the world’s on fire: let’s write fic

I had a post on my prior Tumblr, but that’s gone. So let’s recreate it, but make it better.

My first foray into fandom, long ago, was when I was a preteen. I didn’t know it was fandom, but I was a Trekkie and read all the Star Trek: TOS novels, and I decided I was going to try my hand at writing one. That attempt has been lost to the sands of time, as it was written on an old DOS computer with Windows 3.1, but I took it SRSLY. This was the early-mid 90s and I didn’t manage to find fandom at that point on the internet at school when I was a freshman in high school and first introduced to it.

Yeah. I’m old, folks.

When I was a teenager, I was introduced to Japanese anime through the Yu Yu Hakusho Poltergeist Report movie. Dubbed, which is hilarious. But that’s when I discovered fandom, because an irl friend was engaged in it. We obsessed over fics, read Gundam Wing, Sonic, Ronin Warriors, Fushigi Yuugi, and Yu Yu Hakusho fanfics. For a while we curated a website and wrote a self-insertation FY fic together. I’ve gone by Rose Thorne online ever since.

Though the friendship didn’t last, the interest in YYH didn’t fade. I’ve got a bunch of largely juvenile YYH fics out there, as well as some Gundam Wing ones. I ordered VHS fansubs of part of the Yu Yu Hakusho series via the internet from Australia. I still have those: they’re relics!

I met my ex-girlfriend on a YYH discussion forum for an archive website when we were both in high school 20+ years ago, and I’m still friends with her and several other people I met through there. For a while I curated a Yu Yu Hakusho yaoi fanfiction contest entitled Green Grapes and Lemonade, which was an in-joke between myself and her. I can’t figure out how to access that website anymore, sadly. I helped judge one of the Gundam Wing fanfiction contests for a while. I remember the inception of Fanfiction.net. I remember when smut was more than just lemon depending on the flavor of it, though I don’t remember what each one meant. I remember when FFN allowed smut. 

Yu Yu Hakusho had a hold on me for over a decade. I met many people through that fandom who have stayed close friends, including my ex-girlfriend and several friends I currently write with. I visited some of them in person when I moved across country and back for graduate school. I even stayed with a couple of them overnight.

Then @chrissysky and I wrote a MST3K fic, Enma’s Torment Theater, involving the YYH characters being forced to read fanfiction (all donated by writers, and including my own) and riffing on it, with a plot surrounding it. And said friend decided we should bring in the Slayers characters.

Now, I had never encountered Slayers, but I quickly consumed everything, including the translated novels. Then I started to write. Chrissy is a Zel/Xel shipper, and holy cow do I love that ship. I met several other people through that fandom, though it was largely dead by that time. The new seasons, Rev and Evo-R, revitalized the community somewhat, and I wound up being a part of a SlayersAdult LJ community and running a Kinkfest with kinky prompts that people could write or draw. At the time I was also participating in the Springkink festival on LJ. I was pretty prolific with writing smut at that point, largely Zel/Xel. Then LJ did one of its purges and it all kind of died.

And I still write it, as I have an epic I’m trying to finish and occasional plot tribbles that like to multiply. @chrissysky and I RPed and collaborated on several fics, and we’re slowly working on turning some of the RP into fic.

One of my Slayers friends got into the Pandora Hearts manga while it was being released in Japan, and dragged me into it as well. I wrote fic and RPed in that fandom for a while, but then some toxic stuff went down and I was soured on it. I left, as did my Slayers friend, and I went back to writing Slayers.

The last few years, I was largely done with fandom, focusing on ‘serious writing’ and publishing a chapbook of poetry and poems in multiple literary journals, and on work. Because I was trying to adult. I’d share some of the links and such to my poetry, but I try not to let my online life overlap with my real life. I’ve had my fair share of online stalkers and threatened doxxers in the 20+ years I’ve been on the internet. Some folks are just creepy.

I still write and publish poetry fairly regularly, and one of my poems made it into an academic textbook recently.

After this post, @chrissysky got me into MDZS/The Untamed by insisting I watch the cdrama right as the pandemic happened, and so I’ve been down that rabbit hole ever since with no signs of surfacing.

My health has, since before the pandemic, been complicated because of at least two autoimmune diseases, and combined with a number of factors that soured me on my job, I was pushing through, really, and I determined I couldn’t do it anymore if I wanted to survive late in 2022. So I’m working to get my health under control and living with my mom while I do, unable to work and some days can barely get out of bed.

What’s weird is I miss working with students as a professor, but now am the cool auncle to my cousin’s 4 kids (2-17) so weirdly I’m still up with what the younger generations are up to.

About the only thing I can do is write in small doses, and I’m clinging to that. I’m still deep in mdzs, and I’ve participated for several years in a Winter Solstice gift exchange. I hope to do so again this year. I use Six Sentence Sunday and WIP Wednesday to ensure I keep writing.

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Fic Finder

May 16th

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1. hi. im looking for an a/b/o fic were the wen capture wwx and lwj and they give lwj or maybe both of then some drug to induce heat or something. they're both left alone, it's a fuck or die scenario, and by the end wwx asks for the bite, and i think reciprocates, but they hide it from the wen to not give them the satisfaction. i cannot for the life of me find it in my bookmarks

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2. Hi! Would you please help me look for this fic that I cant find anymore. Its omegaverse. Alpha lwj and Omega wwx. And its arranged marriage but NOT AU. In this fic wwx and lwj get married to "control" the "evil" wwx. Wwx has to live in Gusu and even his flute gets taken away. Now lwj normally avoids him and goes on long night hunts but wwx craves for his touch on heats. Then finally lwj spends a heat with wwx and then they slowly start falling in love. Then wwx gets pregnant....the doctor discovers his lack of golden core and announces a very low chance of surviving the childbirth. Lwj takes very good care of him and wwx somehow survives a very close call. Lwj also gives his flute back.

Thanks in advance!!! @aahnis

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3. Hello! For the next fic Finder: I’m looking for a fic I read a while ago, in sorry if it’s too vague, but I remember it being kind of crack, and someone thought that lwj was cheating on wwx (Jiang Cheng? The juniors?) and they tried to “avenge” wwx and make wwx see reason and like find proof that he was cheating, but it was all a big misunderstanding (obviously). I’m sure it was a modern AU, and I’m not sure but i think it could’ve been a high school/college AU.

Sorry, I know it’s super vague and generic but I honestly can’t remember much else. I get it if you can’t find it.

Thanks for all your hard work🫶

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4. Hii, I'm looking for a fic I read a while ago that I thought I saved but that was not the case so now it's lost and I can't find it😭. It's a modern Au fic in Wich if I'm not wrong Lz and wxx meet in an airport because they're flies got cancelled , I think they were going to different places but anyway. I don't recall why they ended up in a hotel that night, more specifically in the same room, the thing is that they discovered they were fated mates so that kind of triggered their heats, they fucked like 3 days straight or something like that and were all in love with each other, they bonded I think, although I'm not pretty sure. The end of the fic is they go separate ways to do what they were supposed to do and then it shows they got married and Wxx is either pregnant or with a baby or toddler A-yuan.If you can help me find this fic I would appreciate it very much, thanks!♥️ @anonimtak

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5. for the fic finder, im desperately trying to remember the name of that very popular plant cultivation fic. i dont really remember anything else about it as i hadn’t gotten around to reading it but i remember wen ning (?) rescues wwx from a plant underwater in the first chapter i think? i hope it’s popular enough that this should be enough.. thank you !

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6. Hello! This is for FF. Im looking for a wangxian fic where LWJ time travels, I think, to the Guest Lectures. I recall this one scene where Jin Guangyao comes to the Jingshi at night and tries to kill LWJ, but LWJ actually lured him there on purpose. Then LWJ kills JGY, after which he makes this whole scene where he pretends that JGY attacked him and he was just defending himself. LXC is sympathetic. WWX, turns out, travelled back too and sees right through LWJ, but plays along. Thoughts? @dreammaiden21

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7. Hi! I am looking for a fic where Wei Ying and Lan Zhan start hooking up, but they do basically everything except full anal sex for most of the fic. It has something to do with Lan Zhan is notorious for only fucking people once and never again? It's definitely a misunderstanding though and they do end up fucking once they finally realize they both have feelings for each other and it's not just a hookup. Also, Wei Ying is painting a mural or a wall in Lan Zhan's apartment during this. @fauxiarty

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8. hi all! there's two fics I want to reread but I can't seem to find- could you help me out?

a) lan xichen pov but kinda cracky: peak himbo xichen vibes. canonverse with a twist, like there was the war but wwx gets with lwj with little to no hiccups. the funny thing is that lxc is oblivious as hell as to the relationship between them. he thinks they're just bros! bros with benefits, perhaps, but Does Not Register there is any romance between them. xichen marries qin su in this one and is very happily married to her, so he suggests at one point to lwj that he get a wife and be happily married too, and everybody gets mad at him because they think he's being homophobic. a little surprised I couldnt find this on my own ngl >///<

b) also xichen pov but not nearly as cracky. its like a modern reincarnation fic but they dont really remember? they just get Vibes when they're with the people the care about. lwj of course is super introverted and doesnt like going out and meeting people and his Home Is His Sacred Place, but then one day he meets wei ying and ofc they basically fall in love instantly. and this is very bewildering to lxc because one minute his baby brother wants nothing to do with practically anybody, the next he's let wei ying move in with the boy he's fostering with the intent to adopt (a-yuan). xichen talks about it to meng yao and the skeevy asshat's like "don't worry about it I'll get this under control" and suddenly wei ying's having trouble actually adopting a-yuan because the judge is suddenly Unsure (-_-). lan zhan finds out that meng yao was behind it and gets so pissed he cuts contact with xichen who honestly didnt know. a significant moment i remember is here where xichen's like "wangji I just didn't know what was happening! it all seemed so sudden- so out of nowhere!" and lan zhan's like "okay yeah i see your point but it's just... like I met wei ying and felt like I've known him my whole life" and xichen just thinks to himself that that's how meng yao had been for him. anyway xichen is cut off from wangji for a couple of weeks. he tells mingjue about it and mingjue's like ":/ im kinda not surprised. meng yao is... Like That. if I were you I'd slowly cut him out of your life." eventually lan zhan and xichen make up.

thank you for the help! you do great work!!! <33

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9. Hello i recently rewatched and after years I am so back in my wangxian era and I was going through my old bookmarks and there are two fics which i particularly remember dearly but am unable to find

A) post canon wei wuxian living in gusu lan where he meets the hidden part of lan sect or the women who make the clan robes by stitching spritual energy into them and overall it was a heartwarming and amazing story ...if I remember correctly the female cultivator he bonds with also had a daughter (?) not sure though

B) modern au and wei wuxian is a doctor who returns to town after years..it had a lot of junior shenanigans and i remember a scene where he visits the lan's house and it being a musical corridor or something (?) and i think lan sizhui was lan zhan's son in this or something And also I think it began with an minor accident of some character and wei wuxian appearing to save them or somerhing

@beingdesiandqueer

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10. Hi, WangXian FicFinder. I humbly ask for your help in the search of a fic. About 1-2 years ago I found this wangxian fic with a Howl's moving castle AU in AO3. At the time there wasn't many of those, but I was obsesed with the trope and I did everything in my power to find everyone until the last one. This particular fic was my favorite of them all. It was beautifully written, interesting and complex, even though it was quite short and didn´t continued the story, only going as far as the first wangxian meeting. In the story, Lan Zhan had been confined to the Jingshi, this moving castle made of a myriad of deadly veils and wood panels which kept anyone from entering, by the Lan clan, because he had been born with a curse, I believe (I hope I'm not mixing fics), wich took away his heart and made any place he went extremly cold. It was for that reason he was locked away, though his heart was hidden in his own jail, as part of the intricacies of the castle. On the other hand, Wei Wuxian in a murder of crows -or can take their form, I can't quite remember- and is implicit that those crows are also, somehow, the Wens he saved, all part of a shared conciousness -sometimes who speaks is A-Yuan, other times grandma, the seven uncle, wen quing...but they aren't quite there, just a remanent of conciousness also put there by a curse, driving Wei Ying slowly mad, though he won't let go because that implies giving up on their lives. They meet when Wei Ying, taking the form of a single crow (raven?) somehow manages to avoid the murderous veils and finds the heart of Lan Zhan, a shiny thing that quickly desapears in the ever moving castle, and then sits on the rail of the window? terrace? besides wich Lan Zhan is drinking tea. The fic was full of elements of all kinds of asian mytology, and it's world was intricate and well constructed. I've been looking for it for months, please help.

P.d. I apologize for my writing, english is not my first language. @darthmonium

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11. ficfinder! wwx made a dog rating (hating) twitter acc to help him deal with his phobia @whatifijustnifeyou

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12. Do you know the title of the modern fanfic about where Wei Ying is rich and Lan Zhan is poor and works at a convenience store and then Lan Zhan is beaten up by Wen Chao. Madam Yu is kind and the Jiang siblings are spoiled. Then Lan Xichen works at a gas station and Madam Yu was even more angry when she found out that the Lan family had become poor? @jamnicolexious

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13. I’m trying to find a fic that I think is completed, where Jin zixuan, Wen Ning, LWJ, WWX, and Jiang Cheng all have their golden cores bound together at the beginning of the war in a way that they can feel each other. I remember it has asexual Jin zixuan, wangxian, and no demonic cultivation. It’s been a while since I read it. I think there’s one more pairing but I can’t remember who.

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14. Hellooo!! This is for fic finder. I saw this on the bird app and it seems interesting. Someone commented on a post and they can't find the link for it so I'm here to ask you guys! Okay here it goes. fic where yllz gives ly to lwj cuz hes sick, to heal him or bury him respectfully, then writes a song with burial mounds called my son is with his father n sends to lwj which becomes a folklore cuz spirits calm after hearing it. That's it, hope you can help pls! Thanks in advance! @pilisiti

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15. FF request please! All I remember is that Wangxian got married and a very happy and spoiled WWX comes to visit lotus pier and complains that he wants a divorce. JFM does not take him seriously at all, especially since it’s very clear that WWX is fine and just being dramatic and that LWJ is pampering him all day long. There’s a scene where WWX gets teased at dinner and he whines to LWJ that they’re being mean to him and LWJ just calmly feeds him and then carries him out of the hall. It’s very funny and fluffy.