Pain and sufferings, ache, death.

SW PT (AotC) | 1890 words | T | Gen

Summary:

Obi-Wan returns from the mission to Geonosis, having made a detour to kill a Sith. Everyone in the Temple is expecting him to mourn someone who has been dead for two decades.

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I spent several months recovering from violently dropping the steaming pile of excrement better known as HP and then I started writing again, even for fandoms I wasn't very deep into. Since April, I posted 12 works, all one-shots, with the total word count of 8850 words.

It turns out SW fanfiction makes up exactly half of my published works, which feels simultaneously like a lot and not enough.

I also posted one work for each of the following: Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind, Alien 1979, Trinity Blood, OMORI, Shin Godzilla - and one Original Work.

Trinity Blood | 1105 words | M | F/M

Summary:

After the battle with Duo Iqus, Tres returns to his owner. A soft moment between Tres and Caterina post Gunmetal Hound.

Tags:

Tres Iqus/Caterina Sforza Hurt/Comfort, Loyalty, Self-Doubt, Past Mind Rape, Robot Injury, Canon-Typical Limb Loss, Post-Mission, Women In Power, Robot/Human Relationships, Androids, Biotechnology, Wetware A.I., POV Android, Canon - Manga

Excerpt:

He was a machine, if one built with the use of cloning. What else could he be? Through a background process, Tres acessed the recording from the day he had first met the Cardinal at St. Angelo, when she made her initial offer and he refused. He never wanted to live as a human, not even when it could have been the choice between that and being destroyed. But a machine carried out its orders without fail. Tres was, therefore, defective, and that had nothing to do with the damage he had sustained during the mission. Fluids were leaking down his cassock, leaving dark stains on white marble. The pressure control system, operating at average 84.3% efficiency during his journey back to Vatican, now entirely failed to seal off the connection to the missing arm. He had to close the distal vessels manually.

Alien (1979) | 1300 | E | Other

Summary:

When a xenomorph drone has a limited supply of hosts, it may reproduce by penetrating the airways of a cocooned victim using its inner jaw. Combined with the tissue of the host, the released substance induces the growth of a larva in their lungs.

Tags:

Arthur Dallas, Xenomorph, Ellen Ripley Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Dark, Heavy Angst, Hurt No Comfort, Unhappy Ending, Making Canon Even Worse, Suicidal Themes, Forced Pregnancy, Body Horror, Trans Horror, Trans Arthur Dallas, Alien Reproduction, Orifice Invasion, Chestbursters, Cocoon

Excerpt:

There is a life growing within him: a piece of foreign tissue, like a neoplasm feeding on him - only it will outgrow its host and continue to kill until there are no viable lifeforms left within its reach. An endoparasitoid, Ash had called it. It feels like cruel irony; Dallas no longer has a uterus, he never wanted to get pregnant. It has been years since he has left all remnants of his past behind. Now, all that he has worked so hard for is going to be taken away from him. In one thing he is still right - he will not live to see himself give birth.

TES (Morrowind) | 710 words | T | Gen

Summary:

Nerevar on his way to Dagoth-Ur.

Tags:

Nerevar, Voryn Dagoth | Dagoth Ur Angst, The Blight, Red Mountain, Volcanoes, Wasteland, Flashbacks, Betrayal, Friends to Enemies, Nerevarine is Nerevar, POV Indoril Nerevar, POV Second Person

Excerpt:

On some days, it can be heard as far as in Ald'Ruhn. The ground trembles at equal intervals; so close to the caldera, you both hear and feel it, like drums of war. Like the beating of a giant disembodied heart. Foreboding fills you when you imagine what you see, whom you see inside.

SW PT (RotS) | 1250 words | M | Gen

Summary:

A victim of a Jedi plot speaks out about a tragedy that befell the Republic. (The death of truth is the ultimate victory of evil.)

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Mon Mothma, Sheev Palpatine | Darth Sidious Dark, Angst, Hurt No Comfort, Not A Fix-It, Unhappy Ending, Making Canon Even Worse, Manipulative Sheev Palpatine, Galactic Senate, Post-Order 66, Bail Organa Dies, Padmé Amidala Dies, Anakin Skywalker Dies, Anakin Skywalker Turns to the Dark Side, Palpatine is his own warning, POV Mon Mothma, POV Outsider, Unreliable Narrator

Excerpt:

"I invited all members of the Jedi High Council available planetside into my office to discuss the terms. Unbeknowst to me and others, two of them had planned a coup, and chose this moment to execute it..." Once again there were voices from the pods nearby, though very few sounded particularly shocked by this information. The Jedi were not well-liked; the general populace was concerned about how much power they had, both in mystical abilities and as an organization. Mon shifted in her seat, annoyed. She wanted her full focus on the transmission. Whatever was coming would be bad.

SW (PT, OT) | 380 words | T | Gen

Summary

Balance in the Force, and lack thereof. The Dark Side as cancer.

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Everyone & The Force Metaphor-Heavy, Alternate Universe - Cells, Life & Death, Fall of the Republic, Pro Jedi, Follows Canon, The Force, The Dark Side of the Force, Philosophy of the Force, Dark Side Philosophy, The Balance of the Force, References to Cancer, Mutation, Hopeful Ending

Excerpt

All it takes is one cell. The transformation is gradual; at each stage of cellular life, there are safeguards to prevent aberrations of the cycle, refined over and over. The Force seeks homeostasis. Sometimes, that is not enough.

SW OT (ESB) | 375 words | M | Gen

Summary:

The duel on Bespin goes wrong.

Tags:

Major Character Death Luke Skywalker & Darth Vader Dark, Angst, Grief, Luke Skywalker Dies, Skywalker Family Drama, Hurt Darth Vader, Anakin Skywalker Has Abandonment Issues, Psychological Trauma, Self-Hatred, Suicidal Themes, Not A Fix-It, Unhappy Ending, Making Canon Even Worse, Movie: Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back, Duel on Bespin, POV Darth Vader

Excerpt:

He held his son in his arms – like he had held his mother once; first and last embrace he could give him. Cold wind of the reactor shaft howled around him, his lightsaber lay abandoned on the walkway, the flesh of his arm burned where Luke had got a hit on him, and none of that mattered now.

OMORI | 530 words | M | Gen

Summary:

What would you like to do? OPEN THE DOOR DO NOTHING

Tags:

Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Kel & Sunny, Omori & Sunny, Something & Sunny Dark, Angst, Suicidal Themes, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Depression, Guilt, Self-Hatred, Childhood Friends, Hikikomori Sunny (OMORI), Three Days Left (OMORI), Ambiguous/Open Ending, Unhappy Ending, POV Second Person

Excerpt:

The voice has changed a bit, but you recognize it immediately. There is still time to ignore it, turn back, throw yourself onto your bed. Slink back into the void of your mind like the coward you are. "Do you remember me? It's your old friend, Kel!" It feels strange to acknowledge that this isn't a figment of your imagination from four years before. This is Kel the person; something a part of you loathed just as much as another part longed for. What is he going to think about you now?

Original Work | 231 words | M | Gen

Summary:

Post-surgery regret.

Tags:

Major Character Death Dark, Organ Transplantation, Body Horror, Dysphoria, Suicidal Themes, Cognitive Dissonance, Transphobia, Angst, POV Second Person

Excerpt:

Had you known the organ had been sourced from a desecrated body, you would have refused; better to be dead than to carry this with you for the rest of your life.

SW OT (ANH) | 300 words | M | Gen

Summary:

The princess looks familiar.

Tags:

Leia Organa & Darth Vader, Past Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker Dark, Angst, Not A Fix-It, Unhappy Ending, Making Canon Even Worse, Implied/Referenced Torture, Force Choking, Murder, Leia Organa Dies, No Darth Vader Redemption, POV Darth Vader, The Dark Side of the Force, Death Star, Long Lost/Secret Relatives

Excerpt:

He can sense her oozing despair and dread even as she tries to show neither; in different circumstances, this might have been impressive. It was impressive when he met her. But now all he sees is her dark hair in elaborate buns framing a face too soft for a core-worlder, cleaned from blood as much as the conditions of her captivity allow. She's all in white, too. It is not difficult to imagine her battle-ready, with a blaster full of Nubian plasma; how easy it is to momentarily forget that it is not her staring up at him.

SW PT (AotC) | 1350 words | T | Gen

Summary:

Anakin can't rely on his master to be there for him, even in the darkest moment. It's a good thing that the Chancellor always has time for him.

Tags:

Anakin Skywalker & Shmi Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Anakin Skywalker, Sheev Palpatine & Anakin Skywalker Dark, Angst, Grief, Canonical Character Death, Loss of Parent(s), Shmi Skywalker Dies, Skywalker Family Drama, Hurt Anakin Skywalker, Fear of Abandonment, Anakin Skywalker Has Abandonment Issues, Psychological Trauma, Anger, Self-Hatred, Resentment, Manipulative Hurt/Comfort, Grooming, Manipulation, Manipulative Sheev Palpatine, The Dark Side of the Force, The Massacre of the Tatooine Sand People, Missing Scene

Excerpt:

He hated the Tuskens; he hated the Jedi for having taken him away; he hated Cliegg for failure; in some blasphemous way, he even hated his mother for having let him go – but most of all, he hated himself. It was his fault she was dead; he wouldn't have received the visions if he had not been meant to act upon them. What good was all his power in the Force if he could not use it to save someone he cared about so deeply? He slumped down against a boulder opposite the only hut still intact but for the circular opening he had cut initially. He kept it fully in his view, as if to guard his mother from any threat even after death. The chill of desert this early in the day had nothing to do with how cold he felt.

(Not a Jedi-critical fic, just one in Anakin's PoV.)

SW PT (RotS) | 314 words | complete | T | Gen

Summary:

It is not an order. It is a permission.

Tags:

Anakin Skywalker & The Jedi Order, Sheev Palpatine & Anakin Skywalker, Darth Sidious & Darth Vader Dark, Anakin Skywalker Turns to the Dark Side, Operation: Knightfall, Seduction to the Dark Side, High on the Dark Side, Alternate Character Interpretation, Resentment, Victim Blaming, Dark Side Philosophy, Sith Code, Book: Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith - Matthew Stover

Excerpt:

The dragon's icy coils around his heart had crumbled, and a burning desire for revenge consumes everything that remains. There is no fear, there is power, and at last he is the one wielding it. He remembers every time they had wronged him, every insult repeated over and over. Too old to be an Initiate, too young to be a Knight, too irresponsible to be a Master even after he had achieved more than any of them; betrayed by the Council, worst of all by Obi-Wan - there is no one in the Order willing to help him.

(Not a Jedi-critical fic, just one in Vader's PoV.)

Shin Godzilla | 1000 words | complete | E | Gen

Summary:

Immortality comes at a terrible cost.

Tags:

Shin Godzilla Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Dark, Body Horror, Mutation, References to Cancer, Radiation Sickness, Chronic Pain, Curse of Immortality, Suicidal Themes, Heavy Angst, Hurt No Comfort, Making Canon Even Worse, Kaiju, POV Monster, POV Second Person

Excerpt:

You continue frantically crawling upstream, into this alien world more cruel and unforgiving than the depths of the sea. The journey takes a toll on your body: skin splits and hardens, bones grow protrusions. You accept the mutations as they come; it is only the next stage of your never-ending agony. One sensation drowns out everything else: the internal heat. You know it well; it arrives in waves, with periods of dormancy in-between. Away from water, it worsens. You feel as if your viscera were boiling. Perhaps they are. You scream – an earth-shattering cry for help, for release, for death that will not come – and you run blindly, crashing through rocks.