i want it, i get it

it was just a little bit before they had to start the group practice for glass shoes. "hello! and welcome to heartz." eunji bowed her head to the other girl, "i'm eunji and i'll ask you right off the bat, how do you feel about our group evaluation?" it was half and half when for her when it came to this one. the song wasn’t her style but the dance was enough of a challenge to keep her interested in. and more than that, she just wanted to make some conversation. 

Her eyes were focused and intense as she takes in Eunji’s every movement. The choreography suited the other girl greatly and for the first time in this whole experiment, Eunbi thought that Sphere is finally going to get to know their trainees’ perspective. How individually, Eunji’s routine is so different from her own and distinctly Eunbi, she hopes that Sphere takes that into consideration when choosing the girls who would end up debuting and joining the group. 

“I’d loved it! It’s very you, Eunji-unnie! There were some parts where I felt like you were a step behind but otherwise you were very sharp.” Smiling brightly as she watched Eunji settled, “Really? I’ve worked on the music arrangements for it two days ago and just managed to complete the choreography yesterday so I would love to hear your opinion on it.” Standing as she makes her way towards the speakers, “if you don’t mind?”

this was still the planning stage, she didn’t know what she wanted to do next. and she didn’t want to be lazy about it, even if she didn’t know what she wanted to do, she needed to prepare something at least. so, it was still good to get feedback, even if she didn’t end up going with this. she could save it for later. 

Downtime

In all honesty, his head was spinning. Sure, it wasn’t as though Moonbok didn’t have any experience with this kind of this things before, he’d no problem admitting that he’d had his share of girlfriends (and boyfriends, though they’d always been kept secret.), but Eunji was different. She wound him up in ways that no-one else had managed before now. It was both amazing and slightly terrifying.

(Maybe it was all to do with the thrill of what was between them being utterly forbidden by Sphere.)

Captured in another kiss (a ‘shut up’ kiss, at that), Moonbok let himself melt into it, his arms tightening slightly around his girlfriend. Only when oxygen became a dire need did he break away, breathing heavily, his cheeks flushed and his hair a mess around his face.

“You… You’re seriously gonna kill me one of these days, y’know that, Eunji-yah?” he asked breathlessly, leaning forward to kiss her forehead before gently maneuvering both of them away from the counter, lest they somehow manage to break anything. Moonbok laughed at the expression of discontent on his girlfriend’s face and squeezed her closer to him.

“Come on, take pity on me. The counter was digging into my back! If you’re gonna attack me like that, can’t you pick somewhere comfortable~?”

eunji found herself enjoying her make-out session with moonbok. more so happy that moonbok was finally letting go and giving her what she wanted. even when he pulled away to breath. ( and who really needed to do that? ) she pouted, some say woman shouldn’t be too forward but it wasn’t something she applied to herself. how else would she get what she wanted?

and she wanted him. 

Luda was already seated at the table before she really processed the little ambush. The girl’s serious expression made her a little nervous—had she done something wrong? She’d barely been around though, so that shouldn’t be it. Still curious, Luda waited for the other to talk first and once she heard Eunji’s question, it wasn’t really all that surprising. Her shoulders relaxed again and she took a moment to think her answer through. They were allowed to talk about their solos, but she did want to leave a bit of surprise left and everything would really be a bit too much information to stay interesting.

“Well, it’s a surprisingly soft song for summer, not upbeat at all. It’s about a person who fell in love but doesn’t have the courage to tell the other person,” how ironic, this is exactly how she would feel in the protagonists situation. “It feels a bit like looking out of a bus or train window when travelling for a while and simply staring at the sunlit scenery passing by,” she added as a more ‘emotional’ kind of description.

She was smiling at the other’s curiosity and took a moment to think again. There was so much to talk about, yet at the same time Luda didn’t want to bore her. “Hm… ah! I won’t be filming in Korea either!” she added, her smile widening and if this was a fanfiction, her eyes would probably be described as 'sparkling with excitement’.

“Is there anything more specific you’d like to know?” Luda asked.

the song seemed like a fairly safe one, leaning towards a ballad. it wasn’t a surprise that sphere like to flexed the vocals a bit. about the feelings? she hadn’t reached that state yet. eunji was rather straight forward person. “it seems..sweet and romantic, it is sweet and romantic.” if not a little boring but she didn’t want to say that. “do you feel like it fits you? concept wise? vocal wise?” 

“you won’t?” eunji pouted, almost laying out on the table. “can you put me in your suitcase and take me with you? i’ll make it work.” if she got picked, she hopped she’d have the chance to film outside of korea. a little different from minhee’s though, you didn’t get to see much of paris in the music video. “honestly, i wan tot know everything, whatever you can tell me.”

。˚∘ comfort zone ;

chungha still feels unsettled with the choreography even as eunji says it’s fine. but she feels worse when eunji tells her that she could do better.

“no i can’t,” chungha quickly responds with wide eyes. “i didn’t even come up with the choreography! you see that? it’s amazing that i kept up during the workshop.” though admittedly the video was when she had finally mastered the full thing. she didn’t bother cleaning it up yet. knowing how long its been, she possibly would still be shaky with it still. she needed to clean it up, needed to get more fluid with her movements.

“look how jerky i used to move. i definitely can’t come up with something better.” she sighed. something always held her back when it came to choreography tweaks. she always felt herself hesitate. “honestly, any time i think i can do something, i fail miserably.” in truth it was her being so cocky she just sets herself up for failure.

“this is my thing. dancing? i can nail this but i don’t want to be so cocky that i just end up messing everything up. i don’t know how much i can fix…”

“yes, you can.” eunji’s response was even quicker. in fact, she placed both hands on the other girl and pulled her close, her gaze serious. “okay, so you used to move jerky, it’s been a while and you have to clean it up.” all of that good stuff that her unnie seemed to worry about it. “you don’t have to change it completely, if you’re worried about it. just upgrade it a little.” it was just the peak of her skill. 

“you said this was a years ago right? you’ve improved since then, i believe in you.” and maybe, it was time to be a little honest. “sure, if you create choreography now, it might not be enough for them to pick you this month but singing is my thing and look at me.” she hadn’t been picked for debut yet. 

RKHEARTZ / June Eval / ‘God’s Menu’ 

she felt guilty not spending as much time she used to with eunji nowadays due to the whole heartz situation, so she was happy to watch the girl practice and help her review her performance to help her give her winning chance. this evaluation fascinated her since it was purely dancing no singing or rapping, she was excited to see what everyone prepared since eunji, sua, chaeyeon, chungha & juyeon are really good dancers. it was truly the heartz dance off clearly this role would be for someone who’s main dancer. it is suspicious they haven’t released information on what our future roles in the group, it is only assumptions. minhee do feel like they were chosen due to her charisma since it was all about visuals in the music video. 

minhee happily cheered eunji after her performance but it was cut short by seeing her friend looking very irritated by the fact she wasn’t picked, it must be scary thing to be feeling wondering not be picked or not. “I think they are got master plan, they are choosing girls which are suited to their concepts which we have no idea what it is….you are talented performer and I think your time will come soon-” she hummed in thought wanting to help her dongsaeng, “you should do dance which makes you happy and enjoy doing- people look best when they are having fun and showing their passion for dance.” she explained being honest on what they want to see since the audience do not want to see robot dancing on stage.  

“master my ass.” eunji muttered, trying to not sound like too much of a brat. ( she’s working on it. ) yeah, sure..minhee was right in the fact that they needed a concept that matched her. and she didn’t vibe with any of the concepts so far aside from minhee’s. ( ballad’s weren’t really her thing. ) but she was a good vocalist so, it just didn’t make sense to her. 

yeah, she was a little bitter. 

"what do you think of this month's song?" it was bright and cute but intense in a way. "it's not that bad this time around." she could see the focus on dancing as well. "i think i'll be able to get this down fairly quickly." maybe quicker if she wasn't focused on creating her choreography for her solo performance.

“You’re not a bitch, who the hell said that you?!” Granted, Moonbok was well aware that Eunji mightn’t have been the nicest person in Sphere (or in the world, for that matter), but ‘bitch’ was a bit much, as far as he was concerned. He certainly knew people who were far worse personality-wise than his girlfriend. 

“If anyone ever says that to you again, I’ll end them…even if it’s the CEO herself…” he mumbled, scooping the last few pieces of food into his mouth and even managing to pout while chewing. Letting out a soft huff, he pushed his plate aside as he mulled over Eunji’s words.

“Mmh…. you’re right. I mean, here we both are, at Sphere, when we were nobodies before hand. Well, I was anyway.” he hastily amended. “But the best thing was meeting you and going on that first date…. I’m still glad you didn’t slap me that day outside Sphere, though. Even if you had the right.” he flushed slightly, especially when he realized that Eunji’s plate was now empty too. Buying himself some time and using the opportunity to hide his red cheeks, Moonbok hurriedly scooped up both their plates and utensils and headed towards the sink, already trying to mentally prepare himself for whatever his girlfriend had planned.

he was cute. getting upset over the truth. eunji was a bitch. maybe not as much as before but she knew it. “tons of people.” but she reached forward and put a hand on his. “but mostly me.” she didn’t mind calling herself out. ( it’s not as if it changed her much. that was most likely worse. ) “awww, is bok willing to fight baek jiyoung herself for me? i’m flattered.” for added measure, she fluttered her eye-brows. 

“hey, i’m still a nobody in arms.” she hadn’t debuted yet and her stint on the mga’s wasn’t that helpful. by the end, she was pretty sure people were wondering who she was and how she got a contract. “don’t worry, if you do something deserving of a slapping, i’ll get right to it..” she trailed off as she watched bok, a twinkle in her eyes even though he couldn’t see it. “though..not all slapping has to be bad...” she hummed at the end of her sentence and walked up behind moonbok, wrapping her arms around him. 

"so what did you think?" eunji said as she finally sat down on the floor, breathing a little heavily. the mix had been a minute of three different songs, a scratch separating them. it showed of a variety of dance skills. "and if you want! i can watch you to, if you have anything you want to work on?" eunji didn't mind lending a helping hand seeing as chaeyeon was willing to help her out.

"tell me everything about your solo." minhee kept her mouth shut and didn't give eunji the details she wanted. it couldn't have been that much of a secret and she felt like the other girl wanted to tease her. "don't hold anything back like minhee did, tell me everything. i'll know if you leave anything out." eunji was dying to know, at this point she'd be living through the other girl until she got her own chance to debut. if she got her own chance to debut. "i'm all ears.” 

"come shopping with me for a bit. i haven't had a real shopping spree in a such a long time." this would also be sua's first time finding out just how much eunji loved spending money, this time it just happened to be clothes. "i want to try on outfits and everything." especially the cashier didn't believe she could pay for all of it. for extra measure, she gave sua her best puppy eyes. "please, i won't keep you out for too long, i'll even get us food." and for extra, extra measure eunji pushed her lower lip out in a pout. "you'll have fun i promise."

“i am irritated and i’m working on not being irritated.” minhee really was the only person she could talk to about this. the only person in heartz at least. “you get first girl and i get it. i don’t make two, i don’t make three. they deserve it they do but..i’m worried.” then she made a face, as if it hurt to say it out loud, being emotional. “so, help me not think about it so i don’t become bitter.” already, slightly there. “do you think i should lean towards a more hip-hop stylist dance or something a lil special. though sphere wouldn’t really need that type of dancer. not for heartz, what do you think?”