Låt oss dansa genom livet

I feel emotionally exhausted.

My friend is in love with me and I'm not in love with him. He knows this and he knows I'm queer, that I'm a lesbian, but it doesn't matter to him and he refuse to give up on me. I've told him several times that I just want to be friends with him. I love him but not in that way. He has borderline/emotionally unstable personality disorder, he suffers from depression and he's in a dark place right now. I'm so worried about him, I'm afraid he's going to hurt himself or worse. He believes I'm his savior and that only my love can make him whole. If I reach out to him he talks about how he desperately wants to see me, he showers me with love and promises and ask how I feel about him even though he already knows. It breaks my heart and I don't know what to do. He's suffering because of me. He has expressed several times that he doesn't want to live without me.