Serenaded by the terror bird.

Not that am leaving, its just been so long since a personal post. Am on new medication that makes me so dizzy and nauseated - its the easter hols and i can barely leave the house. I don’t want to leave the house, people have kind of gotten scary to be around? Hard to explain. Not agoraphobia, different kettle of fish. I miss people. But its also really hard to reach out to people? I have one group chat and a family one, thas about it. Am trying to keep positive with my photo a day challenge but even thas hard. Who even am i anymore, I used to take 12 hours in Dublin parties like a champ, meet lots of people, drink then sober up and be back in Donegal to pick up toots. I’m racked with over-emotions everyday. Ye can’t go buying coffee for yer mum and cry half way through for some reason. I’m ranting here because i can, its not scary if nobody might never read it. I don’t know who i am anymore, i’m hella weak and insecure and cause/effect i’ve become undone with even my closest of friends and i miss them so much. Am finding it hard to be the best Mo i can when i feel like a broken parent.