goofball alert !

not to be dramatic about the kit connor casting but

so basically: picture like 15 year old me walking into my community theater for the first time for stage crew. i'm nervous as hell. then, BAM, cutest boy ive literally ever seen playing the male lead in the junior show. (i don't get crushes a lot, so this is kind of a big deal.) nothing really happens cause im too anxious to talk to him. next year, we chat a little more because i get more involved in the shows. same thing last year. thing is, we only really see each other over the summer (we live in different areas and didn't go to the same school), so i keep telling myself "oh i'll just let it go" cause i also don't know if he even likes guys. never happens. i think about him all the time and shit, and i basically just never get over it.

the lion does not concern himself with a healthy sleep schedule.

having my specific brand of mental illness is so awful because i couldnt find my watch for like 10 minutes tonight and started hyperventilating.

"its not a contest to anyone else"