stalk, threaten, and rape me

Hard Limits: friends & family, minors, bugs, anything that will actually get me arrested, social suicide

My stupid addict cunt was convinced to take more so now I've taken another 9 pills to get to plat 3 at 510mgs... the most I've ever taken at once I think

Dont worry I almost always listen to hypno while im high or whenever im masturbating. I already have some Bambi sleep compilations playing

The fact that I'm back here, getting high, after I tried so hard to get better and deleted everything... Im definitely getting worse

Collar too tight to keep me a little out breath while the 8 robotabs I just took kick in

Im too much of a junkie to not take some tonight even if I know its bad for me... Ive always tried to be so good about the rules for breaks between trips but I need my brain to start deteriorating

Oh my god, fuck, these messages live in the back of my head. The part of me that doesnt see the internet as real brushes it off, convinced that its all just roleplay... but the logical part of me gets scared. It knows that if there's even a tiny chance that its real than im risking my life and sanity just because I cant resist my stupid cunt

The idea of getting pregnant with some internet strangers cum is genuinely one of the hottest most cunt-clenching ideas ever, fuck it haunts my dreams

Being stalked terrifies me, but I get so wet thinking about it. And maybe, *maybe* there's a little part of me that craves it, that thinks it might be what pushes me over the edge. God knows I've put plenty of my information out there. What makes my stomach flip the most is the idea of these things getting out into my regularly life. Someone messaging my actual phone number, or dming me on my real socials. Someone sending me a letter or a package would really get to me. And, of course, the way my heart would stop if someone sent me pictures they had taken of me without my knowledge...

I think I might take some dxm tonight even tho I shouldnt since I took some a few days ago... which plat should I aim for? 1, 2, 3... I've never even hit 4 before

Glad to know people are happy to see my life getting even worse 💖😵‍💫

Everyone in my real life thinks I'm going to do good things and get better and live a good life but the whole time I'm getting notifications on my phone from people who know what's really going to happen to me...