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I run to you

youre always there

and you know me too well

you see me, so weary and weak

and with no emotion

guide me through this hell

and with eyes so heavy

i speak of my sadness

wishing this all could end

youre the only one who truly

sees my struggle firsthand

with your eyes you tell me

you already know

as you give me a second

of comfort and ease

you’ll never go

I’m angry I say

I keep letting Anna get away

and I can’t stop destroying my life

further and further

all because of a drug

I’ve pushed everyone away

I’m so lonely it eats at me

and I’m angry at this

self infliction

I say all of this seeing if you’ll ever leave

But you already know,

and you’ll never go.

One glance and my eyes

tell you im sick

shaky hands and eyes exhausted

from lack of rest

i cant eat or drink

without getting nauseous

creating moments too shameful

I threw up on myself earlier

in the shower 

but you dont ask questions

and i cant say it out loud

but you already know 

and as you give me relief