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I have tried everything and am constantly wearing hydrocolloid patches and it just won’t heal I’m so fed up and done. just the fact that this is the second time I’ve had it this month because of my period (something I can’t control) makes it completely insufferable and I feel hopeless because I know it’ll come back again in a month and be just as horrible and unbearable and miserable as the last two times.

I took valacyclovir (oral antiviral) on the same day that I started getting symptoms and it did nothing and since then I’ve been wearing hydrocolloid patches up the wazoo just to prevent it from drying out and that’s not doing anything either and they cost hella money and so it just feels like I’m flushing my money down the drain for this thing to no avail. it will soon be a week since it started again and valacyclovir is supposed to make it heal within 2-3 days.

I’m just so fed up because I want to be social and see my friends and it makes me feel disgusting to have this fuckinf patch on my face and it feels impossible to eat anything without it hurting or the skin breaking and I can’t even fucking drink anything or smile because my lip will crack and then we’re back at square one. I swear to fucking god I’m so done with this but at the same time what can I do??? I’ve done everything I can and yet it’s making my day to day life miserable. I just wish it would go away forever and that my body would hurry up and create the antibodies to fight it off better.

I feel so weak and it’s so hard to feel happy when this is going on. I always took my health for granted, particularly the health of my mouth, cause I never had any issues before july. I had never had sores or cankers or anything, and all I want is to not worry about whether I’m going have a fucking breakout as soon as I start my period. I’m already dealing with enough during my period, why add insult to injury?????

honestly I’ve already posted most of them 😭 but this one is good too