Flashback Para: A Little Scandal
Drunk Malfoy is just as annoying as regular Malfoy, except much less aware and honestly, Zacharias is almost fascinated as he watches him talk around in circles in an attempt to follow a single train of thought. âFucking hell, mate, youâre bevved,â he laughs, his mood improving by the second. This is entertainment gold and whatâs more, a great opportunity to see what goes on in Malfoyâs fucked up mind.
Apparently, itâs at least half insults â though for whatever reason, itâs hard to take him seriously when Malfoyâs talking shit about Zachariasâ wit, calling him contrary, all the while dangling off him like a baby. Shit, he has a baby now and even Aaron doesnât cling to him quite this much. âAm I just supposed to nod along and agree with you, then? I think youâve got me confused with your little fanclub. And speaking of, how are Goyle and Parkinson doing these days?â
The implication that heâs in any way, shape or form selling himself short has Zacharias throwing him a look thatâs almost indignant. âOf course I canât damage your reputation, Malfoy, youâve done that well-enough yourself. What part of Iâm a catch did you not get?â
And he has more to say, naturally, but then Malfoy goes off on a tangent about his love life? His family drama? Zacharias has no idea what heâs talking about and he canât remember when did he fucking ask about his entire tragic background, but heâs not about to stop him now. For one thing, Malfoy seems to be on a roll and interrupting would be rude â which Zacharias never is, of course â and for another thing, well. Itâs just good fucking information.
âWhat, so youâre telling me you never noticed Parkinson trying to jump you? Damn, dense is an understatement, Iâm pretty sure literally everyone knew about that. And that includes the professors.â But thatâs hardly the most important takeaway from Malfoyâs mini-rant and Zacharias shakes his head at the poor sodâs fucked up understanding of flirting. âAnd how do you know you wanna shag someone if you donât test the waters first, genius? Imagine youâre at a pub, some good-looking wix is throwing you looks and you decide to just go for it âcause youâre so straightforward and direct. You wake up at their place next morning and they have a fucking Harry Potter shrine or some shit. Iâd wanna set myself on fire, personally.â
Not his best argument, sure, but Zacharias feels it gets the point across. No matter how hot someone is, if theyâre straight-up weird or the chemistryâs not there, whatâs even the point? No sex is better than bad sex, is the hill heâll die on; heâs a man of principle, after all.
âAnd then thereâs the thrill of the chase,â he adds with a snort because apparently yes, this is the conversation heâs having with Malfoy. âDonât tell me youâve never chased after someone whose entire appeal was they didnât give you the time of day.â
The haughty, indignant denial of his supposed inebriation is already half-formed on Dracoâs lips when Smith mentions Goyle. The name lands in Dracoâs guts like a solid block of ice and he pushes away from the other wizard -- the motion made stiff and awkward by the drink, yes, but also by the suddenness of the unexpected shift of emotions from light banter to deep, cutting guilt and pain. âWrite them yourself if you want to know,â Draco says shortly, and while the step away from Zacharias makes him stumble enough that he has to sit down on the edge of the table, his glare doesnât waver. âIâm not your...your gossip secretary.â He folds his arms in tight across his chest and tries to ignore the uncomfortable contrast of the fading warmth left by Smithâs body against his skin with the icy gooseflesh now prickling across them both.
Itâs not fun anymore, talking to Zacharias; Draco has been reminded too sharply of what heâs lost, of who he should be talking to today -- of who should have been at his wedding but wasnât; of who is nothing but ashes and a tombstone over an empty grave and of who he had been waiting for, hoping for, tonight who never came. Zacharias was a good distraction from the latter for a time, but now that heâs raised the specter of Gregoryâs absence -- and consequently, of Vincentâs absence -- that time is over. Dracoâs ready to give up and go home...but heâs not quite ready to retreat. Not quite ready to admit how much it hurts that both of his best friends are gone, one dead and the other wanting nothing to do with him because of it.
So he pulls the battered old mask of haughty indifference over his pointed features and says, as loftily as he can with his heart twisting in his chest like a Bludger, âYes, I was unaware of Pansyâs attempted flirtations until they were pointed-out to me after the fact, thatâs correct.â He hopes he doesnât sound as tired as he feels -- but perhaps if he does, Smith will take it as exhaustion at being asked these things over and over and not as the bone-deep weariness of grief. âI am aware that this revelation has proved highly amusing to many people, and continues to be disbelieved by others. Nonetheless, itâs true: I had no idea. And we never dated, no.â At least, not in the sense of Draco having been aware that they were ostensibly dating; that meant it hadnât happened, right?
He wonders fleetingly if Greg had noticed, if Greg thought it was funny, if Greg or Vince might have mentioned it to him if he hadnât become so caught-up with the Dark Lordâs orders and short of patience with which to indulge any other topic so quickly into their sixth year...
But thereâs no point wondering, and thatâs certainly not a topic on which he wants to speculate with Zacharias, so Draco forces himself to pretend he cares about the other wizardâs rant enough to reply, âI expect you could avoid urges toward self-immolation if you didnât go about shagging people you didnât know, which seems a bit of an odd choice anyway I have to say. Ordinarily one might expect at least a brief period in between âhello, nice to meet you,â and âletâs go for a shag.ââ Not even Dracoâs father progressed that fast when he was flirting, and Lucius Malfoy had been famous in his day for the number of partners (sometimes multiply) heâd taken to bed. âIâm not suggesting skip straight from introductions to sex, Merlin,â Draco rolls his eyes. âBut when a person has decided that they do want to shag someone -- or snog them, or whatever -- it might go better if they actually came out and said it, instead of being vague and then getting cross about it when the other person fails to decode their oblique and unfathomable hints.â
He eyes Zacharias dubiously and adds, in something that falls a bit flat of his usual smirking sneers, âAnd no, I canât imagine wasting my time like that. The whole idea of the âthrill of the chaseâ is nonsensical. Whatâs interesting about not being wanted?â asks the man who was once the boy who spent half his Hogwarts career trying to prove to Harry Potter that rejecting his friendship had been a mistake.