Just keep swimming

You are the cycle breaker. And that is something to be proud of.

It’s sad how I go back and forth to not liking Serena one bit - then she does something somewhat decent like helping June get Nichole out of Gilead. But then she turns around, convinces June to arrange a meeting with Luke and Nichole in Canada. Regardless of the fact that June hasn’t seen her husband in years or spoken to him until that phone call. My heart broke for June. And this episode shows Serena’s narcissism. Serena is a classic Narcissist. I don’t care if she redeemed herself at the end. Doesn’t take away her actions to June. I’m glad that at the end of the show she tells June she’s ashamed of herself. Good. She’s not a true Christian behaving the way that she did. God would be ashamed of Serena.

Watching The Testaments and reflecting on this episode pulls on my heartstrings. These little girls that are growing up in Gilead are trained young that only being a wife and a mother is important. Like in The Testaments poor Becka is queer and doesn’t realize that what she’s feeling are natural feelings and that it’s okay not to like just men. But these girls knows no different. 😞

Emily is who I strive to be if this ever happened in America. I saw on Spotify they have audiobooks I’m going to start listening to it when I go to sleep at night. Might be a good time passer when I’m struggling with insomnia. I’ve been wanting to reread the books but I might try audiobooks to see how I like listening to it.

You can’t deny the chemistry between June and Nick on screen.

I love seeing Aunt Lydia’s character development in The Testaments. You never know who’s side she’s on.

748 days sober. 👏 👏 👏

-Margaret Atwood

I love little Aurora

I love how slowly over time during the movie Maleficent, she slowly grows fond of Aurora and ends up wanting to protect her - eventually even from her own curse.

Disney movies kind of day. Keeping my anxiety at bay with some favorites. Watching Maleficent. I love how we’re brought up wanting to be the princess saved by a prince. Me I’m wanting to be saved by Maleficent. No one would mess with her. I have a soft spot for some of the villains in Disney movies as I get older. They didn’t become a villain over night.

Been dealing with panic attacks this past week. Wheezing at night is not helping with my anxiety. Only way I was able to get comfortable last night was calming myself down with a Ativan and getting myself positioned in the chair with my head elevated. Fell asleep in the recliner. I might need to make a doctors appointment since I feel like a inhaler would really help since it’s triggering me to hyperventilating