isn't she lovely?

Hi I'm Maikol or Jax I'm an artist, minor, autistic ,etc

I am genderfluid, use any pronouns (she/her preferred tho) and I'm fictionkin

TADC and MD have been my special interests for three years, Pony Town for around four.

I've been drawing for 12 years and using Ibis Paint X and other art programs such as Sony Sketch or Infinite Painter.

I draw with my finger

My tags: #rodolfo posts , #rodolfo art , #rodolfo asks , #rodolfo reblogs , #rodolfo archive

Other socials: Instagram , Newgrounds , PInterest

This blog is semi moderated by my bf and I block freely

I ship weird things but never assume I ship incest or abusive shit, yes this does explicitly imply I don't want proshippers/darkshippers near me. Get out.

I do not like you intersexist transphobic esorsexist tme tma afab amab agab people. People don't owe you their whole life's story.

my opinion about most ships:

random stuff:

So I've been posting about the finale a lot cause it won't leave my brain but it's whatever...

So you guys realize we didn't see Pomni's abstraction as a fantasy Jax has right? Because it's the locked door with a hundred locks... Jax doesn't even wanna think about her abstracting oh my goddd they make me sick

So here's my thoughts on the finale, mostly about Jax and Pomni's moments though as I'm not able to process anything else.

These are parts from conversations with my boyfriend, started shortly after watching the movie

"Going into the movie I thought, great, another show that proves that people like me should just die and never find peace, they should just succumb to the loneliness and desperation, to the feeling of being so horrible you can't let anyone get near you.

I think every scene with Jax in it was intensely beautiful. The way he couldn't hold in his anger at the start, the way he leaves, he watches over the others but doesn't give himself the lovely fantasy of being friends w everyone and helping them, he just watches. The way he approaches Pomni and then says " It's nothing forget about it ". (My friends and two kids in the theater said NEGATIVE AURA AND RIZZ FAILED RIZZ ATTEMPT) as if, for the one time he was gonna be vulnerable on his own, he regretted it before even doing it, regretted even thinking about it. What was it? A love confession? A call for help? Both? We'll never know, if he had said it maybe he would be there, but now he's just... abstracted. The scenes with the abstraction scenarios, all coping mechanisms, being unnecessarily violent and rude about it, treating it as a joke, sexualizing yourself to forget about it. And then there's the Jax, the Jax playing piano, the Jax who knows the truth, the part of him that wants Pomni to know the truth, he wants the help, the love, he wants what once happened with Ribbit to never happen again, he wants to be vulnerable even if it hurts if it would mean people won't "die" over his actions.

Abstraction to me reads as a passive suicide.

" I hate you " " Why do you make it so hard " " Why do you love me " " Are you coming to remind me of all my wrong doings ? " " I'm an horrible person " " I don't wanna go " all different calls for help, all different SCREAMS for help, the way he hugs Pomni and sobs, he's never had someone understand him so deeply, not even Ribbit understood, sure, she wanted the best for him, but she overstepped the boundaries of a deeply traumatized Jax. He blames himself for it, but he can't do anything about it. The way he starts hyperventilating, he realized he's being vulnerable, he's being a " little girl " about all of this. He can't handle it anymore, can't hold off the pain and anguish anymore.