Nothing

So uhhhhhhhhhhhhh

If anyone needs me I'm gonna be sobbing.

楚生，很多人都想知道你那些颠沛流离、刀尖上舔血，直到成为上海滩八大金刚的故事。但是，你从不愿意提及。称谓也好、传说也罢，其实都是你为了在偌大的上海滩存生下来，在自己身上割的一个又一个伤疤，而伤疤终究是丑陋的，见不得光的，它虽震慑于外人，可终究还是疼在你身。你从不会做长远的打算，因为你也晓得，你会随时死去，所以未来对你来说即是奢侈的，也不切实际的，所以你听天由命。大家都说你潇洒、风流倜傥，万花丛中过，片叶不沾身，而你，不过是想了无牵挂，不想让谁因为你的离开而难过伤心，即使，你很想有一个家。

Chusheng, a lot of people wanted to know about your story of how you went from a wandering youth, with blood staining the blade of your knife, to one of the eight key figures of the Shanghai Bund. But, you were always unwilling to talk about it. Be it the title or the rumours, they were all wounds that you carved onto yourself just so that you could survive in the vastness of the Shanghai Bund. And wounds are ultimately ugly, they can never see the light of day, and although they frighten other people, they will always be hurting on your body. You would never make long-term plans for the future, because you always knew that you could die any time, so to you the future was always not only a luxury but also impractical, so you left your life up to fate. Everyone said you were carefree and unrestrained, casual and suave, true to your morals and unaffected by the temptations around you. But you, you just didn’t want any concerns, you didn’t want anyone to be sad when you left, even though you really wanted to have a home.

也许是上天稍微疼了你一下，你遇到了很多可爱的人，他们的出现，让你有了一丝侥幸，或许“我”的人生可以有另一种可能。随即你又多了一丝贪念，你想要更多的时间，然后……你又开始怕了，你开始害怕离别，害怕他们受到伤害，又一次你意识到自己的渺小。只是今时不同往日，你不用再自己一个人去扛，你的身边多了一份力量，终于，你不再那么孤单了。

Perhaps the heavens pitied you a little, you met a lot of loveable people, and their appearance was to you like a shred of luck, perhaps “my” life could have another possibility. Following that you had another inkling of greed, you wanted more time, and then… you started to be scared again, you started to fear leaving, fear that harm would befall them, and once again you realised just how insignificant you were. But this time, it was different from the past, you didn’t have to shoulder everything by yourself anymore, you had another pillar of strength beside you, finally, you weren’t so lonely anymore.

与你相识的这段日子，有过开心，有过担心，受益良多。愿你在另一个平行宇宙里，可以乱世逢生，躲过枪林弹雨，找到一席之地。他日，与至交好友再次相聚。#民国奇探大结局#

Getting to know you during this period of time, I have been happy, I have been worried, and I have gained much. I hope that in a parallel universe, even if you were to be born during a period of troubles and upheavals, you would be able to hide from the forests of guns and rains of bullets, to find a small place for yourself. Someday, you would be able to meet your closest friends again. #MyRoommateIsADetectiveFinale#

张云龙 Zhang Yunlong