tough day for the bird

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real person fiction & real person facts, camera operator fanaticism (#jaredworld), operation avalanche enthusiasm, mattowen, & threats against jay mccarrol's life <3

biases: web matt, vice jay, movie jared

they are both a little bit gay and a little bit repressed and have different relationships to their sexuality and the reason why nothing goes on between them is because they are either consciously or subconsciously aware of the potentially catastrophic consequences of them pursuing anything romantic or sexual with each other. maybe something happened during the making of the webseries that indirectly led to their "break-up" and they're avoiding something like that happening again. I just like any iteration of this in any rpf

jay is bisexual and matt is straight but matt is still just as obsessed with jay as he comes across in all his art but he doesnt understand it and doesn't know what to do with it except keep making movies about it or keep working with jay. jay is just trying to be normal dating other people (but definitely irreconcilably dependent on matt in a way that isn't exactly romantic but the need is very much there)

matt is bisexual but thinks it's more interesting to sublimate it through his art because in movies queer repression and subtext is more interesting to him than explicit free queerness. hence why he leans more towards homosocial than homoromantic. in this reality it's equally funny if jay is straight or if jay is gay. on the one hand him being clueless is funny, on the other hand him being in the torment nexus is funny

matt is bisexual and completely conscious of the fact that he's attracted to jay and feels fucked up and perverted and tragic about it so he represses it. and jay is straight but horny enough and likes matt enough that he'd try anything if matt suggested it but matt won't suggest it

both straight and completely aware of how weird and intense their friendship is and they embrace it and it's been difficult and painful at times but they're honest with each other and maybe something weird and sexual happened at some point but it just brought them closer together after whatever period of intensity almost broke them up at the end of the webseries

both straight and completely clueless. this is hysterical to imagine that theyre just going through life thinking whatever they've got going on is normal but as fun as it is to point and laugh at this it's not particularly stimulating to think about