archived.

charlie has been with the gang through it all. yes, schmitty was one of the original gang members, but they kicked him out !! charlie has been friends with mac since they were little kids, and for fucks sake at this part in the storyline charlie fully believes frank is his dad.

i feel like it is fully believable that this could be the last straw for charlie. now i don't have time to account for every time before s6 that the gang fucked him over, but man. they treat him terribly. i can see him finally realizing how terrible they treat him and having enough.

when the gang comes back to the school and tries to get charlie to join the gang again, he walks away. he doesn't want to join them again, but he does anyway. in my high school janitor au, i'm gonna say that he walked away completely, he never came back. because he's working and actually getting a proper paycheck, he can afford to pay his rent on his own. he kicks frank out of his apartment, and fully separates with the gang. i have a feeling, after his lease is over, he'd just move out of the apartment so they won't be able to find him. yes, they've apologized to him before but they always end up doing the same shitty thing to charlie over and over again. he knows they will never really change.

with charlie living on his own, it gives him time to reflect on his life and realize that he feels stuck and trapped, like he could be doing more with life. also, by working at the school, he has health insurance. he goes to the doctor, starts to see a therapist, starts to work through a lot of his trauma. he starts to considerably cut back on his drinking for a while before fully quitting.

he starts to focus more on his music, writing songs and possibly working on another musical. he loves his job, and he makes friends with quite a few of the teachers at the school. he does a damn good job cleaning the school too. he makes friends, friends that don't want anything from the friendship besides a close human connection.

dialogue prompts from don't skip out on me by willy vlautin.

i will be somebody.

i've been worried about you every day.

the older you get, the more you have to say everything twice.

i'll be back. i'll be different when i'm back, but i'll be here.

it's difficult just seeing the place anymore.

i've never baked anything that wasn't out of a box.

i want to make sure i leave it the way i found it.

i need you to be honest with me, even if it hurts my feelings.

why do you have to change who you are?

i don't worry about things i can't control.

i hope you'll forgive me someday for what i'm about to say.

i told you i never wanted to talk about it again, and you promised me you wouldn't bring it up. not ever.

i want to make sure you can live the easy life. you deserve that.

you've been the best parent i ever had.

i don't break promises. i'd rather die than break one.

don't worry so much. i have a good plan. i'll be okay.

there's no reason for you to be ashamed.

do you really think so, or are you just being nice?

i just need a break. it won't be forever.

it's not your fault. it's my fault, and it's nobody's fault.

why are you just telling me now, if it's bothered you for so long?

i can't remember the last time i slept all night.

going through things like that makes you tough.

are you sure you're okay to talk?

you could never burden me.

why do you always have to lie when you get scared or embarrassed?

i don't see how you can drink wine at 7 in the morning.

what choice do i have but to keep going?

if i give up, what will i do all day?

do you have a place to stay tonight?

i think in most states, they'd say we're married.

i guess i just woke up worried today.

it seems like the closer i am, the more lost i get.

i'm frying like an egg.

jesus, i love to hear you laugh.

you think you're a lot tougher than you are.

you know too much about me. that's the problem.

just forget about me. i've always been trouble.

i feel so lucky to have met you.

i'm sorry. that's all i wanted to say.

i wanted to come home, i did, but i just couldn't.

if you don't quit crying, i'll start.

i don't like it here at all.

an hour doesn't pass without me thinking about you.

how did you find me?

i've been looking for you for a long time.

i'll call you whatever name you want, just tell me which name.

don't be so nice to me.

it would be easier if you just went away and didn't come back.

have you been eating? are you okay?

i'm still tough. i still am.

you were raised to be ashamed of yourself.

your life's not over. it's just starting.

it's hard to hate yourself every day.

you don't have to be one thing.

your mother wouldn't approve of how my mother raised me.

i always want you when i'm finally fine.

would you tell me if you want me?

i love it when you call my name.

what do you do with a loving feeling if the loving feeling makes you all alone?

can i sleep in your house tonight?

i don't want your pity, i just want somebody near me.

come inside and be with me.

i don't know what to do without you.

why didn't you stop me?

i can still smell the fire even though it's long died out.

there’s no need to be brave.

i think i'm gonna lose my mind.

i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended.

nobody fucks me like me.

i'm staying up late just in case you come up and ask to leave with me.

i'll leave once i figure out how to pay for my own life too.

fuck you and your money.

it would be a hundred times easier if we were young again.

i gave too much of my heart tonight.

i am stronger than you give me credit for.

i don't need anything other than you.

but how long can we play this way? i'm tired of not loving you.

you know me better than i do.

it doesn't matter how you lived, the only thing that matters is the way that you died.

i just need a quiet place where i can scream.

i'm a fool to want you.

i know i've kissed you before, but i didn't do it right.

you only love me when we're all alone.

i get mean when i'm nervous like a bad dog.

i don't know what to say about any of this.

can tell them what you saw in me, and not the way i am?

i love it when you look my way.

we're two slow dancers, last ones out.

i should tell them that i'm not afraid to die.

i think my fate is losing its patience.

when i find a knife's sticking out of my side, i'll pull it out without questioning why.

i miss you more than anything.

can I dream for a few months more?

i just want to feel alright.

this is the kind of job that needs a bastard to see it through.

my god, i'm so lonely.

i always wanted to die clean and pretty.

there's nobody better than you

i don't think about the past, it's always there anyway.

i will take good care of you.

time and time again i’ve said i'd leave you.

i thought maybe we would kiss tonight.

what those dead men say that they do will never be the absolute truth.

don't wait for me, i can't come.

just 'cause you're dead doesn't mean that your mission is done.