Why I dont go out? Why I dont talk? Why I shut people out? Why why why? Because they will act like a cactus and expect you to hug them, whenever they want, they will use you as a side fucking timepass when they are bored, they will take you for granted, they will hurt you with their thorns and ask if you are okay, yet you keep hugging them, you dont give up, you never give up on them even when you all bathe in your blood, and when they finally kill you and you fall down, they will say "what now? You changed? Why dont you stand up and hug me? Were you this selfish?" man you just killed the person who wanted to live for you, you were the one who killed him and now you expect things to be okay? Nah it doesnt work like that, being an introvert is the kind of power very few can handle, yes it is difficult in the beginning but when you go through these times all alone and survive them, you get this feeling of 'not depending on anyone to survive', thats the part when you realize just how strong you became, and what made you this? Being an introvert. These extroverts always need people and other human's shoulders to cry on, we don't, we fall in private, we rise in private. The world is not trustworthy, and we know that, (finally know that) this world will only remember you when they need you, they will say you are irreplaceable and then they will replace you, and when they realize that you really aren't replaceable, they will start missing you and hoping that all's forgotten. One day they will treat you like you are everything to them and the other day they will deny to recognize you. We introverts are introverts because we do not wish to become like them, we prefer no company over bad company, whats the point in having a hundred friends when you cant tell your pain to even 1 of them? Whats the point in celebrating all these birthday parties with people who secretly wish you were never born? Whats better? Crying in a room alone or crying in a room with 5 people and still alone?
