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PART II

Sunday | March 1, 2026

I got home before 3AM then I fall asleep because of exhaustion. I woke up by 8AM, but my body is aching I could get up. I just lay down until lunch time.

Later Afternoon, I treated my family with Ice cream, cause I actually craving for something sweet and cold. Since the weather is hot.

Afterwards, I decided to start making the school project of my cousin as requested by his mother. But at 3PM again I feel the so sleepy and decided to pause and take a nap.

Before 7pm I woke up. Then continue working. Honestly this is not my best, but my creativity is also drained. That's all I can do. Huhu

Monday | March 2, 2025

My body is still aching, but I push myself to get up and work. I couldn't focus on my work and actually feel so anxious. Maybe this is because my body is tired and still needs rest.

Now, I want to sleep. I can't think anymore. I'll stop here na. Hahah

Next time, remind me to update everyday since I'm too talkative, one post is not enough for rewinding my days of inactive. Wew~

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Wasn't able to update for three days but here I am again. Been busy these past few days, and my body is currently aching right now. Physically, mentally, emotional and financially exhausted. What a life~

Where's my recap of my days that passes by...

PART I

Friday | February 27, 2026

Continue preparing for team building and work on the payroll for employees under four clients. So far, we were able to finish the payroll that day.

Treat myself a fast-food because being busy and stressed makes my really hungry.

Saturday | February 28, 2026

Woke up at 1AM, my sleep was disturb by the noise outside. My cousin together with his friends and my brother are drinking outside the house.

I decided to get up and dye my hair green. I bought it yesterday with my co-workers, planning to dye our hair for team building.

I fall asleep by 5AM that causes me to be late again.

We plan to start traveling by 10AM, but it was delayed because I have to prepare the things that we need to bring like, certificate, attendance, tarp and some designs. I also check the materials needed for the activities and secure that we are all ready to go.

Honestly, it was my second time to facilitating the team building for our employees with this specific client. Last December was my first time, I guess it's okay cause they enjoy the activities. Hoping this time they would still have fun.

I'm actually nervous, I wasn't able to prepare my script for the mechanics and for hosting. I hosted and facilitated the game— impromptu. At first, I don't know how to get their attention and I couldn't able to understand myself to. But afterwards I feel at ease and the flow become smooth.

I'm happy to know that somehow they appreciate the activities that I- personally plan and prepared for, especially the jigsaw puzzle that I created with collage of their face. They also enjoy the games, even though at first they have some comments and reaction because they feel like I'm treating them like a primary schoolers (we had banner and chant making and jigsaw puzzle). They also play the Blindfolded maze, primal instinct (finding teammates using animal sounds) and tug of war. Their Boss seems to enjoy it too. He seems impressed with my ideas and that makes me happy and feel appreciated— really.🤗

After the activity we travel back home. It was really exhausting. I fall asleep at the car. The next day, I couldn't able to get up my body is aching all over.🥹

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I have plans today. But laziness is driving me crazy right now. Or maybe its just my anxiety causing my brain to look for something pleasurable because I'm afraid to fail.

Decided to take a short walk in the rice field. To clear my mind and breath fresh air.

But honestly, I couldn't able to clear my mind because I'm distracted.😆

I keep taking shots but worried others might look at me weirdly. Err, me and my... 🤦🏻‍♀️

"i am the shadow to your light" — kuroko tetsuya

I like taking shadow shot coz I remember kuroko-kun.💙

On my way back, I saw an elder woman walking slowly ahead of me. I don't know her name, but I remember her.

She was the one who looks down on me years ago. I visited my classmate/friend, her granddaughter. During that time I was young but I not numb. The way she talk and the way she looks at me, makes me feel that she doesn't want me there. Or maybe she's just not in a mood that time. Now that I'm adult, somehow I could understand that there are times we lose control on our own emotions. When it happen, it might causes us to say mean things to others without considering what they feel. But nonetheless, she made me feel so small. And I can't forget that.

Looking back, I realized I may not harboring resentment (or maybe somehow I did, I just don't want to admit it), but I can't forget the mistreatment I experience. Those experience cut deep in me.

Way to start a morning.

After almost 2 years, I suddenly remember this.😆

Time passes by, now currently working as admin staff.

Decided to start this study blog again cause why not? But I might add some random thoughts or events here. (depends on my mood)