RealMei

Back then I couldn't rank Woozi's placement in my bias list. I know that Hoshi would be irreplaceable as my ultimate bias, but Woozi felt too close to that to be called a biaswrecker. He's more than that.

So I decided that he would be my 1.5. I'm so grateful to him, for making great songs that became a part of my life. He's an amazing person, despite his tsundere nature, you can still see how much he cares for his members and for Carats as well. One of my fave things he said was, "You guys are my querencia" to his members. He's actually a softie.

After everything I did. The processing, the checking...everything. I was denied.

At first, I felt angry, disappointed and frustrated, but slowly I was becoming enlightened of why these kind of things happen.

My friend sent me this after hearing my story:

He vibrates when he gets too excited, he seems possessed whenever he performs on stage, he's quite ambitious and daring. But these are not the reasons why I call him weird.

Maybe it's not the right term. I just feel weird that his existence helped me get through most of my dark days. I was broken, and yet he helps me pick up the pieces of who I am, without even knowing that I existed. He makes me wanna believe in what I could be.

He really gives me courage and hope.

I really wish that I could tell all these to him in person. I badly wanted to be a lucky fan and get to know him, or win chances to meet him in fansigning events...or just just to let him know that he saved my life even without his knowledge.

Damn.