something wild calls you home

Beautiful Bondi ❤️💔

I don’t have any words for this.

But today I caught him emptying the vacuum cleaner into a bin in the pantry. Right near where my clean coffee mugs are. We have a walk in butler’s pantry so there’s a lot of stuff there.

To me this is just so gross. Why empty this in the kitchen area???? Small dust particles from that vacuum have potentially gone everywhere but in particular all over my coffee mugs!!

I signed up to a writing and publishing course that was on sale for black friday. It brings me so much joy to complete bits and pieces of the course every now and then.

Even though I am massively sleep deprived it was so energising. And the flow continued as I edited and whittled down the word count. It actually felt fun.

It's been about 4 months of limiting my phone use and this is the first time the flow state has found me. I was starting to think my brain was too fried to write well again.

I could try and sign Baby up for first term next year but it's going to be hard to juggle around a potential return to work and she will be close to aging out of it by then.

A group of Mums from the class invited me out for lunch afterwards and it was so nice. A bunch of them were in their late 30s/early 40s and maybe being a similar age made the difference because I felt we actually did really click.

Now she has finally started saying Mum! Sometimes it’s just babbling Mum-Mum-Mum but she also knows how to call out for me.

Yesterday I woke to find her peering over the edge of the cot and saying MUM! in this indignant tone like HURRY UP and get out of bed!

I had bronchitis for the first time a while back. When the GP listened to my chest he was surprised I hadn’t noticed any shortness of breath. When I thought about it afterwards I realised I probably had been short of breath but just ignored it? I was so used to being breathless in pregnancy it just felt sort of normal?

We had a backyard party with family.

It was a bit of a whirlwind for me, with all the hosting and taking photos I feel like I didn’t get to really talk to anyone properly.

Some days all I can think about is how to get some sleep. But I’m struggling to even nap. I don’t know what has changed but I just can’t.

Other days I barely notice the sleep deprivation.

My screen time has stayed fairly low throughout those 100 days so it's definitely working. I'm starting to think about cutting it down by another half hour per day just for a challenge.

I don't get intense urges to look at my phone. I'm far less exposed to rage bait. I'm no longer on the apple news app so I'm not getting flooded with US news.

I don't really miss the scrolling.