magnificent desolation

there was a first for everything ; she was learning that more and more with the woman on her lips, in her arms...her bed, the sheets holding the warmth they had shared mostly through the night, the sunlight streaming in only warming them more, stirring their scent. their...scent. nyx breathed it in, knowing what her space smelled like, herself...but hana was here too, her scent strong in her lungs, more so no pressing closer to her...kissing her deeper, tangling her fingers into her curls to keep her there for a moment too. she'd never slept through the night with someone else in her bed...had never invited someone to even stay that long, only a few others ever having been in this space and...she felt more rested than she had in weeks, lulled into a peaceful sleep with the younger girl beside her, nyx's arms slinking over her frame to keep her close, to hold her. she'd...never even felt the desire to do that to another human being. she knew the want for attention, the need for pleasure...lust never lasting more than a night...she didn't know this. she didn't know waking up to someone else...someone already looking at her like she was the most drop dead gorgeous thing and it was...different. she hadn't felt like this before and it stirred gentle nerves under her skin, though it was easy enough to focus that energy into the girl in her arms...under her touch, pressed to her skin. she heard her question - it made her pause, a more nervous smile breaking her lips as she ducked her head just a little...dropping her eyes as she cleared her throat, an 'umm' slipping from her lips. she recovered enough after a beat, blinking but managing to find her eyes again as she nodded a little. "yeah..." she told her, her tongue running softly over her own lower lip. " so like...i have really bad insomnia, and...you have witnessed me consume copious amounts of uppers so...you know i don't really sleep." she breathed a laugh, still edged in nerves because she didn't...do this either - talk about feelings and personal things, details. hell, talking this much while being naked was new. "but it was just...yeah. you were already asleep and...i really wanted to be asleep, so i just used your back as a pillow and matched your breathing. sorry if i drooled on you." she told her, her smile breaking a little more earnestly on her lips. "i was out in like...ten minutes though. so...that's new."

a lot of things were - she pulled in a breath with that thought, meeting hana's eyes a little more for a moment before she was met with her lips, nyx's hand in her curls only flexing more in answer as she kissed her back, her heart hamming a little harder in her chest, her stomach twisting more out of...something else, something other than nerves as it was weird, but not...bad. her words made her break softly from her lips with a pant just to kiss across her jaw, down her neck... "we do...and i like that." she murmured, kissing further still down her chest...settling exactly where she wanted to be, where she needed to be right now. looking up at hana like this took her breath away, ripped every ounce of it from her lungs and she let her see that...she wanted her to. god, she was gorgeous and nyx only found her more and more so every time she got to see her like this, or straddling her thighs...on her knees for her...but seeing her in the light of a new day, fresh from sleep, curls a mess...that had hit her differently too and she still felt that under her skin, running through her veins...dripping between her thighs, such a beautiful mix of emotions that she couldn't even properly name, new...foreign. she was figuring it out but...she was more worried about figuring out a few different things at the moment, like...how her girl like to be touched, what made her feel good...how fast she could have her spilling, succumbing to pleasure. kissing her neck had made nyx more aware of her breathing, able to feel the way she drew in sharper breaths the lower she kissed ; her breasts...nyx could already spend countless hours worshipping every inch of her body but...she'd spend the first several kissing across her chest, making tender skin angry from her touch, running her tongue over the warm metal than ran through her left nipple. her scent hit her stronger now and dark eyes ran over her slit...the beautiful flesh between her thighs that was already gently beading heat...just for her and she knew it, her hue midnight as she looked up at her now and held her hue, not daring even to blink as her tongue rolled forward to taste her...to spread her pleasure up to her nerve and suck on her so instantly, moaning against heated flesh from her taste spreading on he tongue, the feel of her...just like this, already spilling gentle sound of pleasure to fill the space, those beautiful little strings of whimpers that shifted into a moan and she felt her own walls drip so instantly to the sheets beneath her, her arms only wrapping around her more, pulling her in against her mouth and guiding her to roll gently.

@reycs​ wrote:  😴 - for a starter where | kody | falls asleep in | luna’s | lap.

she didn’t want to sleep…even though she trusted that she could…she didn’t want to when the last time that she had slept beside kody the morning had hurt more than she had expected it to. it was different now…kody came back to the rig with a different look in her eyes and different words on her tongue, new emotions, feelings she had shared with her…that all made luna so easily trust in her wanting to stay here. part of her knew kody needed to stay here; she was sent here, her mothers wanted her safe and for a nightblood safe was here…not anywhere near the other clans. still even knowing that she would be here when she woke up it was still impossible for her mind to unwind enough to allow her to sleep just yet. she was certain that she would stay awake all night, she was capable of that, because she had thought about what this would feel like to have kody here resting with her again, head in her lap and luna’s fingers able to run through her hair; the natblida had promised herself that she wouldn’t sleep a single bit if it meant missing out on a moment of tracing her features with her fingertips, along the line of her jaw, underneath her chin. 

most certainly she would be annoying the other girl but..kody didn’t stir either, she didn’t let on that luna might be disturbing her or keeping her awake. instead her breathing became shallow and luna continued to touch her softly, mapping down the side of her neck, rubbing slowly to her nape and then through her hair; she prayed that this would be the longest night of her life, that it would stretch on endlessly even if it meant holding kody like this. not for a second did luna’s eyes leave her, rather she memorized the shades of umber and ebony in her hair, the reds that the sunset through the window touched and set ablaze. she counted her lashes, she marveled in the blush on the ivory skin of her cheeks and the pad of her thumb grazed lightly underneath kody’s bottom lip…pulling her own lower into her mouth for having the memory of kissing her fresh in her mind. such a missing piece of her heart had returned to the rig…and it felt like luna’s heart in her chest beat more solidly now when prior to her return the beats had felt nothing but hollow. 

she couldn't even remember how they'd ended up like this...but her body only relaxed more into luna's touch as the girl soothed over her neck and through her curls, kody letting her eyes close to the touch and soon enough her body was humming softly, content and deeply comforted by the path luna took. her head rested heavier into her lap, her arms draped softly over luna's frame and her left hand flexed over her thigh...relaxing after a long moment to soothe over her too, her thumb picking up lazy strokes as she lulled on the precipice of consciousness. today...had been a lot ; a whirlwind of emotions that she had already went through more than once, it felt, and now she was able to find solace here, comfort. she hadn't expected luna to be so welcoming, nor warm, to her return - she'd earned much worse given the way she'd left but...luna seemed to be just as content to be in this moment as well and kody took it for what it was and nothing more, nothing less...only melting more under her touch and trying to fight it in the same right to touch her too, to feel her too. her hand brushed over her thigh, running higher gently to let her smaller hand wrap over her hip and stay there, beneath soft cotton where she could feel the other girl's skin and kody released a breath with that feeling, letting her thumb move back and forth gently over her soft flesh. this was all she wanted - the world to be still, to have the one person that felt the most familiar past her mothers right here and her eyes burned despite, tears formed despite having all of that worked up from the day and everything she had been forced to feel along the way, everything she didn't have a choice but to deal with. luna didn't have to be here, though...didn't have to be holding her like this, comforting her, soothing her and she realized that, flexing her grip more against her waist now as her head pressed a little closer still, resting a little more against her stomach and there she only breathed her in more. 

CHAPTER ONE | NYX & HANA​

the kitchen was the only relatively quiet room without altogether leaving the manor or retiring to a bedroom, neither of which she was ready for just yet. instead she found a bit of reprieve sitting on the kitchen counter beside a bowl of potato chips she had poured out for herself and a cream cheese dip…a mix of sour cream too, lemon and green onion. it took care of that late night salt craving that was much needed after a few glasses of red wine. it wasn’t even entirely loud out in the other rooms, the drumming of louder music reverberated from somewhere sure, but the parlor was occupied by a few lounging members of the society and cigar smoke, there was the sound of billiards balls bouncing off one another in another room, and in this kitchen…just the muffled concoction of all of those sounds, chatter mingled in. with the light from the range hana could see to dip each chip into the bowl of dip and then she would nurse her glass of wine she held in the other hand. it was making the much better snack over the buffet table set up in the dining room; what remained of a carved roast and sides, salads, tiny cakes and macarons in more colors than necessary, more flavors too. her first thought was that the swinging door needed to be greased because it squeaked a bit as it swung, but that assessment aside her eyes were landing on a member she had come to recognize through the process of joining herself. by card and by name…she knew who the other girl was now, just recently but prior to that who she was…was more untraceable. after the final initiation challenge earlier that day she knew now for certain. “how much does your card suit you, do you feel?” she asks, because if hana was being honest…she felt completely and perfectly pegged, so much so that it was scary, in good ways, and entirely impressive. she didn’t at all ignore the girl’s words, a soft smirk spread on her lips and she brought her glass of wine back to her lips for a quicker drink before she placed it down beside her on the counter. “you look nothing like death depicted but you do look like a really good way to go if i got to choose.” her tongue brushed lightly over her bottom lip, cleaning remnants of wine, and then more politely hana’s eyes moved over the other girl, what she wore, how it suited her, not to say that she looked stereotypically like she belonged between soft thighs…but she did and hana liked to think she was at least perceptive enough to call that much. some of what fueled the assumption was obviously the compliment the girl, nyx, had given, and the confidence in her eyes that she exuded. her dark eyes were intense. “mm…no i’m done drinking. i’d rather remember things in the morning.” hana was confident enough herself that she slid down from the counter. “where are you sleeping tonight? i wasn’t given a room…yet.”

nyx could pick up on pieces of conversations, other society members talking over the music, over the sounds of cracking billiards balls, names that were familiar being called...she didn't focus in on it for the sake of her own train of thought, the way her eyes settled on the girl that shared the space with her, hearing her speak now and dark eyes only focused more...right where they were, taking her in and moving over her smaller frame before the question caught up. nyx didn't have to think about it now - she'd already searched for her tie to her card, perplexed by the very question hana had asked and she couldn't help the way her smile broke on her lips, making her duck her head a little though...she played it off as her minding her drink, taking a moment to swirl the contents of her glass before she brought it to her lips again, a small sip before she answered. "entirely...or not at all." she told her, simple but...true. she could elaborate - and she probably would, but for now dark eyes followed her movements as hana brought her own glass to her lips for a drink, her voice following again and nyx's eyes darkened softly. she wasn't accustom to someone being as straightforward perhaps as herself but hana wore it well and nyx's smile shifted gently to a smirk that she wore a little more proudly, a step taken closer...then another. "right back atcha." she murmured, brow cocking just softly with the words but she cleared her throat softly too...moving closer still in the dim light of the kitchen. she didn't pretend to know her well - or at all, really, given that she'd spent the last few weeks purposefully in the shadows, purposefully surrounded by them, purposefully eluding giving away her own identity. now...it was different ; hana was a bonafide member of their society, graced with a card that suited her well too, at first glance. the entire reason they were both here now was to celebrate that very fact - there were a few new faces, a few new cards in play...and nyx was here to welcome them...though she'd be lying if she said she hadn't come with ulterior motives in mind.

SLADE & HANA

“i swear i am always the most comfortable person in this house…and yet you always look more comfortable.” perhaps because of her own pov but whatever. she sunk down on the couch and settled herself right against him, head resting on his shoulder. the manor was quiet at the moment, mostly, she could hear others around in other rooms, upstairs, in the kitchen, shooting billiards, but this was the perfect spot to choose and her arm draped over his chest, her thigh slid over his. 

like sunday morning | bri + max

as much as she meant to get out of bed she wasn’t really putting a lot into accomplishing the motion. in the warm like that spilled through the windows of polignano a mare, the scent of the sea and of sand, the raw minerals in the caverns that the sea saturated when it filled in. it made her feel warm…but max did that too, when he was here. being away from him through the fall and the winter she tried to chase him from her head; and honestly she hadn’t expected him to come back, she hadn’t expected him to linger like he did even when he wasn’t here…but spring came. getting out of bed was hard at first, but when they managed it there was the city to explore, the countryside and the highways bordering the sea and up into bari for a short drive, venice for a longer trip. she smiled on his lips as her hips settled against his, “mm…stavo sognando te dietro di me.” she murmurs, her smile fading she parted her lips more to let a breath slide through as she felt him between her thighs pressing against her. every cell in her body woke for him, feeling like tendrils of static under her skin when she was breathing in his scent, when he touched her. he didn’t make her wait, he didn’t make her beg, though she would get to that. he would make sure of it. “this is better than me getting upset about you being gone again and tossing your things into a box.” she smiled lightly, and then he was pushing inside of her and ripping the air from her lungs, making her back arch and her thighs tense at his hips. he made her ache…and moan, throbbing through her hips as she rolled patiently against him. bree’s eyes had to be ebony by now, locked on his darker hue, dull nails painted in coral flexed and bit into his ribs.

even at the worst outcome luna wasn’t sure her mind would go to the place the girl’s did…but then again, though unheard of really, unfathomable to her, she supposed it was maybe the worst outcome, worse than any luna’s mind might have gone to, so she had to concede and agree that it would be a terrible end to be met with. thankfully not one the girl would have to worry about, because again, it was unfathomable to her and likely to every one of her people. “there’s no need to worry about that.” she assures her, her hands gently rubbing against the fabric of the blanket now wrapped around her, at least to offer her as much friction for warmth as she could before the boat was nearing the lower paddock and it was time to exit to the rig, more steady ground for the girl at least. so easily luna’s arms wrapped around her and she lifted her up to her feet, and then guided her from the boat taking most of her weight onto herself; easy enough, and no worry of stumbling with thatcher close by to prevent that if need be. she didn’t entirely understand what the girl said when she said the stick had died, but she did understand the clear loss of some sort of control considering she had gathered as much to know there had been no intention to land in the water. it was sad that a stick had to die in the experience but then again, many did the moment they were separated from a tree. “we have wood burning stoves.” she utters, a small shake of her head, the vessel and the stick would be retrieved from the water. 

raven. as she got to the dock with her and heard her name, a polite smile graced her lips. “i like that name.” she decides, having not met anyone named that before, she found she liked it very much. “it’s nice.” the best that she could she focused on helping raven up the stairs towards the higher levels, keeping her arm wrapped securely around her waist to help her as much as she could. “they are…i’ve heard.” luna confirms, having heard of the people who came down from the sky. “they’re two days from here.” she knew by word that had reached her…that they had fallen within trikru territory. “i don’t know much about how they’re fairing but i do know that the general consensus is that they relocate themselves elsewhere.” she explains, reaching the top of the stairs, luna continued towards a side hatch door where they would be able to make their way inside and into the infirmary without trekking through the more likely to be crowded gathering room. most outside had already witnessed the commotion but she hoped many would be too focused on the scouts getting the vessel from the water and she could ensure raven had some privacy for a little while at least. once the door was pulled open by cap he remained behind as luna guided raven inside with her, down a small corridor with a few doors, a narrow staircase that curved up to the next level and a few more infirmary rooms, but she didn’t attempt more stairs and instead led raven into a room just beside one of the storage rooms, where there was a bed and a small kitchen counter, a small bathroom and a chest of drawers. her eyes were set on the chair first, best to get the girl dried and changed so as to not soak through the bedding. “you need to reach them then?” she assumes as much, but she’s looking at the blood on raven’s forehead and it’s clear by her expression that she doesn’t intend to allow raven to leave just yet without her looking more closely at the wound. 

at least she didn't have to worry about death or torture in the near future, she supposed - but then again, she wasn't sure that many murderers would admit that outright to their predisposed victims beforehand either, so it was a mild concern that stuck at the back of her mind now...at least the woman...luna, was being kind. maybe it'd be a gentle, quick death. she'd read somewhere that women were more likely to stab their victims - that didn't sound too bad, as long as it was a one fell swoop kind of deal. knife right to the heart maybe? a moment passed in thought but luna's voice pulled her eyes back, meeting her hue with confusion, brows knit as she parted her lips. she wasn't sure what she'd said to earn luna's response but a different question was more pressing in raven's mind. "....where does the wood go?" she knew what a stove was...but she hadn't heard of a wood-burning stove. it sounded pretty straightforward, if it's name in fact implied it's purpose...but she was curious. "...is it like a regular stove but...wood-powered?" she asked, her mind working to put together a working blueprint in her mind. it really depended on where the wood went. more pressing now was the task of getting out of the boat...the metal frame of the rig a lot closer...and a lot bigger now, dark eyes looking up over the joints now, despite the way the bright light from the sun made her wince at first. it was worth looking at, heads of bolts easily bigger than her hands holding the entire thing together. it was impressive, raven only knowing the equally large bolts of the ark and it was...really cool to see something else this big. she looked away after a long moment, dark eyes blinking a few times to refocus on luna s she spoke but she ducked her head in the same breath, a soft smile breaking on her lips. "thank you." she told her softly, nodding once as she looked back up to the woman. luna moved to help her in the same breath, an arm wrapped around her waist to make sure she got up the stairs safely, she assumed, and she took it...her head throbbing more now that she was standing, moving, and the glint of the sun off of the metal frame only made the ache worse. her stomach turned. swallowing as she took to the stairs but it as easy enough to focus on luna's words instead and she did, steps solid enough on the grate. two days was...pretty far, she assumed, not having travelled by foot or boat so it was a little harder to estimate time without crunching numbers and she didn't feel much like crunching numbers. her head hurt, and she really wanted to be out of the sun, more than anything. "are they somewhere they're not supposed to be?" that was a fair enough assumption based on the way luna had worded her sentence, but she asked for the clarification....for more context. 

NYX & HANA  | FREQUENCY

she was used to waking up to a few missed messages, a couple texts, maybe a missed call, most of it just friends, members of the society with some sort of nonsense meme or idiotic plan to get an unsuspecting freshman maimed or expelled, maybe a missed text from her nicola about something that had happened during the first hour of her morning, always something worded vaguely as a ploy to get hana to respond out of curiosity for not knowing what the utter hell she was going on about. it wasn’t that kind of morning, messages were urgent demands for her to call, texts for her to get to the manor, a slew of voicemails she didn’t have the time to pause and listen to when she was already opening up emergency alerts and breaking news notifications. every video that came with those news warnings were blurred and then cutting out, going back to people confused and panicked, every image frame from those videos that had been paused and captured were…something that looked like a really bored graphics designer had managed to spoof the city of new york and now it was spreading outward like an earthquake shock wave. she didn’t know what she was looking at, but she didn’t feel the most comfortable about it. what she wanted was to be back in bed with nyx, against her skin, waking up with her the way that they both wanted to be waking up, not like this. she currently considered it a hindrance and a morning ruined and as she dropped her phone down to the bed beside nyx and kissed her cheek she wanted to stay right there and pretend she hadn’t checked her phone at all or asked nyx to check hers. “it’s probably just something being blown out of proportion.” surely that felt like still a more likely scenario to come to, it did to her…because what was the alternative? 

hana rested hovering over where nyx was sitting on the bed, her hands on either sides of her hips…and it made her pause seeing the fire in amber eyes. “hey.” she murmurs, pressing her lips to hers again. “what’s the alternative matter right now?” they didn’t know anything, most of the videos that hana caught glimpses of were just blurs of panic and chaos but what did they really know? maybe it was the only way hana could spare a minute longer of lying to them both, herself and honestly nyx included because ignorance was bliss right? she was worried about the alternative, she just wasn’t finding herself capable of fully chomping down on it, it wasn’t registering, maybe fear, maybe panic, maybe denial and wanting to just go back to bed and wake up differently, but the screeching of tires outside the window had her straightening back up to step closer and look and this time nyx was at her side, hana’s phone still on the bed, but out the window she still couldn’t see much but a few people walking hurriedly past, a couple more further down getting in their car and driving off…not even all that quickly either just…going. she looked back to nyx and she felt this was the first time she looked at her…and felt more human than she ever had, nyx looked more human than she ever had, not that either of them weren’t human but their playlist of emotions was fairly memorized and comfortable by now, reliable even, colorful yes, but the same…and this..panic, confusion, fear….this was new. the boom through the air following the screeching of tires made her heart slam into her ribs with a violent shudder. “we get quakes here.” she utters, maybe mostly to herself, maybe to explain it to herself because her voice was quiet but she figured enough for nyx to hear regardless. “not often but we do. maybe pavement cracked under the stress of the shock wave…that would have happened before we felt it…just after.” explanations that made sense, she needed sense. 

her eyes snapped to nyx and it became more real, can we go north….and nyx…she slowed down in her mind the very things hana had seen in the videos too, in the screencaps of the videos…she brought home the reality hana was in all truth, and wrongly so, trying to explain away. she swallowed tightly. “yeah i mean we can.” she breathes out, taking nyx’s phone when it was handed to her…different videos because hana hadn’t opened anything to twitter she didn’t have the app on her phone…and the videos were much more clear. she blinked slowly, and then quickly she cleared her eyes and swallowed tightly all over again placing nyx’s phone on the bed beside hers, just to stand looking at them there…while she could sense nyx in her peripheral getting dressed. hana only stood there a short minute and then she picked up both of their phones and grabbed their chargers, stuffing them into her bag because in truth they couldn’t leave them and they didn’t know that they wouldn’t need them or that they wouldn’t be able to use them when they might be able to; they didn’t know what this was. she moved then to her dresser and got out a pair of her black skinny jeans, a bralette from her top drawer and then she pulled down a white tee from her closet hanger and tossed it all to the bed. “might want to start with a whole pair of jeans.” she utters, her mood…not the best, but of course it wasn’t meant to be a jab at nyx…she was coping, she was trying, and she looked at her with a small apology in her hue as she sat down on the end of the bed. her eyes looked at her, watching her get dressed, maybe some of her lack of movement was exactly what shock looked like but who cared really, because hana certainly didn’t care to analyze it. nyx never said please to her, in fact hearing her say it now made her eyes break away from her and recoil, not from nyx but how foreign it was to see…probably both of them like this. she reached for nyx’s hand, no more sounds from the street, no more screeching tires, quiet just like it had been before, she reached for nyx’s hand the moment she moved closer to wrap her up and hana gripped her hands against the front of nyx’s shirt and pulled her down against her onto the bed, she pulled her down above her and she kissed her more deeply, more passion, more hunger fighting that fire that had been in nyx’s eyes with the fire of her tongue now meeting hers instead. “come on, baby.” she murmurs, some sort of desperation was pent inside of her, part of her still trying to deny what she…knew.

her mind near-always spun with thought, not a foreign concept to her but...right now her thoughts were running faster than even she could keep up with, not much logic behind them either...more panicked, less rational. she was trying to sort through it though, trying to figure out what the fuck was going on or at least...what the fuck she needed to do to keep hana safe when there appeared to be aliens invading manhattan. her mind went to war of the worlds, prometheus, alien versus predator...every movie she'd ever seen about an alien invasion but nothing had really prepared her for this. it was hard to even wrap her mind around, not wanting to believe the videos, the texts, the news headlines...but her phone was lighting up with more notifications by the second, more and more people talking about the fireball that had streaked through the sky, the visitors it had apparently been harboring. nyx hadn't seen any of it personally...but her feed on twitter was photo after photo, video after video of new york being destroyed by creatures that were a mere streak of gray for how fast they moved. she wanted this to be a fever dream, a nightmare even...but each second that passed only made it more apparent that it wasn't, and nyx's heart beat faster in her chest. it was hard to focus on any one thing, nyx's mind jumping from thought to thought like the feed she scrolled on twitter. they needed to move, she needed to figure out somewhere safe for them to be, she needed to figure out exactly what they were up against and if human-made weapons were even effective against these guys...they would need food, water, shelter...it was too much, nyx's brain in full overdrive and it took a long second for hana's voice to catch up to her, a beat passing before dark eyes looked to her, unable to hide the feelings in her own hue but she tried to blink focus into her eyes at least, feeling the warmth of her lips against her own now and her heart sank. her tone was so soft, her lips just the same and nyx let her eyes close for a second, thankful for that pause. she knew it wasn't an earthquake, it wasn't an aftershock, and her eyes burned now, knowing that truth. god, she was just getting to know happiness, to know warmth like this, just now learning the ways that people...a person, could be more of a home than four walls ever could and so quickly she was pissed too, wanting to go back in time fifteen minutes so that they could at least delay the inevitable, where she could pretend they didn't know. 

she needed hana to at least know a little bit, enough for her to realize it wasn't an earthquake, it wasn't a meteor entering the atmosphere, it wasn't a satellite crashing to the earth...nyx handed the younger woman her phone, twitter still open for her to scroll through but nyx forced a breath, her nostrils flaring softly as she exhaled. dark eyes looked to hana again, hearing her answer her question and she nodded just once, barely an acknowledgement but her eyes burned more and she needed to move with that feeling, not wanting to cry in front of hana. it wasn't her pride...well, maybe a small percent of it was....but more so than that, she didn't want to upset her girl more than she already had, more than this morning already had and she moved for clothes instead, something logical she could focus on in the moment. even then she didn't want to pull away from hana...but she needed a minute to get her eyes to stop stinging, she needed a moment to focus on something, on a singular thought instead of the way her head spun. hana moved too, nyx catching that in her peripheral after a moment but her eyes stayed locked on her own movements, the way her hands shook as she pulled fabric onto her frame. nyx forced another breath, trying to calm herself, trying to settle the jumbled mess going on between her ears, trying to focus enough for both of their sakes but hana's voice pulled that attention so effortlessly...her words that were edged in snark. nyx couldn't help the way her brows narrowed, hearing that tone but it brought dark eyes back to the matched hue in hana and she saw so instantly the way she didn't wholly mean it, the way her eyes carried an apology and she shook her head just softly at her, understanding. she had a fair enough point anyway, she considered, glancing down to her jeans for a minute before she closed the space between them...not liking that look in her girl's eyes and so instantly that gave her focus. nyx was still adjusting to the way that hana so deeply affected her, the way she was quickly becoming someone she really....really wanted and needed in her life, someone she didn't want to lose....especially now, when she'd really just found her. nyx never caught feelings but...she did for hana, and seeing the look hana wore now silenced the rapid-fire of thoughts in her mind, the way she reached for her now that had nyx moving so quickly to answer her, not wanting her baby to have to want. 

hana's hands pulled her in and nyx pressed her down in the same breath, met with her lips and nyx kissed her back so instantly, tasting the fire on her tongue that made her brows knit, made her stomach knot, her mind occupied by one thought and one thought only...and that was keeping her girl safe, right here beneath her. her words hit deeper, the soft love name that fell from her lips, one nyx hadn't yet heard and her chest caved to the sound, answering her so instantly with a deeper kiss, with her body pressing more into hana's, pressing her back further into the soft, warm sheets and letting her hips settle against her, panting over her tongue before she met her lips more fervently, more desperately. her left hand flexed over her hip, her waist, edging up soft cotton as her teeth claimed her lower lip, as she soothed the bite of that touch with a heated stroke from her tongue, dark eyes flickering open to see her for a moment and so instantly...the world could wait a minute, or it could claim them as is...but she wasn't moving away from her girl, not now....not ever. her eyes stung more with that thought, with anger she felt, with frustration...but she heard the way hana was asking her to focus and she wanted to, here...this moment so much better than everything else that was going on around them. her skin was heated under her touch already, nyx's dull nails slipping under the lace bralette to drag her touch over her stomach and straight to the button most in her way, her right hand running up the side of her girl's neck to thread into her curls, to keep her right here....on her lips. nyx was feeling a lot...too much, even, but hana was the best, most beautiful point of focus. she wasn't a distraction, because that insinuated that she didn't deserve her full attention ; she very much did, and nyx would gladly give it to her, panting against her lips now as her fingers fumbled just gently with her button....clearly affected by the news of the morning, by the girl beneath her touch just the same. 

@reycs​ wrote: 🌊 - for a starter where | raven | jumps into the ocean with | luna |

raven shot off the end of the dock before luna did, bare feet still running on the wooden planks to keep up with her and then she was smiling seeing raven jumping down into the warm turquoise waters. she craved the salt, she craved the coolness as the sun was beating down and catching the sparkles of schools of tiny fish enjoying the shallows themselves. shallow for the fish…not too shallow for them to jump. she was nearly to the edge of the dock where raven had jumped into the sea when she noticed the bits of fabric that raven had peeled off and left behind…the very sight of it had her breath catching hard in her throat; a huff of an exhale…because no matter how long they had been together…her girlfriend ignited her and had her stomach assaulted by butterflies. luna too…peeled her tank top off and her small shorts down her hips, leaving them on the dock behind her, not caring for the moment when they would need to get out and claim them again. very european of them. she smiled and jumped naked into the sea near to where raven surfaced, only a few seconds behind her…the cool clear blue water closed in around her, caressed every inch of her body, reached the heat between her thighs and cooled her and she smiled at how good it felt. brown eyes opened for just a moment to gaze through the water to find her direction…to locate raven…and she got to see her body, warm skin, soft, bare…instantly making luna push herself up to the surface again and close to her to break through the water beside her. her hands claimed raven’s hips, fingers sliding all over her…she couldn’t help but touch as she gathered her breathing against raven’s cheek.

the need for supplies had drawn her into town; she always found it best to come later in the day into the evening when the streets were quieter and when the mercantile owners were simply desperate to close the shop and go home after a hard day. it meant she couldn’t be pulled into conversation when all she really wanted to do was get what she came for and head back home. she had one more stop after she had secured the burlap sack of her things into her saddle bag…brown eyes moved just down the way to the saloon and she moved to walk closer. she wasn’t even quite there yet when she caught sight of raven, even before raven called out her name…luna was smiling softly and quickening her pace a little until she reached the wooden steps beside where raven was sitting. “better…now that it’s almost over.” she starts, sinking down to sit beside the other girl. “better for running into you.” truth saturated her words and her eyes as she looked at her, the occasional clatter of glasses and amplifying of chatter within the establishment made her muscles tense a little though. “i just need a bottle or two.” raven likely knew by now that alcohol made for a solid antiseptic and it was something she liked to keep on hand just in case there were any injuries among her animals. it truly wasn’t often she needed it but she was still a bit on edge because last month her horse had been nicked by barbed wire and the gash that had been left on her flank was something that had pained even luna, likely as much as it had her horse. stitches and weeks of healing and she was better now. luna was much better now seeing raven. “what are you doing out here by yourself?” she asks her, turning her head to look over her shoulder towards the swinging doors, knowing well that…being inside wasn’t really all that pleasant when every man in town was drunk and had lost any hope at manners. “it’s…not safe for you to be out here.” she utters, something any and every woman likely knew, not that raven didn’t carry herself like she could handle herself just fine, luna still would worry. “then again it’s not safe in there either really.” she teases, weakly, before she gestured to the door. “i’m just going to grab what i need.” she moved to stand, hesitating though because maybe… “maybe i should just get it next time.” the saloon was definitely a place to visit in the earlier hours because it was more or less empty. the soft floral print on the corset she wore covered her more than enough, a corset that wasn’t restricting like most, just fabric that covered her in that similar shape just without her ribs being crushed like some women preferred, and the riding pants she wore certainly wouldn’t draw as much as attention as what the working women inside were wearing.  “will you still be here when i’m done?” she asks, turning to look at raven again, hope in her eyes that she would still get to see her more. 

she honestly wasn't expecting to see the woman - her smile couldn't be helped...but the feeling that came with it was just as unexpected, at least...in the sense that it felt like a punch to the gut every time. it didn't hurt nearly as much, but the emotion registered with that kind of strength and it always took raven's breath away - she did, and raven swallowed softly now, trying to focus. she nodded, her words catching up...just in time for her to hear her speak again, and now she felt her skin warm, her cheeks blush...ducking her head now and her tongue ran over the inside of her cheek. she breathed on a smile after a moment and let her eyes move back to luna, nodding more as she spoke. "mine is better...for all the same reasons." she agreed, seeing the truth in the woman's hue and returning it with her own, holding her eyes perhaps a moment longer than she should have but...she dropped them again too, returning her attention to her drink for a second as luna spoke. raven took a long sip from the glass, letting her thumb brush over the smooth surface absent-mindedly before she threw a glance over her shoulder toward the bar...letting her eyes linger there as the woman spoke more. there was mostly men inside the saloon and they were already mostly drunk, the few women moving between the laps of those with the most amount of money in their stacks on the tables...cards in the hands of nearly everyone inside. she much preferred her own company - or luna's, looking back to her as her tongue ran over her lower lip, draining what little remained of the amber liquid before she set the glass to the wood beside her. "not for yourself, i hope." she murmured, mostly a joke, knowing that plenty of people kept alcohol to treat wounds and she suspected nothing less than the sort for luna. she didn't pretend to know her entirely well - they both seemed to keep to themselves, raven seemingly the more 'out and about' one for selling a lot of the things she fixed on the side, when she wasn'r doing the same exact thing...but for paying customers. it kept her busy, gave her hands the movement they craved...and she made plenty enough to get by, to have the things she mostly wanted out of life. "i was walking home from the general store...it just looked nice out and i thought i'd...just enjoy it for a minute." it felt nice to sit when it felt like she was always going...and she couldn't remember the last time she'd actually caught the sky in the light of dusk, watching the last few rays of light hit the earth.

she knew there wasn’t much of a world to promise raven, there wasn’t much of anything outside of herself to promise her…but she knew raven; she knew how little anything out there mattered to her when they had created so much together in this space. she wanted to promise her a life without wars, without more pain; raven had been through enough, too much already, more than she ever should have been through. luna knew that she could promise never to hurt her the way that others had, that she would never make her feel like anything less than everything to her, because that was exactly what raven was to her. raven never looked at her with doubts in her eyes when it came to the way they made one another feel either, she never looked at her as though she were waiting for luna to hurt her, waiting for luna to let her down; she looked at her like she knew…luna would never, that it wasn’t possible because intention mattered and like raven knew…she would never intend to hurt her, disappoint her, let her fall. her arms would always be there for her, she could promise raven that, she could promise that her heart belonged to her entirely, that the only person that she was living for, breathing for…was raven. luna’s heart was beating against her rib cage looking at her…and seeing the way that raven’s eyes…knew her, the way raven let her see her heart in that matching brown gaze, how she made her feel like raven had endless and unwavering faith and trust in her…the same way that luna had in her too. she knew she meant her words….that she was everything, she knew raven was the only person in this world that she would never doubt, never waver in loving her. the quickening of raven’s pace had her own fingers pushing faster…chasing after that high, that bliss she wanted to feel with her, until they both were shivering…that quickly, both of them adding to the increase of slick coating one another’s fingers. her whole body was tingling, humming…and in her throat was a low and drawn out hum as well. 

her nose nudged against hers warmly, a nuzzle and then a pressing of her lips to hers as she smiled against her mouth, and still her heart beat faster, still she was entirely too far away from her somehow. she felt raven’s hum, her happy sound, and she grinned on her lips, and though they kissed softly, tender and heated, her fingers between raven’s thighs craved much more and her mate’s touch had the same need. she wanted to hear the sound of how wet she was, she wanted them both to hear that sound together. she would always be good for her, but she needed raven…to be good in a very specific way for her at the moment. her teeth nipped at her lips, and even while rolling her hips up against her fingers, even while pumping inside of raven’s tight walls, luna pressed her body up against hers and she rolled raven to her back on their soft makeshift bed. 

“count this as good…still.” she murmurs, resting on her knees between raven’s thighs, one slipped slowly over raven’s thigh, interlocking their legs just enough so that she could rest over her, hovering, letting her pleasure run down raven’s fingers but also…letting her own pleasure drip to her slit too. the pad of luna’s thumb rubbed deliberate circles over her nerve, slow and teasing needing to feel the way that she was swelling, and it was luna’s muscles flexing against raven now. her other arm, palm placed beside raven’s head she leaned over her to kiss her lips and her fingers wet with raven’s pleasure moved to take raven’s hand wet with hers, lacing their wet fingers together, bringing their hands higher between them, closer to their lips, the taste of them both right there being hit by their panted breaths. she rolled her hips down against her then, her nerve touching raven’s, rolling against hers, the feeling spreading a flush of heat through her body. “doesn’t have to be after this…but i need to taste you too.” luna’s fingers were wet from raven’s core and she slid her tongue against them, against raven’s fingers, and then she was right on her lips kissing her slowly and deeply again…it was her hips that quickened, rolling faster, giving them both friction to shiver against; one another. 

being able to find moments like this with her...blew her mind in the best of ways, loving how they could find peace like this in each other's company...how they reached for one another in every moment, but especially these, making time for each other and a movie, an entire fort made out of blankets and pillows. it took effort to do nothing and this was no exception, them putting in the effort to make a cozy spot for themselves...to make their reality a little different. raven didn't pretend that there wasn't an entire level of hell going on around them...but they had earned this pause, too, just a few weeks having passed since they'd made it to the go-sci ring...just a few weeks since they escaped praimfaya by the skin of their teeth. she didn't pretend that wounds weren't still healing, weren't still hurting, even...luna having lost so much, so quickly...but she took moments like this when they had them, when their energy allowed it of them. looking at her now...it was hard to believe she'd been inches away from death just weeks ago - color returning to her skin now, strength returning to her form...but she'd almost lost her, and raven knew that. that was what made this moment so happy...her smile quick to form and slow to leave as she took her in now, moving with her in the ways that they knew, that they were still learning, together...but seeing that flush on her skin, seeing the bruises that formed because of her blood...only relieved her, her blood so thin just a month ago that luna looked white, a sickly shade of it...sun-kissed skin filled with pallor. she was here and she was breathing, panting to her lips in the most beautiful way and raven only wanted more, needed more of that beautiful sound...dark eyes drinking in the girl that she'd fought for every second of the day, the girl she'd fought for every second with...the girl that fought for her too, despite the way that the world around her was trying to kill her, too. maybe their broken pieces just lined up...maybe their scars aligned...but she didn't have to explain it to luna because she knew, and raven didn't doubt that for a second.

she'd never been so found in someone else...and so much of her wanted to be that for luna just the same, dark eyes pleading with her to just...let her be there for her, to let her take care of her, to love her and know she was okay, that she was as good as she possibly could be. raven needed those things out of this life...needed to be wherever luna was because the instant she had met her...right there at arkadia, she knew that there was something different about her, she knew that some part of her soul was destined to be right here with luna's...and she herself didn't question that. raven had spent her entire life trying to answer questions, trying to solve problems....when the sight of luna alone had stilled her mind, the sound of her voice had calmed the deepest anxiety within herself, the passing brush of her hand more than enough to soothe what felt like war within herself...she knew, and she didn't question how, or why...when that had been exactly what she'd been looking for. feeling her...feeling her like this, getting to see and know her strenght, getting to feel it return and be used against her...god, she couldn't help the smile, proud of her girl and everything she had done in the last few weeks, the way she had survived. she knew the nights they both woke up to, the dreams that ripped them from sleep, the way it sometimes took a moment or two to ground each other back into the moment, to fully wake the other up from whatever hell they had stumbled into...but they had survived, and that had been all she wanted, for the way that survival meant that they would have the time to figure out moments...just like this, where pleasure outweighed pain for the day and she drank in her girl, the way her body moved with her, for her...taking her fingers and coating them in her pleasure, demanding the same pleasure from her own body with the way she moved between her thighs, raven answering her with a string of whimpers given to her lips, dark eyes flickering between them to see the way her girl took her, the way she was made to take her girl before lunaw as crashing back to her lips and she moaned over her tongue instead, letting her head spin with the pleasure, the happiness, the joy she felt.

spark | luna + kody

maybe it wasn’t, knowing it at least; she didn’t consider that boastful and most of the time luna had no issue against speaking it either; but she did believe in a time and place for such things. she caught herself focusing too much on the way dimples formed on kody’s cheeks when she said some things or when she smiled, when she pursed her lips, just before her tongue would dart over her lips, and in the most innocent and tender of ways luna wasn’t thinking about kissing her in those moments…she was purely thinking about how beautiful she was and how much she hadn’t gotten to know of her mannerisms before; it felt like now…luna let her mind flood with everything she was rapidly trying to take in about her, trying to learn, making up for not holding onto some things that she might have noticed a year ago if she had known that she was going to be gone the next day without a word. her eyes fell away from her, as she settled herself down to lay beside her; she felt the mess in her stomach that kody being here dredged, she felt the anxiousness, the worry that she might be just as gone again the way so many luna’s life had been, for either reasons of luna leaving or reasons of them moving on, somewhere else out there in the world. if the year had taught her anything about herself perhaps survivability, adaptability, progress over regress. 

this was a chance she hoped to learn more about kody, in the way of who she was, things she hadn’t been able to learn before, and that was something that she didn’t want to take for granted now that she was here, in any moment; she looked at her and she found herself taking in the softness her skin held, the blush and where it surfaced, the dimples she had noted a moment ago, when she smiled and when her eyes moved higher from that smile to kody’s eyes and she could tell they were burning. kody had been thrust outside of her comforts, thrust away from the place that she knew as home, and luna knew nothing about that was easy. even having made her own choice to go…it hadn’t been easy on herself either. but she imagined it had still come more easily than it would to kody because of that lack of choice in many aspects where luna had chosen; kody had not. the healing time varied by wound and some never healed; she knew that. most weren’t truly meant to heal entirely anyways. umber eyes watched a tear hit the other girl’s cheek and she reached to brush the backs of her fingers lightly there, leaning in so that her forehead rested to hers. “you protected yourself; something anyone might have done.” something luna would have done herself. while she did not set out to harm or aim to inflict pain on others, protecting herself would always be a choice that she would make if pushed; and without remorse. “i find that better than you not being here.” she found it better than someone claiming kody’s life. luna would protect herself and her people in the very same ways if she needed to and she wouldn’t regret that choice or the actions that it would rip out of her. her people and herself came first, and defending themselves from those who aimed to harm them was not uncalled for. 

she felt kody’s hand flex against her body, an attempt she gathered at keeping her close…but luna had no intention of moving from her. she leaned in and her lips touched to the corner of her mouth, her fingers moved delicately into her soft hair…and attempt to familiarize herself with kody’s presence again, because it was a presence she wanted to have memorized. as much as she wished kody would rest, and she did wish that, luna still wasn’t the type to force anything on anyone that did not come naturally to them in any moment. she couldn’t lie when she had missed her, she couldn’t hide that fact either when she had already stated it to her; luna’s actions tended to back up her emotions, what she felt, what felt right, rarely did she move with anything that felt wrong, in fact never did she, but at times her words could hide away what felt right, at times she would hide away what she felt and keep things from her mouth, from her movements; luna knew very well that she was the type to hide at times but the reasons for that were likely obvious if not mistaken for disinterest. she had lost plenty in her life and losing more wasn’t always a feeling that she was ready to face; she cared for people, her clan, them before herself always, but she longed too. here…after so long…she was more free than she ever had been in her life, she was at home, she was strong, if not bossy at times but that couldn’t always be helped, and she braved in kissing the lips of the girl who had left over a year ago…because she simply wanted to kiss her. the taste of her…had luna’s chest caving slowly, a sigh…somewhere inside of her body, maybe in every inch of her body, but a sigh nonetheless…tasting her again. 

kody’s touched welcomed her in, invited her in, let her know that this kiss was okay…the way she ran her touch from her curls slowly down her body, over intimate places that had been touched much differently last time. kody might have left but she had left marks on her skin when she had gone, the flexes of her nails, the bite of her teeth, the suction of her lips; luna had been a mess…and her touch was different now, something new to learn. “it will be a minute very quickly.” she breathes out, breaking from her lips, as quickly as kody had shifted herself to rest above her; luna was not telling her to stop, she wasn’t telling her no, in fact her palms gently cupped her cheeks and she looked into her eyes and everything inside of her screamed with want and need to be reminded of how kody had touched her that night…but disappointment was there too when she thought back to it; she worried that night might be a sore feeling for both of them at any given moment, or that it could be…and she wanted to be far away from the memory of that morning, treading more delicately with her, learning with her, re-mapping paths. 

a minute would pass quickly, but luna trusted kody to know her own body and her own limitations better; luna wouldn’t demand anything of her, least of all for her to rest if she did not wish to. instead luna’s breathing changed…the fabric of her shirt watched as kody’s hands peeled her layered tank tops over her head and left her more bare to her eyes; that sparked the desire in her, more hunger in her, more need…it flooded her head with images that she had spent a year dreaming up, things that she wanted. with her. her body betrayed her without consent; her nipple hardened for her touch…and she knew it wasn’t really a betrayal, it was her body answering the command that kody had given to her. she wanted to feel her body against hers, she had thought too much and for too long about a second night with her…that she moved her own hands underneath kody’s shirt so that she could peel it off of her, over her head, her eyes running then down her body…hands sliding softly over the shape of her breasts; luna knew she was wet just touching her like this, just barely even….she felt her hips jolt and tense in more tightly. “to me…you are more so.”

an entire year had passed - for better or for worse, it had passed...and she couldn't tell you wholly where the time went. it seemed like days, maybe, since she'd been here last but one look at luna told her that was a lie. her curls were longer, she was taller, her frame already more or less towering over her own but kody knew that she'd been gona longer than she really even knew and that gave her pause. a breath where she looked at luna - seeing the girl who'd affected her so deeply, so quickly...able to reach little pieces of herself and curl her fingers around them without choking them out, without scaring them away...and that in itself had made her pulse quicken, made her stomach twist. she'd known others...but so much of herself had been an issue in others - too many emotions, too few words, too many thoughts hidden in actions. so much of herself felt like work, even to herself, that for luna to so easily...so readily reach, without needing words...without getting hung up on any number of the things she so easily could...it honestly scared her. kody didn't really know how to say that - how to tell the girl she felt herself falling for that she was scared when it seemed to be such a silly thing to be scared of. why be scared of someone seeing the worst in you...and still wanting you? it hadn't always been the case...and mostly, she was scared that it still wasn't, that luna would discover some part of her that she hadn't yet and that one part would be the proverbial final straw for the poor camel's back. it was the precipice that scared her, standing just fine for now but...what if she wasn't? it was easy to let her head take the lead in these moments, to fall victim to it when so much of her had been waiting for this very moment for months...the better part of a year. kody left so that others didn't have to - luna had been no different in this equation...but how did she apologize for it now? could she? 

how did she stand the sight of her own touch against her body, knowing she'd hurt her with her actions? it was hard...hearing her, her voice...the way she told her this reality was better than the one where perhaps she hadn't protected herself. that was a hard truth for her to swallow, but it was luna's truth and not her own to argue, either...and she let it sit for a long moment before she nodded, chancing a look at the girl. how did she look at the girl she didn't pretend to know...the girl she hadn't attempted to know because of her own insecurity...and let her know that it wasn't her? how did she let her know the last year of her own doubt, their predicament...was entirely at her own hands? words weren't her strong suit by any means and her actions didn't really mean shit when her actions had been to touch her, to love her...and to leave. kody wanted to touch her...wanted so desperately for luna to know that it hadn't been her...that kody wanted this moment, and had been thinking about this moment...for a year now. luna had to be to - kody took that as truth when her touch had been answered by the girl, when luna kissed her softly and allowed kody to kiss her back more deeply, when she allowed her hands to pull her closer...to ask her to stay like she hadn't been the one that left. maybe she was asking that the girl stay despite - maybe she was owning that wrong to her...and asking, softly, in a way that she did know how to...for forgiveness. it had been a mistake...and so much that had happened after could've been avoided had she just stayed but...she couldn't change the past, only the future and kody breathed in her words as she shifted more above her, moving more out of want and need rather than out of the ways 'okay'ed by her own head. she wanted this...and luna did, that truth reaching her as she took in umber eyes, the girl's hue near-gold in the amber light spilling softly across the room. luna's hands rested to her cheeks and kody heard that silent plea, panting softly to her lips and breathing in luna's exhale just the same before her hands moved to the fabric between them...the layers of her shirts that she wanted gone. 

so much had happened...so quickly, kody not even fully realizing it now and she probably wouldn't...for a while. it came in bursts, it seemed, a quick sequence of memory to remind her that she had in fact killed someone, that her blood was something of value, to someone...and that everything she'd ever known...was miles behind her, across an ocean and plenty of land...it was all too surreal, in the moment, too new for kody to focus on outright and she didn't want to...not when she was on the rig again, after a year's time, literally on the lips of the only girl who had ever made her feel something worth feeling. that in itself was a lot...but she was trying, hands hiding a tremble as she pulled luna's tank tops free, as she more quickly found her lips again...as she kissed her deeper, with more hunger...more in the way she had before, emotions building within her but she didn't move with urgency...she wanted luna to know it was different, wanted her to know she wasn't going anywhere because...she wasn't, she couldn't but...she wasn't, and she'd been wrong to in the first place. she kissed her with hunger, with a year's worth of thought, with remembering her almost every single night that had passed since she'd last been here and her teeth raked over her lower lip with that truth, eyes burning as luna moved for her too...as she pulled at fabric that she wanted gone and kody tried to help her, moving the way the girl needed her to until she felt the cooler air against her skin...felt herself exposed to the only girl she'd...ever felt exposed to in such a different way. kody could share her body before her thoughts, her touch before her own words...and that was the truth she wanted luna to know, how she had been an exception since day one and that fact in itself had de-railed kody. she pressed closer...both of them bare and she only wanted to feel her closer...needed to, her touch feeling both like a million volts of electricity under her skin...and the softest, coolest sheets made of silk, surrounding her all at once...

she kissed her more, deeper...her tongue running more hotly in search of her taste, moaning as she got a drop of it and letting her eyes close as she held on to that taste....memorizing her as her hands ran over the shape of her body, feeling the way luna responded to her touch. she had walked away from this...from her...kody's head shook stubbornly then, a pant of her breath leaving as an exhale against luna's lips before her mouth moved lower, over her jaw and to her neck, claiming her skin and learning the taste of her there while her hands massaged her breasts, pulled at tender skin more to feel the way her body responded...the way her thighs flexed against her hips. she heard her words...dark eyes finding her in the low light as she kissed over her chest, lower still to claim her breast...to pull her into her mouth and suck at her skin, to feel the way tender skin hardened more for the heat of her tongue. kody released her after a long moment, kissing over her heart and moving to hid her face more into her neck...breathing the girl in as her left hand sank lower...feeling the soft warmth of the flat of her stomach. how did she tell her...her mind kept circling back, not wanting the girl to think for one second...that any of this was anything it wasn't. how did she tell her...she told her, her right hand running up the side of her neck to thread into the curls at the nape, keeping her close. the more that she breathed her in...the more she knew she needed this, her...more than just like this. how did she tell her she hadn't slept peacefully, knowing what she'd done...how did she tell her that nobody...nobody even came close to her? "i'm sorry." she breathed, 'whisper' even too loud to describe the breath that left kody's lips to luna's ear, kissing her skin behind those words. "i messed up." she added...the simplest way, she thought, to sum it up and she didn't pretend to think that it would be good enough...but she was trying to at least...acknowledge it, and acknowledging took a lot from kody if there were words involved.

imagine having to lie to and manipulate people just to get them to interact with/talk to you...because they don’t actually want to interact with you.

imagine having someone supportive and loving and caring right here, already writing with you...and throwing it all away because you’re literally insane.

like you’ve got to realize the problem is you at some point, right? maybe not. 

where we touch down.

K O D Y ;;

every day since she had met her felt like a dream…not anything to do with species either….kody was a breathtaking personality, she was vibrant, strong, her smile created dimples on her cheeks and made her honey eyes glow…she was soft…in ways that luna knew she didn’t show to everyone, a facet she knew not everyone got to see let alone feel…but luna felt it. she saw it when her ivory skin blushed, when her gold eyes were melting, when her lips were flushed with pink because her teeth abused the corner a little too much and she looked like she had been in a fight with herself over something she was thinking or contemplating saying…and then she would say it with a little blood on her lip and realize she likely put her lip through hell for no reason because luna got to be the one to be there to lean right in and kiss her and feel that tender angry lip heal against hers. she found most days she didn’t know what to do with herself if kody wasn’t part of the hours that made it up, proof in the way tonight she paced by the window worrying herself for no reason when she was much better suited…to go right to her, to close the space between them because even if something was wrong…the less space between them the better. she knew that…she’d panicked still…and now she felt silly for it, because she looked into kody’s eyes, she felt her touch, her body against hers, and she felt nothing wavering inside of the other girl, she felt everything strengthening inside of herself for her. luna knew kody thought she wasn’t soft…but soft had so many endless measures…and soft did not mean pliable when it came to people; kody was a place to touch down, luna wanted nothing more than to be her place to touch down, to rest…to thrive, and that was the softness luna meant. luna was well aware of her edges, every break, every rough patch when it passed through kody’s eyes, every struggle…and even not always knowing why the struggle was there…she understood it was for a reason and it was just as wanted and needed as those tender lips were, as those melted eyes were. 

sometimes luna didn’t know what kody saw in her, a witch, human in a sense, in flesh, she wasn’t nearly as strong…but kody looked at her like she was still somehow…so much of everything to her. it might be something they weren’t meant to understand of the other, not fully…but she felt they were meant to accept the ‘everything’ that resided in each other’s eyes for one another. when she was with her, pressed to her, her lungs ached for more of her scent, her mouth watered wanting to be pressed to her body, her dull nails yearned to flex, to dig in and hold her without the chance of hurting her of course, the sweat on her skin, the perfume that clung to her, the sounds she made on her lips, on her neck…the look in her eyes, pleasure, want, every facet of kody she was addicted to, bound to, unapologetically, shamelessly; she couldn’t begin to hide a single facet of what she felt from her. kody had made plans for them, she had come over to take her somewhere…and they hadn’t made it to that destination because she couldn’t wait that long to be close to her. instead the lights of a rest stop seeped through fogged windows, and she got to trust that her mate knew that they were safe from interruption here, to know that they were okay, and that if the moment came that they weren’t…kody would react long before any intruder would happen upon them. 

there was such peace in that trust for her, that faith in her, so much freedom to let her body unwind, unravel the way that she wanted and needed to for her, something simple humans could only feel truly within their homes. they got that feeling right here, knowing they were alone, knowing they had time, that they had each other….the way that luna’s body was able to melt into every sensation made the release that much more intense, free of worry, a true coming-undone. luna’s palm pressed to the fogged glass, her hips pulled up and held against her girlfriend with the most gentle of strength…and still it hurt perfectly. kody’s strength was unprecedented and she knew it, but she never hurt her, so easily she made her ache, made her hurt in ways that she craved…but it was never pain, not even by accident. her calculations were precise somehow…in some way that luna couldn’t even begin to understand…kody was perfection. 

the wince that touched her eyes each time the hybrid’s cock hit her back wall was only pleasure, magic tingled under her own skin, frenzied, like it didn’t know what to do with itself…it was just a static storm through her veins, charged and enjoying every moment of being close to her mate, molecules dancing, nipping at her nerves, caressing…she didn’t know how to describe the way kody made her magic feel inside of her, she didn’t know how to describe the way it too…felt like it was being joined by its mate, its lover, how it grew excited, how it felt in love, blissfully aware and energized by kody being this close to her and now…inside of her. the feeling of kody throbbing in her…made her feel each wisp of her magic sigh with elation and her lips parted on a gasp, sharp and shaking, her thighs trembling feeling the thicker heat of her mate spill of inside of her..and luna’s own body unraveled spilling over her girl’s skin, wetting the blanket beneath them. she needed her, she missed her, and luna did everything in her power to shift up to her knees in front of her so that she could turn her head over her shoulder and take her mate’s lips into her own. tightly luna’s hand gripped back into kody’s hair, tightly she held her there, rolling her tongue over hers, claiming the taste of her mouth as her hips continued to roll now in slower and deeper tandem through the pulsing of her core trying to milk her mate of pleasure. her other hand…ran down her stomach and between her thighs to brush lightly against her mate inside of her, collecting heat there that was brought to her lips, skillfully her mouth cleaned every drop of them from her fingers. “baby, i’m yours.” she whispers, her voice almost a plea for kody to know that, the plea was in her eyes too, and it stayed there. even as kody’s hand moved higher over her throat luna pleaded intensely with her, lust and love filled, she turned her body with a slight movement away from her hips, luna turned on her knees to her and pressed her body up against hers again, immediately not even breaking kody’s hand from her neck, luna’s fingertips and palms slid delicately over her cheeks, down the sides of her neck, every inhale breathed kody in and herself back out to her as she caressed her lover’s skin, something of a dance to the music of their breathing. “i love you.” she reminds her, and always would. 

kiss swollen lips pressed to kody’s, she got to feel her breasts pressed to hers, the flat muscle of her stomach, the stronger muscle that pressed between her thighs against the heat that kody had made swollen and sensitive. honey eyes ran over her face, from her nose to her lips, her chin, blush cheeks, and then right back to her eyes as she heard her words. her girl trembled in her arms as much as luna did in hers…those words increased the shaking in herself ; she could feel her heart pounding against kody’s in their chests, and gravity seemed to shift, her vision did slightly…the rest of the world, the amber glow through fogged windows, it blurred away from her and luna’s lips crashed to her girlfriend’s, now it was luna pressing kody down to her back and straddling her hips, luna unwilling to leave her lips, leave this moment of being pressed to her body…seeing so clearly a future that she wanted with her. her curls fell to curtain her mate’s face and with how her hips settled against hers she knew she could feel the mess she had made so perfectly there with her. “please.” she murmurs, an answer….yes, without a doubt, luna found her eyes with the same answer within them and she needed kody to feel how much she needed and wanted her, the reason luna pinned her down, the reason her hips pressed down on her again and she began to ride while breathing on her lips, while holding her eyes. “you are mine.” she murmurs, nudging her nose against hers. “baby girl.” 

midnight eyes locked on luna in a way they often did...in awe that someone so beautiful, so perfect existed and more so than that even...kody had found her, and luna wanted kody just as much it seemed, craved her just as deeply and kody melted into that feeling. she soothed the bite in every way, one that lingered under her veins just being awake, being alive...things that triggered it more but luna reached her through the way her mind tried to consume thought in those moments, luna bale to pull her from even the most consuming hyperfixation and kody gratefully took her in now, midnight eyes seeing her mate and knowing without a doubt...that she was hers, luna meant for her in every way and her mind knew it, her soul, every fiber of her being. it was even in the way her body shifted for her...knowing that she wanted to move with her in those ways, that she needed to be inside of her, to feel her as deeply as she could and she did, now, taking her girl and feeling the way luna's body so perfectly wrapped around her, the way she took every inch, the way her body knew how to move with her mate's in ways that wouldn't hurt her but would make her feel...so, so incredibly good and she wanted to keep luna spilling for her, just like this. kody pumped inside of her, the strength of that muscle throbbing, watching luna's eyes shift to pure ecstasy as kody moved harder, faster between her thighs, her left hand moving to rest over the flat of her stomach...able to feel the size of her cock there, the way it demanded...so much from her mate. she was being so good for her, moving the way kody needed her to, need driving her even more than lust now and it was something she didn't have to explain to luna, the girl more than happy it seemed to move in these ways and find pleasure with each other but...being a hybrid came with certain quirks, it seemed...and kody needed, desperately...to fill her mate just like this, to spill her pleasure deep inside of her, to hear her own sounds of pleasure over and over again but it seemed to happen once a month or so...a week of needing to take her...needing to claim her mate's body, to fill her with her scent, to take her so much deeper, harder...faster than she usually did and kody was still starving for her, still aching to leave her baby writhing in pleasure.

her scent only grew more and more, kody breathing her in to the point of feeling herself salivating, her cock dripping beads of thick heat deep inside of her tight little pussy and she moved her lips to her neck, biting hard at her skin and tasting her blood...that only making kody whimper as her tongue rolled hotly to soothe that ache, to heal the break in her baby's skin as she sucked there for a long moment, still rolling her hips into her harder from behind, moving her touch to her neck to try and still her mate...to try and claim her deeper. she'd be the first to hear anyone even remotely close to them, constantly listening now to keep her mate safe while she was exposed like this - her scent was sweeter than any other kody knew...and she knew she wasn't the only thing that did smell them. kody kept a low rumble in her throat as a threat to them, as a reminder to her baby that she was safe...that she always would be with kody here and she moved with her in ways they were still very much learning together...but ways that came natural in the same right, ways that felt right for her to move, luna's body built just for her...perfectly matched even in not being a hybrid. kody still didn't trust her touch sometimes but...in moments like this, she couldn't control it, her body moving more out of need, out of the purest hunger, the deepest want and need colliding inside of her and she felt her girl shaking around her, her body spilling and coating her walls with thick streams of pleasure while luna's thighs quaked, their scent only stirring more and making kody's growl deepen, eyes the darkest shade of black they'd ever been for her mate. her mind had been consumed from the moment she'd met her...and only grew more so with each second that passed, every moment like this where she got to see luna in her most beautiful state, raw and unhinged...just for her, moving out of want and need just the same, moving the way her own body needed and kody was in love with the sight, watching her, needing moments just like this but the moments that came in between too - getting to wake up to her, to see her resting so peacefully, to see her happiness when it came...even her sadness, kody needed it too, needed to be there for her mate when she was scared in natural ways, when dreams found her, when anxiety ate at her veins. kody knew those things too and she needed them just as much...needed the girl in her arms in every moment and she hated the things that pulled them away at times, school and obligations, family things.

kody felt her touch run lower and her breath shook, throbbing more for her and burying deeper inside of her tight walls, letting her size throb at her back wall as she spilled more heat for her, coaxed by her touch and feeling her smaller hand against her, feeling the way she still wanted to touch her...even like this. sometimes...she didn't like every facet of herself, the one in focus changing with the day, the mood but...luna liked her always, loved her...and she didn't doubt that, just...getting to feel it now in the way she touched her, the way she moved with her, the way she looked at her and spoke to her now and she nodded, hearing her...accepting those words as luna's truth. she could see it in her mate's hue, the look in her eyes as the words left her lips and kody kissed her deeper...rolling her tongue gently deeper as her hand ran higher to her throat, just wanting to keep her close, needing to, begging her to in her own way. her mate moved and she couldn't help the way her growl shifted gently in her throat, that very reason the one for the shift in the sound, but luna pressed closer in the same breath and soothed that feeling, kody's eyes looking down over her beautiful form, their bodies pressed together now. luna's hands found her cheeks then and brought her gaze higher, kody taking her in that way now before she heard her again...letting those words sink in before she nodded more, pressing hre lips more tenderly to luna's, more gentle than the way they had been moving before. desperation was shifting from nails and bite to...just needing her like this, wanting to touch her more, still and always craving pleasure with the love of her life and she met her eyes more, her nose nudging into luna's. "i love you the most." she murmured, her truth and luna met her lips more, kody kissing her deeper with that want and need but not harder, no. they had time and she wanted it, every second, wanted this moment with her amber light spilling through fogged windows, inky black skies and deep grey clouds, storms moving in. they could stay here all night - that thought even made her heart stir and she moved the way her mate wanted her to now, hearing her and feeling her...so much deeper, losing her breath to the way her walls surrounded her now as her hips straddled her.

she panted for her girl, hands moving now to claim her hips...wanting to feel her like this and she rolled with her, rocking deeper into her tight little pussy and whimpering as she felt her back wall, hitting so much deeper and throbbing inside of her as she did. "fuck, luna." she whined, locking eyes with her, her mate's curls surrounding them and she breathed her in more...took her in, seeing the happiness, the pleasure, the want and need...everything she felt for luna, she saw looking back at her from her mate's eyes and she nodded...stubbornly, meaning it when she said she wanted to marry her and hearing that luna wanted that, too....enough to say 'please'. "promise." she told her, nodding more against her lips and losing her breath to luna's again as she began to ride...feeling the heat of her future wife's pleasure coating her skin, the way she claimed her and kody guided her gently, rocking her hips down against her as she took her size fully. "tomorrow." she added, just...wanting the night with her. they could get married tomorrow - she'd buy the ring and everything. she wanted that...and she didn't care if they had an entire ceremony ; she just wanted luna, her girl...her best friend, her mate...everything she needed in this life and she nodded more, hearing her. "always yours." she panted to her lips, left hand running higher to her breast...feeling her bounce under her touch as she rode her cock and midnight eyes couldn't help but look between them...seeing her take her size, seeing her breasts bounce for her as she did, seeing the sheen of their pleasure and the sweat she was working from her body colliding...god, she was beautiful and kody sat up a little more to kiss down her jaw, her neck...wrapping her lips so instantly around her nipple and pulling her into her mouth while her hands flexed over her mate's waist...fingertips flexing with strength to pull her down a little harder, a little faster...still panting hard against her and she could feel her length throbbing more, so close to spilling off inside of her again. 

HURRICANE.

after the last night that they spent together at nyx’s club…the other woman hadn’t left her mind much. most things left her mind during the week of classes if it wasn’t pertaining to those classes precisely, most people left her mind more accurately…but nyx had popped back in more than a few times, if not just during the day while she studied and worked, then most definitely at night in anticipation of the approaching weekend and the chance to see her again. weekends more easily brought that chance, she had more time, and especially this weekend with the weather taking a turn for the worse up the entire east coast…she had a long weekend to look forward to. hana wanted that time too, the extension of a weekend to spend with nyx and get to know her more; she couldn’t say for a second that she wasn’t looking forward to it…and she knew that she needed it. most of her weekends were spent around the princeton area, she still went out plenty but half the time if not more she just spent a saturday devoted to a nap and doing the mundane things or at the manor doing just as many mundane things there, so watching the familiar area rush by outside of rain streaked windows was a nice change. she knew that she knew next to nothing about the other girl but perhaps that was what intrigued her so much to having more time to spend with her, because she could learn more about her little by little, not even entirely a sponge for the knowledge on a person because she wasn’t…she had her own limits and boundaries and she didn’t like to know everything, but little by little was nice. more…than she knew already, that was a nice thought at the moment, especially given the way that they had spent the night at nyx’s club last time around. already, even before that, the way they had spent their time had been more than enough to keep hana completely comfortable and craving the notion of being around her…so adding to that? definitive yes. 

she pulled her bottom lip into her mouth where the taste of the other girl still lingered, enough to tide her over for now especially considering the generous pace that nyx was driving; she didn’t have any complaints against the traffic that moved strongly enough to either remain ahead of them or get out of the way altogether. when nyx’s hand slid to her thigh hers covered and laced between her fingers, the flex nyx gave making so easily…hana’s hand lessen and rest in her hold. that made her smile a little, even in one touch hana could feel the dance that they were creating without trying and she relaxed back into the seat, still with a slight shift in the way that she sat facing her a little more than forward, but the side of her head rested to the headrest and the pads of her fingers traced over her knuckles. “careful is a matter of opinion, but so far i agree.” she smiled softly, in truth nyx had left only the most incredible type of aches through her body and though they were felt for a few days after…they also didn’t hinder her ability to function and focus on the things she had to when she stepped back into her work week of classes. she was a biting reminder under her skin though and through her muscles and she liked that. they could have their eyes on one another when they got to nyx’s place, and that took…far less time than she expected it too, maybe because she was just enjoying the drive and sitting next to her, but hana sat up a little more when nyx pulled her rover into the underground parking garage, that ready to be unwinding with her hana unbuckled the moment she parked. she recognized the bike nyx parked beside as hers, as well as a few of the cars that she brought out racing some nights. 

“shorter ride than the drive so i think i’ll make it.” hana’s lips were caught with hers and she…couldn’t think clearly about much of anything but being somewhere more comfortable with her. she moved to get out of the rover and closed the door, grabbing the bag she’d carried from the store from behind the passenger seat and then closing that door too to walk and join nyx’s side to walk to the elevator. in her head she turned over her words, being glad that she had come here, accepted the invitation, honestly…she found it hard to believe that anyone wouldn’t accept such an invitation; she wasn’t above realizing not many would even be given the invitation to start with. the moment the elevator opened and hana stepped with her she was stepping in closer, pressing her lips to hers…wanting to be even more familiar with the taste of her mouth than she was already; it wasn’t enough…and nyx had said it was a long ride up so she had every intention of staying on her lips for the duration of it, and in fact did just that…kissing her heatedly even a little past the sound of the elevator door chiming and sliding open for them. she knew she had to stop kissing her long enough for them to exit…so she did before the door decided to slide closed again; hana stepped out with the bag she held and made sure she caught the sensor so that it didn’t try to close just yet, but by now her breathing was a touch labored and she just wanted to put the bag down and yield entirely to her. 

her nerves didn't show visibly - the beat in her chest was her only tell and she steadied her breathing as she parked the car...hearing hana and needing her lips...needing even that tease of her taste before she moved further. "i'm trying to." she murmured. the kiss was a release, if only minimally, of some of the energy she felt under her skin...moving for the elevator with the younger girl, bags in hand and it felt like a blur, really, a few blinks and she lost the moments in between but her lips so instantly found hana's again...pressing her back to the wall of the elevator and feeling the way her heart instantly hammered, the heat of her lips...her taste on her tongue as she kissed her deeper, as she felt her skin warm so quickly for her, her breath losing every sort of rhythm to it as her teeth claimed hana's lower lip and she growled softly there, dark eyes taking her in during that moment while her right thigh slipped between the younger girl's...a knowing look for the strap-on she wore...the way the shape was blatantly apparent through the worn-thin fabric of her jeans, making hana roll against her now with a pant of her breath to her lips, dark eyes watching between them as her hand flexed her grip on her waist, a few bags still in hand. the elevator dinged and she didn't care, kissing her deeper with a growing hunger...one that was always present around the girl...one that only grew more each time she got to taste her, touch her...feel her like this and nyx couldn't help the sound of objection that left her when hana moved from her, out of the elevator and nyx immediately followed, immediately crashed into her with more hunger, with more strength, backing her straight into the counter and dropping her own bags at their feet. she crashed to her lips, panting harder there and letting ehr now-free hands claim her hips, the fabric that kept her from feeling her skin...the fabric she pulled at now, fingertips curling over the black denim on her hips just to slide her touch to her button, freeing it instantly while she kissed her deeper, harder...pressing her girl back to the counter and panting on her lips, searching for more of the taste she so instantly was growing to crave more and more, more than the white powder she loved...more than herbal remedies that soothed her nerves when they became too much...hana was a different kind of drug entirely and her hand slipped beneath the thin white fabric of her shirt now, working it higher instantly to pull it over her head...wanting her in that lace she knew hana so often wore and she let midnight eyes fall between them, taking her in and watching her left hand claim the younger girl's breast, her right sinking back over her hip to flex with strength over her ass. 

"you...are so fucking sexy." she breathed, her teeth nipping at the girl's lip again before she kissed her deeper...before she broke away softly, using her hold on her to turn her in her arms...to press her cock against her ass now and make hana stay still for her with the counter...her heart raced harder, her walls dripped already...nerve throbbing just with knowing hana was in her space, as pressed against her already, was one minute into a long weekend and she...got to have her, just like this, breathing in her scent and pulling down her jeans from behind to expose her...to run her hand down over her ass, over tighter flesh to her entrance where her girl was dripping for her too and nyx panted in her ear, instantly rubbing circles against her tight little entrance, making her baby water more for her...getting her ready for her cock, but not stretching her. nyx...wanted to take her fully and she would, in a minute, her lips moving to hana's neck to suck on her skin, to rake her teeth over her flesh while her other hand guided one of hana's to her size...making her smaller hand run over the shape through the fabric and the sight, the feeling turned nyx on more. she loved moving despite fabric, using the lace hana so often wore against her...like she did now, leaving the younger girl to free her size from her jeans while her hand moved back to her breast, massaging her deeper and rolling her nipple through the rougher fabric while her lips found hana's again, panting against her in between kisses. "i need you." she murmured, a breath to her lips and midnight eyes backed up that truth...she didn't know if hana could see the different ways...but she was learning that she craved her in more than one, consistently...and heated fingertips ran higher to tighter flesh again, spreading her pleasure to her skin and massaging her there too...just wanting to make her girl feel good before she was hurting her...using this counter agianst her more and her kisses grew more fervent, more hungry, her touch slipping around her hip now to run down the flat of her stomach...to feel her swollen nerve and rub against it harder, demanding...nyx's boot moving to the inside of hana's foot to guide her legs wider for her...to roll against her now and she only panted harder, only felt her chest cave...pleasure and want, need, lust, hunger...her stomach was twisting and pleasure was throbbing between her thighs, skin burning for the girl and she'd been waiting for this moment since she'd seen her last, to be honest...just unsure of when, how she'd see her again.