In lust I trust.

i mean it could even be a closure kinda thing cause lbr having ur ?bff??? drop off the face of the planet and yet still. exist... just... ignoring you ?????? is kinda shitty lol cause he definitely felt completely and 100% straight up dumped on the curb for mt/but he's also like... over it? it's been so long?? it's to the point where it happened and he's just like i deserved better than that lol and he's moved on. the things that're upsetting him rn are all the ACTUAL failed relationships he's had where guys have been like 'yes we are dating' and then either disappear from the internet (mun and muse) or dirk is. yeah. second, third, fourth choice. he wants a boyfriend. open relationships are fine but he wants to know he's. a good enough person for that. he likes the attention and will still be a booty call anyway because lbr he hates himself and just likes having sex 8T but apart from that i don't think he'd feel like a second choice in this because, oddly enough, it'd be a rekindled thing and while he still has no idea what happened he's willing to admit he could have tried a little bit harder to hold onto it; he was just bitter and done lol. but w sex, he doesn't equate the act with an emotion aside feeling good but he moreso has sex first and (re)builds relationships later. which is. so fucking obvious to anyone that's been following him for any amount of time and it's WHY he keeps getting hurt. but me, i like writing smut and i like shipping so it keeps happening. to his credit, it's never his fault. i've just had incredibly bad luck picking muses/muns out to have him fall for. it sucks he's the one that gets hurt for it and it sucks i'm stuck with feeling like i can't play him properly anymore because he's so fucked up and depressed all the time.

SO LIKE. if you did want to throw him a bone, and work something out, shipping(*wiggles my eyebrows at quad change mention) or pity sex or any other kind of sex, totally let me know. i'm down, i'm game, i always see you online so i don't feel like you or g2 are gonna fuck off and leave him (,,again) and they were good fucking friends??? unless there's some actual reason their friendship was severed so suddenly there's absolutely zero reason why they can't hook up and just be fucking friends again lol HE/YOU STILL READ ALL HIS/MY POSTS, WHY AREN'T THEY FRIENDS???????????