we go back to the office to do the same thing every day. It was tiring but not as stressful as last week. Hoping next day I could do better. Oh well, I'm running out of words. That's all for today, bye~

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I have plans today. But laziness is driving me crazy right now. Or maybe its just my anxiety causing my brain to look for something pleasurable because I'm afraid to fail.

Decided to take a short walk in the rice field. To clear my mind and breath fresh air.

But honestly, I couldn't able to clear my mind because I'm distracted.😆

I keep taking shots but worried others might look at me weirdly. Err, me and my... 🤦🏻‍♀️

"i am the shadow to your light" — kuroko tetsuya

I like taking shadow shot coz I remember kuroko-kun.💙

On my way back, I saw an elder woman walking slowly ahead of me. I don't know her name, but I remember her.

She was the one who looks down on me years ago. I visited my classmate/friend, her granddaughter. During that time I was young but I not numb. The way she talk and the way she looks at me, makes me feel that she doesn't want me there. Or maybe she's just not in a mood that time. Now that I'm adult, somehow I could understand that there are times we lose control on our own emotions. When it happen, it might causes us to say mean things to others without considering what they feel. But nonetheless, she made me feel so small. And I can't forget that.

Looking back, I realized I may not harboring resentment (or maybe somehow I did, I just don't want to admit it), but I can't forget the mistreatment I experience. Those experience cut deep in me.

Way to start a morning.

After almost 2 years, I suddenly remember this.😆

Time passes by, now currently working as admin staff.

Decided to start this study blog again cause why not? But I might add some random thoughts or events here. (depends on my mood)

Been compiling all the information since yesterday. Finally, I was able to finish it now.

Tomorrow, I will try to start creating a ppt about this. At the same time, try to verify if the information I've got is still valid today since my sources are old history textbooks.

@rusty_crown

Hi!

Been inactive for days coz' I'm busy with other stuff.

We weren't able to conduct the data gathering last Tuesday. Hence I asked permission again to move the schedule next week, Wednesday. Thankfully, the school principal and the teachers agreed.

Anyways right now, I'm studying Asian Studies. Hihi

@rusty_crown

Yehey! Finally, I'm already done with my task on the validation of our videos. Major editing is the next step. Then we could start our survey next week.

I'm hoping to finish our thesis next month and while working on it, I'm also preparing for my internship and started reviewing for the licensure examination.

Chillin' while taking notes. ✨

@rusty_crown

I was able to do my task today. I got permission from the school to conduct the data gathering next week and the instrument was already validated. 

I just couldn't focus on self study right now because I'm prioritizing our thesis. Wew~

@rusty_crown

Wasn't able to focus on studying yesterday and today because of my mood swings.

Anyway, at least I was able to do something on our thesis. I was able to give the documents needed for validation to one of our validators.

Today, I thought I would be able to go to the school where we are going to conduct our study to inform them about our plan next week and also to ask permission but it was delayed. Thus, I decided to move my plan tomorrow.

Actually we are aiming to finish the validation of the instruments in our study this week so that we could start the data gathering next week. So yeah~

Ah ah~ yeah by the way, today I was able to get my first laptop I ever had. Yehey~ finally. Been struggling typing on my phone for my school work. At least now, I have my own.

I name it Fujii because of its brand and he is from Japan.🤭

@rusty_crown

For a starter, I decided to focus on “learning”.

What is learning? How does it occur? (I guess this will be answered by theories of learning.)

Anyway, I tried to make a concept map to show my prior knowledge about the topic. I also decided to put a task to be accomplished at the end of the week.

I took notes on the definition of learning. Although those are only retrieved from one source. I guess I'll need to browse the internet for further information about the topic.

What I've learned for the day?

3 important concept of learning:

• Change

• Behavior

• Experience

LEARNING = change in behavior

Learning means there is a change in behavior that we acquired through experience. It refers not only to outcomes that are observable but also those that may not be so obvious.

That's all for today. Night~ night~

@rusty_crown

Been planning on having a study blog, but couldn't find the right timing to start. (Or maybe I'm just making reasons that are hindering me to do so errr~.) Anyway, since I'm in the mood today, I thought maybe I could start it right now here on tumblr. So yeah....

This blog is about acquiring new information and relearning things. Ain't good at English and Mathematics so I want to focus on those subjects. But for now, I'll start with understanding concepts and theories about learning. Hoping that at the end of this, I could finally understand why I need to continue going to school. XD

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