somewhere in the sunshine

i miss you but you ain’t even you anymore

I know it will pass, but it's heavy

kind of insane how everyday there’s a new day that i have to go through

EVERYTHING COMES TO YOU, AT THE RIGHT TIME

to those going thru a hard time rn, don’t give up. things will get better soon. you’re almost there, love.

every august its like. u will feel happy but also unbearably sad

People constantly prove why I shouldn’t open my heart to anyone lmao

If a man doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

being an adult and buying your own shit is so weird i don't understand why anything is priced the way it is. why did my tattoo cost 8 toothpastes? why does a pair of socks cost a sandwich but a fancy dinner costs a whole jacket? why is book the same cost as 2 bag frozen vegetables? nothing makes sense i just wanna steal.

Oh so I’m just supposed to cuddle myself to sleep? Unbelievable I have to do everything around here.

breaking the cycle is sometimes the most important and impactful decision you can make

Y’all pretend to be good people. That’s my issue.

in retrospect, yikes

I LOVE BOUNDARIES AND I LOVE SAYING NO

Sometimes there’s nothing to go back to but you still miss it so much

i want to be loved like immortalised scratched initials on trees, like the person who filled someone with such unbearable light they had to write it down, paint it, command witness to it. i want to be loved like a fish taking bait. cognizant. hungrily. that ‘i know it’ll kill me but i can’t help it’. not just that, love is reciprocity, after all. i want to love back. i want to love someone and smile at them the way my sister does when her boyfriend sends her a song, the way every book my dad gives me has an inscription between my parents from decades ago. i want to be awake with it, daydreaming of our mouths, bloody. i want to do the mortifying for someone. i want to be the pink sky at night, the wisteria on the walls, i want to see someone the way a wasp chooses a fig to die in. i want a resting place.