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I love the idea of Sam developing severe (and untreated) OCD as a result of how he was treated by John during his childhood.

I think he fixates on about 2.5 things. The first one surrounds his experiences with food insecurity. He is vegetarian because he is a woke liberal who went to college but also because I think he has insane food rules and gets sick if he does not follow them. Also because he’s lwk untreated and sometimes an ass, he judges other people (Dean) by his own compulsions because to him that’s how you “should” be eating.

His other intrusive thoughts and compulsions revolve around the concept of “being clean”. I think this would manifest on the surface level of Sam being a clean freak with his space and a bit of a germaphobe (he carries a hand sanitizer on him at ALL TIMES). But they would also go a little bit deeper. Sam is constantly scapegoated by his own father and persistently made to feel as though he is dirty and evil in some way. His father makes him feel evil, and the stuff with the yellow eyed demon feels very reminiscent of grooming which brings in his feeling dirty. He’s very much the type of person to have a freak out from something small and scrub at himself for hours until he’s able to feel clean again.

I also think that because John was kind of religious and much of the hunting stuff that they were taught as kids revolved around Christianity, Sam would cling onto that. He loves being a big nerd and reading and lore, and the lore of Christianity feeds right into his OCD. God is the only person who can forgive sinners and those who are evil and unclean, so that becomes one of his compulsions. I think it would be a fun character thing if Sam wore a rosary on him every single day and claimed it was some form of protection against the supernatural whenever Dean asked him about it, but it would really be so that he could pray and fulfill his compulsion to repent whenever he felt gross or dirty again.

Like I think we all have our favorites, even though my blog is usually more appealing to Sam fans, I do feel a tad more partial to Dean just cause he’s so me fr. But like what is up with Sam fans claiming Dean is evil and abusive or Dean fans making Sam out to be some evil monster????

Are we watching the show with our eyes closed? They’re both deeply flawed and interesting characters and ALSO they need each other. They are codependent and both act all insane without each other. Dean would beat the shit out of you if he heard you talking about Sam like that and Sam would break his pacifism streak to use his mind powers on you if you were talking about Dean.

I would just like wait a couple years and then re-film it and cast Jensen Ackles as John. It would be slightly evil but man would it be a fun full circle moment and a little callback for goated original fans of supernatural.

Sam Winchester fiends of the world, I NEED to know how would you guys want to see Sam’s character arc to have wrapped up in supernatural (if you weren’t satisfied with the canon ending of the show obvs)

(I lwk have a confession, I actually have not watched all of supernatural. That being said I love Jack he is my goat. I have not watched a single episode with him in it, so keep in mind this opinion might change a tad.)

I usually really dislike shows once their cast of characters gets too large. A good recent example of this is Stranger Things. Once it stopped being about this sad little friend group it kind of lost appeal to me. A lot of supernatural fans would have me killed for this opinion I think because honestly I don’t really care for any of the new characters past like season 5, and even then I kind of got annoyed everytime we got some new guy we had to follow around. Crowley is funny and goated, I just don’t really care for his plot lines IM SORRY.

I think we lose a very important element from the early seasons by continuing to add characters. There’s no sense of emptiness. A big thing I liked was just how isolated and lonely Sam and Dean were. They are alone in this world and it’s why they’re so codependent.

All that being said, I do love the addition of Jack. Maybe it’s just me being biased, but I do really think he is incredibly important to the story. In my opinion the whole apocalypse god/satan stuff was kind of way too much, especially that early on in the show, cause after the apocalypse what do you even follow that with??

I think the pinnacle of the show should have been some sort of antichrist plotline. But in a fun fresh way. This is SO rehashing an older post but I’d combine Jack’s character and that one kid named Jesse who has magic powers who we literally never see again (what a fumbled plot line 💔).

One thing I think is an interesting aspect of supernatural that gets abandoned slightly by the whole apocalypse plot and also because it was hard to be woke in the 2000s is the whole myths and monsters from every region and belief.

I think later seasons of supernatural suffer from only focusing on Christianity. It’s boring, it’s used, it’s such a dumb trope like if I want to watch a show about angels and demons and gay people I’m gonna go watch Good Omens.

It would be cool if we were able to keep the whole like evil mythical creatures from everywhere, but in a way that they only exist because people believe in them. If somebody believes in a creature, the creature is out there somewhere. I think Sam and Dean just have a Christian lens on it because that’s how they were raised. They lived with a pastor half the time, so obviously they interpret demons as like Christian agents of Satan demons. It would be really interesting if we ever got to see the perspective of other hunters with different backgrounds. I think the way you hunt and gather information of the monsters you fight is definitely biased by your own experiences.

I think Cas has no real understanding of why humans are homophobic because human on human shit is like how god intended things to be. My guy is on a whole other scale of wrongness because he’s trying to fight this crazy fight for people to not think he’s disgusting for interspecies love. He 100% has monster-fucker allegations in Angel City.

Sam is a monster fucker because he fucks werewolves and shit. He is on the very base level. Cas is on like some strange fucked up level we don’t even understand.

Been thinking about how much I hate John Winchester lately (shocking I know) and I think I have a little bit of an idea as to why Sam and Dean almost instantly switch up on how they feel about John after he dies in the series.

I cannot explain how essential it is to the plot that Sam and Dean have like the exact opposite reactions to John’s death.

Sam throughout the show has these little moments, particularly when it comes to the type of person Dean is, that I think are a pretty interesting glimpse into how he treats his own trauma when it comes to John/his childhood. He acts shocked Dean could be capable of taking care of children or cooking or just generally being responsible. He has an idea of his brother that doesn’t actually exist in reality. While yes, Dean does often behave in a irresponsible way, this is only when he’s goofing around with Sam when they are safe or when he’s putting on a front, which I also think is interesting.

Not only does Sam have a false image of his brother, but he has one of his father as well. Despite the fact that we get multiple allusions to Dean being beat/hit by John, he says that their father never hit them in that one episode with thy kid who kills his dad and uncle because they beat his ass every day. I like to think that because Sam was able to remove himself from the abusive situation, the first thing his brain did to cope with it was black the whole thing out. The only time he really acknowledges it is that whole “get drugged out with my rapist girlfriend” arc. He cannot deal with acknowledging the things that happened to him. (This is also pretty common with victims of CSA. Your brain blocks things out but you still often feel the repercussions of the abuse through sexual dysfunction). For example, Sam acts like their dad was around and fed them and was perfectly fine, just kind of neglectful, but then very obviously shows signs of having experienced food insecurity with his incredibly restrictive eating habits.

Dean on the other hand has no way of forgetting about the abuse. He doesn’t get to forget about it because until John dies, he’s still actively in it all. He defends their dad during the beginning because unlike Sam, he has a memory of before the abuse. (Another common reaction with victims of CSA is to become incredibly close with their abuser and defend them.) I think Dean would also try and act like everything was just fine because he wants to protect Sam from it all. Sam is his responsibility and Sam in his mind will always be his baby, so of course he’s lying to protect his little brother.

But once he finally reacts to the abuse, he’s able to admit to himself that this is wrong. Hence why he completely flip-flops on his feelings about John. He’s in the process of acknowledging his abuse, while Sam is over here being like “Dean stop, dad LOVED US.” Like yeah buddy maybe he loved you, but not Dean. I also think with Sam being the favorite, Dean definitely faced harsher abuse than he did. There’s no way that boy wasn’t taking punches for his little brother.

The interesting thing to me is that no matter how hard Dean tries to keep up this masculine front and pretends like he’s just some lazy slob who over-indulges in everything (his food insecurity popping up in that the second that guy gets food he’s eating everything on the plate), no matter how hard he tries to forget everything, it’s always going to be there and there’s nothing he can do about it. I think it’s also inherently tied to his queerness in a way. To Dean the only way he could have escaped being beat by his dad was to be the man his dad wanted him to be, but instead he’s some soft queer.

To specify, I do think Dean and Sam’s sexual abuse are very different from one another. It’s not necessarily something you HAVE to read into, it’s just something I have pondered incorporating to my version of supernatural. Sam’s abuse started from day one. I think everything that yellow-eyes does to him is very similar to grooming. I’ve posted about this before I’m pretty sure, but I feel the need to hammer this point in. The fact that it permeates into everything Sam does is SO important to his character. It’s also why he allows himself into terrible relationships like his dating Ruby. People who are victimized young are likely to be victimized again. As for Dean, I read into his strange relationship with John as at the very least emotionally incestuous. After Mary dies, Dean completely fulfills that role of mom of the family and wife in that he’s taking care of Sam and taking care of the house. If anything, I think John would have blurred the lines of what is appropriate to task a 10 year old with. It’s why Dean is so conflicted about being a “real man”. His dad pushed this being straight and being a real tough man on him, but then is exactly the reason why he can never be. Regardless of Dean’s personality or his own sexual inclinations, his dad feminizes him in pushing him into Mary’s role and having such a weird relationship with his son. But once Dean starts resembling a grown man the abuse (minus physical he’s still beating that boy) completely cuts off. Like Dean choosing to be queer is what makes it disgusting of him. Then he sends him on that whole “kill these lesbian nuns, this definitely isn’t a message about what happens to gay people son.” Mission.

Thinking about my all time favorite supernatural episodes and I need to share.

Dark Side of the Moon (5x16 I think?) gotta be the worst best episode in this fuckass show. I think about that episode weekly honestly. I hear Knocking on Heaven’s Door and I lock the fuck in and get flashbacks.

I think it should have held way more weight than it does in the show. I know the whole bit of the show is like “we’re never gonna lie to each other again!” And then they lie to each other immediately after and fight and then they are back together the next episode no talking about it or nothing, but I don’t really think this is a moving on moment, at least not for Dean. Dean Winchester has spent his ENTIRE LIFE from the age of 5 taking care of Sam and being told he has to protect him with his life. And then they go to heaven and Sam’s persona heaven is when he ran away from Dean and Dean was presumably getting abuse at home from John for letting anything happen to Sam.

I think the exact plot of this whole episode doesn’t quite fit the whole idea of my rewritten version of supernatural, because going to heaven to hide from angels is just so absurd.

I like the idea of like hotel California/lair of the lotus eaters style motel that Sam and Dean stop at and they’re just eternally trapped while some entity feeds off of them or something. It presents you with this idealized version of live based off of your best memories to keep you stuck. I think after defeating the weird creature having them trapped there, Dean would tweak out about Sam’s ideal world being without him. The throwing away of the samulet has gotta be more important than I was in the show that shit was heartbreaking. My guy has been wearing that shit since 10. I think they should have had a longer fight.

I think that should have been a real point of contention in the plot. Like this is clearly not supposed to be the same as all of the rest of their fights. It’s set aside as more serious, but definitely not enough. This is what really breaks the bond between the two. It cements in Dean’s mind that his brother doesn’t love him. I think it would be the parallel episode to the reveal that Dean killed John. It’s the same level of betrayal to both of them, and what destroys their trust in one another.

If I were to go off the plot line of Dean getting to survive and retire my biggest bad guy, the utter pinnacle of the show would be the antichrist. Not in the same way it is in the show though. It would be much more compressed.

There’s obviously the main yellow eyed demon thing (which for all that build up really deserved more of a conclusion idk) and then John being dead, but I think the final big scary thing is going to be how to deal with the whole antichrist thing except there’s no god and now Lucifer doesn’t really have some guy to fight all the time, so now he just has some super powered kid he doesn’t give a fuck about.

I think I’m gonna combine Jesse and Jack into one character because why the FUCK would they introduce Jesse just to have him disappear himself. Plus having a kid would kind of settle the Dean arc. The last thing he has to do to truly rid himself of John is to kill the John within himself. I think he often sees John in his own actions and is terrified of who he’ll become.

Having a kid like this dude has wanted since the very start of the series would prove that he is capable of not becoming John. That he really does get to be a person in his own right.

I’m keeping the colt in the story cause back in the day when that was the most powerful weapon the only thing that could kill demons and it only has this many bullets it was insanely cool.

Getting their hands on angelic weapons or other shit that can kill demons made it boring.

I don’t think angels need weapons like humans do. They are violent in a way that is inhuman. Demons have weapons because they mirror human awfulness. Angels can rip all your organs out of your body or flip you inside out by thinking. Why would they need a sword or some shit??

I think John and Dean would have gone on some long grueling mission to find the colt. So we already have it pre-Sam. Why would this be important? Because I think it would be funny and a little poetic to have the colt be the gun Dean kills his father with. This demon killing weapon taking out the man who ruined his life is just so special as an idea to me.

Does Dean know the importance of this gum and how they have only a few bullets and how it could get rid of that yellow eyed demon who ruined their lives? Yes. But he uses it anyway. He wastes bullets and shoots his dad one too many times than necessary before he realized how he’s fucked himself over.

One of the very important things about Sam that I think needs to be stressed is just how insanely weird his relationship with Ruby is. It is not normal for him in any capacity. That’s what makes it so relevant to his character development.

Sam’s relationship with Ruby in my mind is the lowest of the lows in his life. He’s geeking on demon blood, he’s getting whipped around by some demon lady, and frankly I think something about their relationship is a little rapey considering how often she coerces Sam into doing things or how often she initiates stuff with him when he is high.

One of the core parts of Sam that I think he has made a central part of him is just how driven he is. Sam is not lazy, Sam is not uninspired. He takes a piss poor high school education and works his ass off to get into Stanford and he makes it. Sam doesn’t smoke, he doesn’t drink, he doesn’t eat meat, he has a good sleep schedule, he has a routine, he works out, he socializes. He is passionate about his life.

I think hunting is truly the thing that ruins him, and it’s why he would be INSANELY upset with Dean for tricking him into coming back. Hunting is something he has been trying to leave behind for years and it takes away that control he so desperately wants over his life.

The more he unpacks the weird sexual harassment and abuse that has happened to him and the more he’s in this lifestyle, the more Sam’s drive falls apart. He gets with Ruby and starts geeking out on demon blood because it’s some desperate attempt on his end to get some say over his life again, but to everyone on the outside, that is the exact thing causing the disintegration of Sam’s drive and passions. Hunting takes him to this depressive self destructive spiral. He doesn’t want this life and he does infinitely better when he runs away.

Personally I think Eric Kripke and the other writers on supernatural WAYYYY underuse flashback episodes. There’s so much insane potential there.

If it wasn’t blatantly obvious by now, I love childhood episodes in supernatural. I love getting to see little glimpses of what got us here. The flashback episodes should really just twist the knife of whatever upsetting plot line we’re in.

I think we should see childhood flashbacks almost near constantly in particularly Dean focused episodes. It’s those moments that define his routine, his motivations, his everything.

As for Sam, I think he’s much more focused on trying to forget about that and frankly I’d just like to see more of his college life. I want to see the Sam he so desperately tries to be.

The only point in time I would want to be intentionally obscured would be those years without Sam. Something has obviously happened because Dean is changed. He’s cagier and desperate and there’s just something off about it. (Also it’s the span of time that lead up to and was the moment when he killed his own father, but that’s kind of inferred later) I want the audience to be in the dark just like Sam.

One thing I’ve been in conflict about is how I would choose to end supernatural.

There are a lot of different directions to go and I’ve settled on two flimsy ones that definitely need further pondering before they would ever be set in stone.

The first idea is to go off of the original ending of supernatural itself. The cons to this are just how the ending is incredibly unsatisfying and feels homophobic. (Do not talk to me about that fuckass wig)

The concept of this whole thing is that Sam and Dean have that Cain and Abel motif throughout the entire show, highlighted by the single time they meet an angel other than Cas during the show. Probably a much much older and more powerful angel so they are not questioned for choosing to spend time on earth and growing a fondness for humans. The angel would see them and almost get them mixed up with Cain and Abel and say some mysterious thing about how the boys “look like somebody they used to know”.

Then that ending would consist of Sam finding out about Dean killing their dad and having some sort of fight and killing him. But that would also mean that nothing has truly changed from the beginning to the end. Like it was fate for Dean to die on a hunt and nothing could change that.

But… even if I made a point to be like “it was just fate” I think it still cheapens the plot a little bit, because I think the whole point of the Dean-kills-John idea is that Dean does something he would never do. He does something that completely changes the whole course of the plot. So I think his ending deserves something a little more appropriate.

There is something very awful and fitting about Dean not being able to change anything about his life.

But I like the idea that the whole thing that makes up the concept of the whole Dean-kills-John is the fact that it’s something Dean would never do. It’s an action that completely breaks the original narrative.

Making killing his own father the one thing that changes his “destiny” feels like peak writing idk. John being the catalyst is something very important to me. He got Dean into this life, and he’s the thing in the way of Dean leaving. John being gone, and being gone for good, enables him the chance to slip away.

That ending would prob play out with Dean getting injured in a serious way that entirely pulls him out of hunting and I’m NOT having Cas heal him because that is silly. Cas wants him to leave at this point because he is a mushy little man by the end and maybe he wants Dean to be safe. Maybe he wants to take care of him the way people take care of each other, not angels.