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being insane isnt even that bad

nicky is a bit crazy for being so ready to respond to andrew’s beck and call but it’s never as obvious as during that game when andrew calls him over and says he’s bored and nicky runs over and hits a guy in the shins to get carded. swung that racquet straight to the tibia and thought ”i can’t believe i’m finally bonding with andrew :D”

huge fan of ship dynamics where person a does not know how desired they are and person b is about to pop a blood vessel about it

you want to be romantically attracted to someone? the thing that killed romeo and juliet?

i really think about it all the time like people do not afford thea the status of a victim at ALL. even people who defend her it's just never brought up when people talk about her in relation to jean/kevin that thea wasn't just brainwashed, she was also physically abused and undermined and publicly humiliated and treated like a token at best and an object at worst. the way riko tells kevin to "just fuck her already" like she's not even a person, jean openly admiting that there was a raven who was so racist to her it became a notable problem, riko sneering when kevin mentioned he thought thea was pretty, the ravens giving jasmine, a white woman, the title thea begged and battled for and got constantly denied. the discussion with jean specifically seems very keen on thinking thea couldn't possibly know what sexual abuse is or feels like despite being one of the few women in the roster and the only black woman that we know of that's ever been part of the ravens. why do you think thea is incapable of being a victim? why do you think she couldn't possibly know what suffering is, unlike her white boy counterparts?

am i losing the drive to create things for an increasingly alien and hostile world whose mounting taste for fascism feels like a cold metal vise around my skull or am i just lazy and unmedicated and looking for excuses