rantsy

Okay its actually a while since this happened but i need to get it off my chest. I had this friend who we kinda had a thing, I’ll just call him Alex. sO i was a bitch and caught feelings for someone else, gonna call him Ben and like i didnt wanna lead Alex on anymore or anything; either way we werent really a match anyways, i see too many things i dont like abt him as a bf and like we both remind each other of our exes. I told Alex i wanted to stop calling him but we could still text each other (altho i was busy that week w school so i didnt really text him much) but in the end we couldnt be friends. Hes mad at me i guess and everytime i join their friend group server it feels so awk and i just end up not joining them anymore if hes in the call. ANd now everytime someone brings up his name i get so triggered n annoyed. Ben says that it means that i still care abt him but idk i just really mad we cant be friends. ALSO im mad bc he sounds like hes guilt tripping me when he texts me; idk man its how he talks tho like hes just a really emo n sensitive guy i guess.