she doesnât like the awkwardness. it had been going on for too long, festered in a place it wasnât welcome. and when mijoo had wanted to change the tides, time was not of the essence â their schedules had piled up and comebacks became stacked against one another. a day became a week all too quickly; weeks turning into months until mijoo began to stare at her phone day by day wondering if it would be weird for her to call the younger girl out of the blue.
too much had been left unsaid and come june, mijoo couldnât even remember the last time she talked to soohyun.
and that pained her. after years of talking to the younger girl everyday, filling gaps between lessons and lunch breaks with their everyday chatter, it felt odd suddenly going without it. sure, their weekly phone calls when mijoo had moved into the luxe dorm had helped fill those inklings but in the last few months â theyâve been aching sparse.Â
so much so that now, mijoo couldnât help but latch onto whatever piece of their friendship she could find, whether it be the warmth in the otherâs hug or the hands that held her own. this, mijoo tightens, fingers locking onto soohyunâs as she nods.  âa walk sounds great.â a foot forward, another into the right direction.Â
space always makes or breaks a relationship. days that once were filled with chats and outings, were now filled with avoidance and awkwardness. soohyun remembers how sheâd latch onto the older girl following her, listening to her.. bonding. she never had sisters, and most of her cousins were boys, also waaay younger than she was. so she never had a sisterly bond like this, and with everything that had happened she missed it even more.Â
soohyun is so happy that sheâs caught mijoo like this, and now she had a chance to just explain herself. âgreat, thank you.â she begins as now theyâre walking in whatever direction, it doesnât really matter to her at this point. âso first of all, if youâre wondering, iâll just.. say it so you donât have to think it.â she gives mijooâs hand a gentle squeeze, âiâm so proud of you.â itâs an honest statement, âand i know i havenât been acting like i am, just know that i always have been and will be. iâve been acting so distant and weird, iâm sorry.â iâm an adult.. but i donât know how to control my emotions sometimes...Â
thatâs not your fault.Â
âso much happened so fast you know? iâm sure both our heads were spinning.â soohyun says with a bittersweet smile, victims in godâs plan. the moon princess only hoped the lessons and rewards far outweighed the distance and pain the two experienced.Â