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PAIRING: Zayne x Non-MC Reader

SYNOPSIS: An arranged marriage built on silence unravels into a love loud enough to echo—where a repressed heart finally claims what was always his.

NOTES: The one shot I planned to write turned into a full-blown series, who's surprised? The tag list for this fic is CLOSED. the banners belong to @uzmacchiato

You can also find this series on AO3

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✧･ﾟBlurb

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✧･ﾟpart 1

✧･ﾟpart 2

✧･ﾟpart 3

TAGLIST: @animegamerfox @sweetcalebb @ciaradream8 @hwangintakswifey @nm4565natty @zaynieinsanie @inzayneforaj @aara08 @multisstuff @notsurewhattocallthisblog8888 @yellowxiaotae @harmlesscouch @ourgoddessathena @dwuclvr @asilaydead @thelittlebutton @idiots0up @crazyzombieblaze @cordidy @storiesbyparadise @whosthought @sylustabbykitty

@someonenamedray @sheismaryy @sylusjinxedpaw @pemhpredo @perla-drg @bazpire @myrunawaysweets @sadgutaches @detectivelucky @demon-master-zero @hoe-in-deepspace @tinyweebsstuff @qstrea @vintag3u @algrimmammon @peacedreamer14 @seraphim-terrestrial @crimsonsylus @cielphanthomhivesimp @li-zayne-wife @boy-pussyyy @tinydonkeysforlife @zarakem @my-loved-figure-skates @criffininflight @escapeis @yu-87 @noblognamepleasee @paper--angel @syluslittlecrows @luckysaladfreakbagel @loliesaregreat @littleappleprincess @agustdxjiminx @codedove

Hell's Paradise

the animation is beautiful and similar to jjk (thanks mappa), set in the Edo period (16-1800s)

Sleepy Princess in the demon castle

The mc's hair and eyes are so cool. I love this one for when my brain is not working bc it's so simple and adorable. The princess is funny and resourceful and there's all sorts of demons.

Vampire Dormitory

English dub is so funny! (sub does not hit the same) the main love interest is so beautiful? Look at his hair. It's so sweet and queer, probably my favorite romance thing ever (and favorite vampire media if I'm honest). I'm rewatching it currently. It's so so good but I never hear about it and this was the only gif in the search chqhxhajdksnx pls if this doesn't get a second season I'll have to kill god :(

The misfit of demon king academy

I fuck with the misfit demon king. Someone suggested this and I'm so glad I wrote it down akchajxkak it's cute and funny and has some good asmr fights. He's so unhinged and strong and crazy and sweet (this white haired girl is my favorite character tho).

Another

Rewatching this again. The use of color is so abcjamxjams.... It's pretty morbid, there is a lot of character deaths, but also a fun mystery bc someone is secretly dead this whole time! (here's my favorite character)

Kagewani

(again. Ik, I'm sorry, I might be down bad for Banba Sensei. Truly an X-Files au for Suguru Geto... And maybe Ino and Ijichi... ) it has that yamishibai style animation. Cryptids, monster hunting,...

Demon Slayer

Finally just started over from the beginning and caught up. It's nice to get to know the other characters better and I'm So excited for the infinity castle movie. It just keeps getting better

Apothecary Diaries

Yes I got into this bc Kaiji Tang (Gojo's English VA). The first few episodes are kinda slow but I just finished it again and it's so good?? Season 2 comes out this month, I love the main character so much. It's a bit of everything, foraging, gardening, science, brothels, romance, etc...

Flying Witch

This is SO chill. No romance, no drama, no violence. Just community, foraging, witchcraft etc...

Jujutsu kaisen

minor injuries, like papercuts or stubbed toes or bumping into a table (they’re not used to real pain anymore, they’re not used to real blood anymore, they’re not used to scars or bruises anymore)

what happened when they got their periods again. do some of them just never get it back?? does silica never get one at all??

alcohol. just… everything related to it (they couldn’t get drunk in aincrad, not properly, so does alcohol knock them over the head in the real world now?? does the physical sensation of alcohol feel weird now?)

touching someone in the real world again after only touching simulated warmth and skin for years. literally just cherishing every hug or high five or kiss or pinky promise that they can get because they’ve forgotten what real contact feels like

changing clothes!! manually dressing themselves!! generally not using a menu anymore!!

eating!!!!!!! actually digesting food!!!!!! the feeling of having something physically in your throat and stomach!!!! and everything that comes with that, like bloating and growling stomach and cramping and having to learn how much to eat all over again because they don’t remember what actually being full feels like

boring mundane shit like washing their hands or cleaning their teeth or holding pens or something. are their fine motor skills fucked now??

literally just standing up from their hospital beds and walking again

did they start trying to dress like their avatars again? asuna feels most comfortable in red and white post-sao, but does anyone look for fantasy-looking shirts or skirts they can get away with wearing?

do the girls feel awkward in flat shoes? the majority of them wore some kind of heel in sao

the absolute sensory overload from every single thing. fabric, hair, air, their own skin, all of it

are their sleep schedules thrown off because they’re used to being up late in dungeons??

hearing their real names and taking a moment to actually process that that’s them, they’re not their avatar anymore (asuna obviously wouldn’t have that issue lol)

how many times would kazuto and asuna hear a kid cry for mom and dad and turn around out of instinct?

They were gone for two years. How many people moved on? How many people got married, gave birth, died, grew up, while their loved ones were fighting bosses in a video game? They obviously lost their jobs, kids got far behind in school.

That’s just what went on outside. Their vision probably glitched, conversations with real-looking people went perfectly rehearsed because they were NPCs. They repeated conversations over and over, unchanging. How long did it take to remind themselves that every person is really a person, and nobody is just a construct?

They went years with the threat of death hanging over their heads. Instincts etched into their brains for the sake of survival that their bodies can’t keep up with. How long did it take to train out the instinct to check for a red mark hanging above people’s heads? Were they scared by the concept of killers not having a brand identifying them to anybody who looked?

They spent two years in an avatar. How uncomfortable would it be to go from a fake body to a real one? Do you think SAO simulated hair growth? Bodily functions? Did they have to relearn what hunger felt like? Did they forget that their body could only handle so much food after being used to a virtual world where they could eat as much as they wanted for the taste alone? Did they forget what it felt like to feel full? Did they throw up the first time they felt a weight in their stomach after eating because they were used to nothing more than a bar going up?

Think of the body image issues. Two years in a virtual body, completely unchanging. How scared would they be to gain weight, to feel fat where there had only been pixels? Were they relieved or disturbed?

A lot of them were kids. Did their bodies change while they were unconscious? Did they wake up to a body that had changed without them? Even discounting puberty, Kirito looked emaciated in that bed. Their growth could have been stunted.

And these kids were alone for two years. Forced to mature, forced to become entirely self-sufficient—and then what? They wake up and live in their parents houses on their parents money with no way to get their own. How trapped would they feel? To know that adults didn’t have a reason to respect them anymore, because they didn’t have a reputation in the real world, they weren’t powerful out here. They were just kids again.

Ignoring the obvious tragedy of being in a death game for two years, how pointless did it feel? They’re back now. It’s over. They worked themselves to the bone for two years to get back to a world that wants them to move on. The friends they made online could be completely unreachable now. And no parent wants to hear their kid talk about the place that took them away, that tried to kill their child—but that was their world for two years. They made friends there, they bonded over their tragedy and they can’t just leave it behind.

For the people on the outside it was losing someone and getting them back again. For the people online it was losing everything, rebuilding yourself despite that, and then losing everything again. And you have what you originally lost, but is it worth losing what you gained afterward?

My Writings' Guide:

Red: Incomplete / Editing / Drafts

Blue: Complete

Chapters: In chronological order

Unknown: Not in any particular order

⚠️Mature-related posts* will be marked with appropriate Content Labels.

[ Reader discretion advised. ] ⚠️

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Solo Leveling

Trial Player AU

Summary: Daydream #1

Chapters: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7], [8], [9], [10], [11], [12], [13], [14], [15], [16], [17], [18], [19], [20], [21], [22], [23]

Unknown: [?.1], [?.2], [?.3]

Related Asks:

TP!Reader's powers explained: [1], [2], [3]

How I write this series: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7]

Miscellaneous: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7*], [8], [9], [10], [11*], [12], [13*], [14*]

Other inspo: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7], [8], [9], [10]

Others: [1], [2], [3], [4], [4.5], [5], [6]

Recent Updates:

Added fight scene in the draft of chapter 6, parts of the original moved to draft of chapter 5 [13/11/2024]

Added more details in the draft of chapter 10, parts of the original moved to draft of chapter 11 [16/11/2024]

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Want to know more about my stories? Or share anything else? Feel free to ask and I shall answer them in the tag: #Hollow's Talks

Oliver: Your wife, who constantly claims to want nothing more than to laze around in bed, has turned the villa into a school for new maids, effectively fixing our staffing problem, has made connections with a large up and coming merchant company by curing the owners little sisters illness, giving her connections to their connections all over the world, has concocted a scheme to give the poor people in the slums work, boosting our economy, and has now formed a friendship with your little brother, the person who tried to kidnap her, and has access to all of his connections...

Oliver: It seems as though your wife is building up her factions.

but wait, oh, i see - it was fated by heaven and hell. ah, now i understand why you are the way that you are. your souls were bound, your father only an accessory to your story, and once you finish the prophecy-

oh, you - you avoided the prophecy? oh, you sidestepped the will of our planet's most powerful beings, your only weapon being the raw desire to protect your brother? Wait, I get it, that was always god's plan. you are god's favorite story, trapped between the pages of his cruel book, and once you overpower God-

I mean, let's just think about it.

60% of what Cas says is "Dean" in infinite inflections, the other 40% literally makes zero sense and it's totally unfunny if the lines are not delivered to perfection. Yet, Misha slays every effing time.

On the other hand, 60% of what Crowley says are sexual innuendos, the other 40% are pop culture references that I personally don't get half of the time (I'm not from the US). Yet, Mark eats and leaves no crumbs every effing time.

And they both have spent 8+ years in the same frigging costumes.

Supernatural 6x18 // 14x18 // 15x09