random ramblings

I don't know how much longer I can deal with this anxiety. I get anxious when I'm by myself, I get anxious if I'm around people. All day Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I hung out with people, and this is the point where I would usually be glad to be alone and have me time, but I prefer not to be alone with my thoughts. It doesn't help that my new favorite song is keeping me in this rut, but it just speaks to me. It lingers in that newly emptied cavity in my chest that he once lived. How do you just move on from someone who was your everything for two years? The thought of us eventually growing apart after I move scares me like nothing else. I don't have any "best friends" like most chicks do. He's my best friend. Was my best friend? We just get each other. I don't know if I will manage to find someone again and that's what scares me most. 

I will never not love this movie

having roommates who don't smoke cigarettes because goddamn I want one so hard right now

and spread my passion.