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“Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.” Hanjae & @resfebr​ — red & black

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        “Watch out watch out watch out!!!!!!” It doesn’t come as quick as it should because the situation didn’t happen as he expected it to. He didn’t expect anything actually. Well, he expected a masterpiece. That was the plan. Board up the art room ( well his section of the art room ) and indulge in all that was his plethora of paint and colors. That meant colors, everywhere. That also meant, flying paint and the abundance of opened cans floating about the room. Most people knew to stay out, when he had the sign on the door, most upperclassmen knew his trade and underclassmen usually didn’t dare. That was the trick to him sliding a perfect slot for his expression. Hands two balloons full and an open canvas for the taking he was ready to go wild. He was ready to let lose. The world was his oyster! What he wasn’t ready for, was the appearance of a head the moment he throws the first balloon. He prays for her relaxes and prays his voice reaches as the watch out follows the direction of the now paint filled disaster.

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“Do you think we can do that again? Meet tonight to eatspicy ramen instead and laugh and talk about anything, including aliens and howthey’ll take the world to themselves?” She asks, tapping her table upon thethought that she pondered for a moment. “Unless you have something to do thatyou feel responsible with, and that’s the reason why you’re technically… notsleeping.” Seulgi sits up by the couch after that, sitting over the edge whilepulling her legs over to the side, her dog crawling over to lay on her lap asshe talks once more. “How’s life treating you lately?”

she knows it’s a risky proposal, but chahee never backs up from a challenge that’s in her favor, and what more could she wish for than be as free as a bird set free from its cage? “yeah, i wanna meet and eat spicy ramen and curse at it for the rest of the week - heck, month, and then blame you for calling me at unorthodox hours for it.” always a straight forwarded person, but her words hold no bite behind them, she’s just teasing her friend. “hey, let’s meet up at our usual spot in fifteen minutes, and we can hold deep conversations about how both our lives suck and that kinda stuff, before we get the good food. how about that?” she’s already standing from her place, no longer caring about notoriety, as she steps out of her bedroom and follows the stairs, free hand grabbing onto her coat in a rushed motion, feet halfway stuffed in her shoes, resulting a funny waddle. 

“what the fuck is wrong with you. it’s you- you are the one selling shit to the highest payer. so what the fuck did I do to you. fuck your boyfriend or something?” surely she fished for a reason this nobody had some sort of bone to pick with her. there was always a reason. “are you gonna speak or are you gonna stand there looking stupid?” aggression, and outright fury laced each word that came out of her mouth.

a turn towards a corner leads her right in the lioness’s cage. audible gasp leaving from her lips, her first reaction is a violent struggle of her wrist, concern focused upon the possibility of forming bruises on her skin, rather than how she was completely busted and failed what had been assigned to her. “hey, hey, let’s calm down!” she opts not to answer the latter question verbally, but rather with a snarky grin because god knows where her fiancé could be doing right now, or more importantly, who. “wouldn’t this bring more attention on you? you’re feeding what’s already trending worldwide by now.” she’s testing the waters with a sly tone and cock of her head, provoking the idol into further aggression, knowing it would feed the media and cause mixed reactions between people.  

1. Smoking: the action or habit of inhaling and exhaling the smoke of tobacco or a drug. 2. Binge drinking: the consumption of an excessive amount of alcohol in a short period of time. 3. Drug abuse: the habitual taking of illegal drugs. 4. Nail biting: a common body language sign of anxiety/tension. 5. Lip biting: a common body language sign of anxiety/tension. 6. Night Owl: a person who is habitually active or wakeful at night. 7. Early bird: a person who rises, arrives, or acts before the usual or expected time. 8. Negative attitudes: a philosophy of approaching life with criticism and pessimism. 9. Positive attitudes: a philosophy of approaching life with optimism and confidence. 10. Swearing: the use of offensive language. 11. Superstitious: an irrational belief that an object, action, or circumstance not logically related to a course of events influences its outcome. 12. Inspecting fingernails: a common body language sign of boredom. 13. Scratching your neck: a common body language sign of uncertainty. 14. Foot and finger tapping: a common body language sign of stress/impatience. 15. Nose touch: a subtle body language sign of deceit. 16. Flipping hair: a common body language sign of craving attention. 17. Twirling hair: a common body language sign of flirtation. 18. Cracking knuckles: a common body language sign of readiness. 19. Hands behind back: a common body language sign of confidence. 20. Finger pointing: a common body language sign of authority. 21. Hands on hips: a common body language sign of readiness. 22: Hands in pockets: a common body language sign of mistrust/reluctance. 23. Frequent touch: a common body language sign of warmth/familiarity. 24. Throat-clearing: a common body language sign of rejection/doubt. 25: Jaw-clenching: a common body language sign of hostility. 26: Eye-rolling: a common body language sign of irritation. 27: Head-tilt: a common body language sign of interest. 28. Whistling: to emit high-pitched sound by forcing breath through a small hole between one’s lips or teeth; usually to a tune. 29. Humming: make a low, steady continuous sound like that of a bee; usually to a tune. 30. Perfectionism: refusal to accept any standard short of perfection. 31. Photographic memory: the ability to remember information or visual images in great detail. 32. Paranoia: a mental condition characterized by delusions of persecution, unwarranted jealousy, or exaggerated self-importance, typically worked into an organized system. 33. Exaggeration: a statement that represents something as better or worse than it really is. 34: Intuitive: using or based on what one feels to be true even without conscious reasoning; instinctive. 35: Quick-witted: showing or characterized by an ability to think or respond quickly and effectively. 36: Interrupting: breaking the continuity of a conversation with one’s own statements. 37: Doodling: to scribble or make rough drawings, absent-mindedly. 38: Irritable: having or showing a tendency to be easily annoyed. 39: Gambling: to play games of chance for money; bet. 40: Travel-sick: suffering from nausea caused by the motion of a moving vehicle, boat, or aircraft. 41: Sensitive: having or displaying a quick and delicate appreciation of others’ feelings. 42: Melancholy: a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause. 43: Chewing gum: the exercise of chewing flavoured gum which is not intended for swallowing. 44: Fidgeting: to make small movements, especially of the hands and feet, through nervousness or impatience. 45: Skeptical: not easily convinced; having doubts or reservations. 46: Neat-freak: compulsively obsessed with cleanliness. 47: Gossiping: divulging personal information about others. 48: Prim: feeling or showing disapproval of anything regarded as improper; stiffly correct. 49: Abbreviating: Giving others nicknames/shortening names/giving pet names. 50: Having a catchphrase: having a sentence or phrase typically associated with a specific person.

Kate Tempest, The Bricks That Built the Houses (via quoted-books)

❝Have you thought about it before?❞

he never pried in her private life before, it being the primal reason she finds comfort in his presence to begin with. “I don’t know.” i can’t travel. i don’t control my future. she desperately wants to voice out her thoughts, but the only one she ever has guts to spill her feelings to is her diary at home. she wants to rip the chains holding her back from fulfilling her dreams and take initiative of her own. the cost? possibly her life. so, she sets for a simplistic answer after minutes of pondering, gaze lingering overher book, without actually reading the words. “probably start designing clothes on my own.”