𝖕𝖗𝖎𝖒𝖆𝖉𝖔𝖓𝖓𝖆 𝖌𝖎𝖗𝖑.

making sure she was still at the company as he pulls up in front of it, the male doesn’t even mention so much as her birthday. pretending to just having forgotten about it, he can’t help but feel a little mischievous as he parks in front of the sphere building, roof down, shades on and just nailing down the cocky, rich boy douchebag look.

even when he spots her walking out, he merely leans over the passenger seat, waving for her to notice him before yelling an all time iconic phrase, with some slight modification, across the street.

“get in bday girl. we’re going shopping!”

     heejin wasn’t expecting jungkook to show up like this, waiting for her as flamboyantly as ever in his car like a parent picking up their child from school, but maybe she should’ve— her cousin has always had a knack for making things even bigger than they would’ve been earlier, but despite the mild embarrassment she may feel from the looks she gets as she approaches his car, training back in hand and hair pulled into a neat ponytail, heejin can’t help but be happy.

     she doesn’t say anything as she stands before the passenger door, eyes narrowed at him as she takes in the act he’s put on, but as she finally open the door and set her bag near her feet as she moves to get in, a smile breaks out on her face and she’s laughing.

— late nights

she hums in an attempt to avoid the conversation, trying to steer it in another way but since she hasn’t quite figured out how, she settles for this instead. it’s not that she doesn’t want to share things with heejin — the other girl is her best friend, and they always talk about things like this. but usually it’s heejin talking and yeji listening, or if she does say something it’s never serious, like a crush on a celebrity or a barista who gave didn’t charge her for extra caramel in her drink, someone who’s cute, but not someone who she’ll realistically like. keeping her crushes relegated to just her fantasies makes it easier for her to not be disappointed, so she won’t ever feel the crushing weight of heartbreak! not that she’s ever really felt it, but she’s watched enough dramas by now that she knows it’s not fun. 

“well it’s not like you haven’t seen him.” she mumbles, trying to be vague but also tell heejin at the same time. it didn’t really make sense but she’s too hesitant to do anything else. “maybe you can just go off of feeling?” yeji laughs, hardly able to take herself seriously at this point, so she shifts her position, taking a bit of the food that she made. “you’re being a little impatient, but is that really such a bad thing? i think it’s normal.”

she pushes a side dish of pickled cucumbers over to the other girl, taking one herself and chewing thoughtfully. “i’m sure they have plans for you anyways. by now they’ve seen what you can do, and i feel like they wouldn’t just let you go?” just heejin’s face is already enough to debut on it’s own, but heejin is also talented, has a pretty voice and a good personality, and she gives good reactions for shows. yeji doesn’t know anyone who would be more suited to being an idol that heejin would. “of course i believe in you! you don’t have to thank me for that, what are friends for, right?”

     heejin trusts yeji— she has no reason not to, not with how long the two of them have known one another, sticking by each others sides for support and care in the same vein heejin has with her older sister. there’s a bond, resilient and unbreakable, so maybe that’s why heejin wants to know the details any time yeji brings up another face she finds herself developing a crush on, even if it’s just something in the moment. they’re the same age, but heejin feels protective, not wanting someone so kind to feel any sort of potential hurt.

     she knows its very unnecessary, especially considering yeji isn’t a child, nor was she dumb. sometimes, however, heejin just couldn’t help the mother hen tendencies she’s developed over time. she does well to keep herself in check, backing off when she knows she shouldn’t press too hard because it’s not like there’s an obligation for her to know everything. so, she lays off a little, forgoing her need to know and replacing it with something more lighthearted. “oh, so he’s got a face already in my mind, huh? guess i’m gonna have to keep an eye out...” with that, she simply raises a brows, mock suspicion on her features, minor plotting already underway.

‧ ₊ ˚ ♡ NEEDED.

there’s at least something that she dislikes about being a confirmed member of heartz  -  amongst all the uncertainty and the fury, they’ve basically stripped her away wholly from heejin.  either that, or heejin has just distanced herself from her and that’s not something that sua is really pleased with either.  although the younger girl was more than happy about her confirmation for debut, sua at this point can’t help but wonder what the distancing was about.  there was so much time this month where she was alone, left to rot in a dorm room that was quiet and unfamiliar.  in the end, she ended up at home more than she even slept in the dorm and it was supposed to be her first month in a brand new place.  heejin could have come over to spend just as much time as they could have together, considering the fact that sua supposes things will get harder now that she’ll be filming in the coming weeks.

at least there’s tonight, but sua doesn’t plan on letting this lie.  she’s not the type to swallow her unhappiness  -  not anymore, not with the people that she cares about.  she stands up and she fights, and that’s where sphere was wrong about her.  she may be lying low for now, but there is no part of sua that has lost her venom.  " … fine.  there’s not much to say about it.  it’s about the same level of annoyance that i expected.“  sua sits gracefully next to the place heejin is curled up on the couch, frowning only slightly.  ” there are more important things to talk about, anyway.“  she turns her head to look at heejin, obvious disapproval in her eyes.  ” do you want to explain to me why you barely even talked to me this month?“

     while suas actions don't give anything away at first, seamless and natural just as heejin has always known them to be, it’s the shift in her tone, immediate and pressing ( unrelenting and demanding, things the younger both admires and occasionally fears on the scarce chance they’re directed her way ), that’s got her feeling warm with embarrassment— already she feels like a child about to be scolded, but, when she thinks about it, maybe that’s not far off from the truth. she’s rarely ever in the hot seat, not one to cause herself the hassle of being in the wrong, but she knows now that, while unintentional, she’s upset someone she loves.

( 💌 ) HEEKIES UPLOADED A NEW POST!

     heejin will admit it— throughout september, she hasn’t spent as much time with sua as she normally would, but her reasons are anything but malicious. from the moment the older woman was picked as the next girl to debut, heejin couldn’t have been any happier, couldn’t have been any more proud, to see sua get something she was so deserving of. heejin admired her for a lot of things, but her ability to preserver and work hard was something heejin thought incredibly highly of, and with that in mind, heejin had thought the older woman might want to double down on her debut preparations.

     so, heejin does her best not to seem like a bother, not wanting to take up too much time during something where suas attention was required. now that it’s the end of the month, heejin feels a bit lighter, happy to be at suas apartment after being away for a bit. she’s curled up on the couch, wrapped in a blanket, head resting on the back cushion as she looked at sua. “what have debut preparations been like?”

‧ ₊ ˚ ♡ LOST AND..?

with heejin behind her yuzu feels a little more brave. she’s not that much older but the difference is enough to make her feel responsible. “hmmm I got gahyeon’s number but I ain’t think she’s all that helpful- considerin’ we’re both from royal,” yuzu concludes with a chuckle. she takes a look at her phone, wondering who else she could contact but sua sounded like the best call actually. “maybe would be better- oh wait I think it was here!”

she moves to the mentioned room, this one without a window to peek through and opens the door just a little only for confused, random faces to stare back at her. she startles back and nods her head in apology before closing the door again, lips pulling into a grimace as she puts her palms flat onto the door after closing it. “ops.”

she waits until there is music blasting from the other side again before she allows herself to snort out a tiny laugh, feeling along the wall to move onto another room instead. “so… about callin’ sua…”

     heejin doesn’t say anything at first as she watches the older girl inspect another room, yuzu’s clear amusement at accidently interrupting a different groups work infectious, and heejin can’t help the small laugh she lets out alongside the older. “finding the right room would be so much easier if all the doors had little windows for us to peak inside with— why didn’t the people who made this building just do that, it’d be so much more convenient for times like this.” heejin huffs lightly, hands resting on her hips lightly.

‧ ₊ ˚ ♡ WORDS OF ADVICE.

after the busy part of the schedule finished towards the end of the month seem like the perfect time to prepare herself for the upcoming debut which means rest was needed because she did not want to injury herself before even promoting with heartz 1/3. she took her time sat down in the practice room humming the tune of their debut single which seem to be stuck in here, it reminded her of berry good single or something along those lines. 

during her break it seem she had visitor, her doppelganger heejin, she observe her body language she seem either nervous or tired not sure on which. the moment the younger opened her mouth asking her for advice, it came quite a shock to her but naturally she was willing to help any way she can. “come, sit down for a moment and tell me what you need ~ I’ll do my best to help you-” she smiled warmly patting down on empty space next to her on the wooden floors of the practice room offering spare water bottle too, just in case she was feeling little bit tired and dehydrated too. it is important to look after each other especially through tough practices.

     heejin can’t deny the happiness she feels at jiyeons welcoming personality, easily making her way to the spot the older woman had patted beside her. she’s unsure if she wants the water bottle held out to her, but in the end, she decides to accept it as well, knowing that even if she doesn’t drink from it right away, it’d be a good thing to have for later. she sets it down beside her as she settles on the floor with jiyeon, getting herself comfortable before she begins to speak. while she isn’t nervous, it still takes her a moment to voice herself, testing the waters gently with her own vulnerability.

     since they’re first meeting, it’s been easy for heejin to let jiyeon in, albeit still with some apprehension. allowing newly admired acquaintances into her life is something she’s not let herself to too often in the past, prior heartache and hurt closing herself off in favor of protection. it’s been easier for her to let her walls down over this last year, but in the back of her mind, there’s still a want and need to be cautious. jiyeon, however, hasn’t shown her any cruelty— in every way, she’s been kind, and so while the older woman has no obligation to take part in monthly evaluations with the non confirmed girls, heejin still finds herself seeking jiyeon out for a bit of help.

     normally, if she needed advice, she’d go to sua, but with sua now needing to prepare for her solo debut, heejin decides not to take up too much of her current time and ask jiyeon instead. “do you have a second?” jiyeon is easy to find during heejins break, and while she still feels a bit winded from practice, she does her best not to let it show. “i...need a little advice.”

— late nights

“hmm….” she hums, making no move to show her friend the picture again. maybe another time, she thinks, when she doesn’t feel the crippling weight of ( possible? probable? ) rejection looming over her head. but you can’t get rejected if you never say anything, and that’s the path that yeji is preparing to go. “maybe later. you’ve probably seen him around anyways. but isn’t a millisecond enough to see that he’s cute?” yeji laughs jokingly in some strange attempt to deflect, leaving her phone face down next to her and leaning one elbow against the table as she puts a spoonful of rice into her mouth.

“well, you just have to wait, right?” she has no doubt in her mind that heejin would get in. even if she’s competing against other people, yeji can’t imagine anyone else who would be more suited to debut. heejin is pretty and talented, and she has all the makings of a successful idol. even better that they get solos, because then she can show the full extent of her talents.

on some level, maybe yeji is a little jealous. she’s been here for two years now, with no hopes of a debut in sight. and even though getting a solo before debut sounded like an absolute dream, and she could have went with heejin and auditioned for the new sphere girl group, it just didn’t feel right for her. there was so much more that she wanted to work on and perfect before she felt like she could show it to the public, and she somehow felt like she wasn’t enough. “that’s understandable though, even if you’re happy for them you want to be the one who’s debuting. but don’t worry, it’ll come, i’m sure of it.”

     heejin has to try very hard not to roll her eyes too much at yejis boy talk, her own amusement bubbling despite her best attempts at acting annoyed with the answers she isn’t getting. between the two of them, it’s obvious that heejin has shared a lot of her own love life details ( willingly, of course, because why wouldn’t she when the other girl is practically a second sister ) much more, so whenever it seems like yeji is on the cusp a crush, she can’t help her own curiosity. she’d never pry, not if the other was uncomfortable with saying anything for whatever reason, but she’d sure as hell poke until told to stop. “a millisecond is hardly enough to even judge his fashion sense, how can i judge his face?”

     “i’m just....being impatient and stubborn, i know,” she drones out, falling from her comfortable position to drape along the couch dramatically. at her movements, she hears conan shuffle his way towards her, and as she lays, she reaches a hand to gently pet him. while she still has ways to go, heejin has been trying to her best to keep her ego in check, but sometimes she cracks.

doppelganger

maybe it is true about companies having certain look they want in their companies since their similar features, however she got a feeling heejin is much more talented than herself since younger ones always have so much energy too. if they did check their family tree, it is possible they got some long lost ancestor who looks like them like in those movies too. either way, it was truly fascinating to meet someone who look so alike hopefully their personalities aren’t too similar because that would be beyond creepy for both parties she reckoned.

 “perfect! let’s get some food then!” she suggested leading them towards the buffet table, grabbing herself paper plate while making casual conversation, “so I’m guessing your dream is to be idol like most trainees here? well for starters since that is always great platform to launch from to get yourself out there….let me see…you look like another dancer possibly?? you’re pretty, you got great posture too…tell me wrong…it is just assumption~” she is most likely wrong but it is best to stab in the dark to see what her talents lie and what she is most passionate about too.

     prior to all of this, heejin hadn’t really been sure what to think of jiyeon— as someone much younger, it was only natural for her to gravitate more towards the other girls closer in age ( along with sua, of course ) as it’d be assumed they’d have an easier time getting along. as a result, heejin hadn’t had a proper chance to really speak with the older woman and learn about her personality. maybe that’s why she’s glad for the chance now. for the short amount of time they’ve now spend talking, it’s easy for her to tell that the other is welcoming enough and thoughtful. heejin appreciates that.

‧ ₊ ˚ ♡ MORE AND MORE.

she’d be lying if she said she was completely comfortable with the whole decision of letting her become part of the project. while she will admit being in sphere was a great opportunity, let alone being in the project so soon, she couldn’t help but feel as if it was a little too overwhelming for her. especially because just weeks before she got signed, she was just a normal girl with a normal job and life. 

and though she was willing to get herself to know more faces in hopes of feeling more comfortable and familiarizing herself with everyone, she still found herself going to those familiar faces the most. chungha lived with mina and yoorim was basically going through the same trainee experience she was. gahyeon and yuzu were also given to know her more, but even then they were busy with royal while she was still bored with how life was going with her. 

so getting to see a familiar face, even if they didn’t get as many opportunities to talk as much, was already relieving enough for her. and the fact that the jeon heejin approached her while also recognizing her was already enough to make mina happy. yes, she knew heejin’s roommate as well as the fact that her brother worked with her before. but it was still a big deal to her! she’s inclined to feel blessed. 

however, she will note that it was bold of her to assume that mina could ever dislike her. “no! oh my god, never,” she says immediately, ignoring the fact that she used the lord’s name in vain (thanks mom for enforcing that on her). but when the other gives her a smile, it’s more of assurance that she’s not doing anything bad. she sighs in relief and returns the smile. “i’ll call you unnie, then. if that’s okay, i mean,” she answers, her doubt still showing through her answer, but she thinks it’s not much of a big deal for the both of them. “it is a little overwhelming, considering i just signed not too long ago. but i’m trying my best with everything!” she then gives a thumbs up. “i’m really glad to see you, though! it’s nice seeing more familiar faces.”

     the younger girls reaction is one that pulls an amused laugh out of her, heejins lips curling upwards into an almost delighted smile, and she hopes mina doesn’t take her teasing actions to heart too much. judging by both her words and actions, however, heejin is sure everything is fine. from what she remembered, the younger girl knew how to play well, was honest in her own right, and, thankfully, wasn’t someone who held herself back ( at least, heejin felt like she didn't hold herself back ).

     while heejin tended to be fairly judgmental of people, especially when it came to first meetings, her first few encounters with mina had gone down a little differently, mainly because the two had a common denominator to help ease them into a more friendly relationship. daniel was nice, someone heejin had come to trust and appreciate pretty quickly from how much time they’d needed to spend together, so by association, mina was easy to approach. of course, she’d had her own reservations, but there wasn’t a need to be too distant or give the cold shoulder while taking in her personality.

     so, she’s happy the two of them are here together now. while they both needed to keep their guards up as they trained to try and secure their own spots within the project, there was still ample time to talk to one another on their own accords. this was a good opportunity, and heejin wouldn’t let it slip by just yet.

fingers brush through heejin’s hair, keeping her hold on the younger girl gentle.  though it’s been awhile since heejin has joined the heartz project and in that, joined sphere, it is the first time that they’ve found the right time to catch up in the form of one of their sleepovers.  heejin keeps ahold of sua like she’s searching for comfort and sua is loathe to let her go.  not when it seems like heejin needs her in this moment  -  it’s easy to read the younger girl, at least for her.  " is everything okay ..?“ she finally asks, brushing gently through a knot that she’s found in heejin’s  hair with her fingers.  ” you can talk to me, you know.  about anything.“

she pulls away gently from their embrace, her hands falling to heejin’s shoulders and holding onto her just as gently.  ” or are you just so happy to be here again that it’s made you emotional?“ her brow lifts quizzically and it’s true that heejin is probably the only person aside from hyun that she’d be this playful with.  

stepping away and tapping heejin on the back to coax her towards the bath, she searches for her cell with her free hand in her bag.  ” then you’re eating.  you can’t keep eating snacks for dinner, heejin.“  sua sighs and shakes her head, her voice sounding like that of a disappointed mother.  ” where they always are.  when you’re done, you can come to the kitchen, the food should be here by then.“  she pauses.  ” and be careful of jin.  he’ll probably attack you as soon as he hears you walking around.“

     there’s silence for a moment, heejin keeping mum, simply letting the older comb fingers through her hair, and already heejin can feel herself growing tired. it’s so easy to forget just how tired she can sometimes get when she spends her days constantly trying to show her best— it’s been that way for her for a long time, and while she’d never admit it, there are times when everything comes somewhat close to a breaking point. she’s a strong girl, she knows she is, but even someone like her has moment where she needs comfort ( regardless of whether she’d admit it or not ).

     when sua pulls away, heejin feels embarrassment at how easy it is for sua to understand her. it’s not bad, she quiet likes that the older has that ability, but it’s only natural since not many are able to do that with her. “i just missed being here, ok...” she’s slightly pouty, eyes wide.