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 I have not been using heroin, but I’ve been catching myself using Pills more as a replacement. so, as of now, the plan is to go upstairs and purge, and I guess just redose on my pills and knock out til the morning. I swear I any time I get “clean” from heroin I find a new vice to put my intention to, for example 3dr or replacing a heroin with pills. And struggling with BPD doesn’t make it any easier I notice I’ve been sleeping around more as a way of acting out because I’m upset with my body. I feel like I need validation for men ( which, damn I thought I’d never say that, but here we are) 🫠

I am going to be easy on myself tonight. I just wake up tomorrow and start over. I have my meal prep already done and if I can stick to it, I can at least stay under 600 cal.

I am going to post a body check before bed so hopefully I can start seeing some improvement. Listen to next week..

 And just on a sidenote, I want to thank you all for being so supportive to me.  I really feel like I have a family on Tumblr who understands the things I’m going through I just know vice versa you’re not alone. My DM‘s are open for anyone who needs help or would just like to talk about what’s going on in their life whatever you want to talk about. I’m here for you.💕

Soooooo i’m off the purge right now and I will post body pictures as I’m done and we will go from there ,tomorrow’s a new day🥲