Personal

2013

I met somebody I’d known for a long time online in the flesh the week before. We got on like a house on fire. I couldn’t really grasp it. We had plans to meet the next week. He fucked me over a month later.

2014

I started talking to a guy on Tinder a couple of days before, he was stood up on his first date so I spent Valentines chatting to him while watching Camp Takota. He friendzoned my but now he’s one of my best friends.

2015

I’d met up with a guy I knew from Twitter a week before and I thought he was so promising. We lived in different cities so I hadn’t seen him since, but I happened to be driving past his city on the 16th and I was smitten. We dated until June and I broke his heart on holiday.

2016

My long-distance boyfriend of 8 months broke up with me 4 days before Valentines. I couldn’t accept it, I thought it could still work out, we had big plans. On Valentines he put a stake in it for good.

Why is Valentines such a romantically contentious time for me?! By Valentines 2017 I vow to either be in a happy stable relationship or be happily single. I vow to be romantically happy.

Update 2017

HA. HAHA ha. Started seeing someone a couple of weeks before Valentines, he was keen but very very busy and shit at communication. I messaged him on V day to see if he was still into it and he rang and we had a lovely chat and made lunch plans. 3 weeks later he said his head/heart wasn’t in it.

Update 2018

woah I haven’t written on this blog in over 2 months when I used to do it obsessively. It kind of reminds me of what I said in this video about adaptability. But I thought I'd just check in now for posterity.

So last time I was like “I’m super happy but I don’t have any money!” and now I have all the money! I was too late applying for that job I wanted last time, but then they called me up out of the blue ~6 weeks ago saying they desperately needed another developer - full time - and I said yes! After the major launch a week and a half ago I've settled into working 3 days a week there for £250 a day. It’s pretty much the dream.

In other news, I’m in love. He’s wonderful. He’s coming with me to New York for a week before I head off to camp, and then after camp I’m going on a road trip with my 2 best friends for a fortnight before heading back to uni. On some planes I really don’t want to head back to camp or uni, I’d rather just get an exciting job and be an adult and not be separated from my boyfriend for 3 months, but I’m going to make the most of it.

It's just occurred to me that everything vaguely recent on this blog has been profoundly negative so I thought I'd share my current state of mind to counterbalance the past couple of months.

I feel so so good!!!!

I mean, I still don't have any money, but I've realised that I'm really awesome, I have all the time in the world, and I have skills that people pay a lot for. I got a job about a month ago assisting on a Saturday course on front-end web development (i.e. my shit), and this week they want me to lead the class which is cool. Also I applied for the perrrffect job the other day (£200/day, 3days/week, for 4 months up until I go to America) and I can totally do it. I haven't heard back from them yet but even if I don't get it WHO CARES because I'm worth £200 a day.

I met a really great guy a couple of weeks ago and he's sort of reminded me how infinite my future can be. Also I'm kind of smitten.

Aaaand I've come up with an idea for my dissertation, and for the whole of my jewellery studies next year which I'm excited about. It all revolves around organic coding and 3d printing but I don't want to learn Python to use in Rhino so I'm going to learn Processing and import it instead, then I took a look at Processing and it has all the same logic as js for canvas so really I can already do it. *happy dance* going to make some crazy visualisations.