i don’t know what to do with this blog or if I ever wanna continue writing here because it’s so —or rather— too easy to get sb’d or hardblocked by someone you admired or thought you were cool with ?? this includes trying to take accountability of yourself in order to reconcile/apologize to someone but then you feel guilty once you are blocked . and as someone neurodivergent , this especially hits hard when you have urges to infodump and do certain things that’ll get misunderstood or treated poorly here due to hidden social cues . it makes it difficult to understand boundaries and feels like constant walking on egg shells or in a minefield .
basically i do not think it’s ‘safe’ to be here if you have RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria) . in my experience, it’ll flare-up too often , and then i’ll go through a process called autistic looping/perseveration . **
i’ve mentally improved an incredible amount this year after having breakthrough treatments—and with growth means my perspectives have changed— a lot of my takes on interpersonal/ooc relationships, ic interactions etc. might come off as too unconventional .
** With the terms mentioned, i hope I validated someone’s experience and made them feel relieved to see themselves in my own experiences . <3
