Jul 30
I'm so tired of calling myself "sick" or saying I was "unwell" to people I know. I know I tried to end my life, they know that too. Whats the point in pretending I was just unwell? I'm tired of lying to people and acting like I'll get better because I genuinely don't see myself living to 18 which is so sad because just a few months ago I was starting to belive I'd make it through this. I'll never get back what people took from me. My body will always be dirty in a way I just can't clean off because no matter what it's still the body they tried to take. I feel disgusting and I don't even feel like my body is mine anymore. I only ever feel safe when I'm creating art but I'm slowly running out of the energy to create at all.
