#boyrant

“Whys the baby crying?” He asks

I don’t fucking know maybe because she’s a baby and she can’t sleep with you blaring videos on your phone all night

I’m so unreasonably upset with him like usually we are chill but I hate when he does this to my mom she’s just so stressed and tired and having an angry partner and screaming baby doesn’t make her feel better

God dude like sorry for the ranting today but fuck man

Then he had the AUDACITY to ask my mom what’s wrong like bro are we fr

Okay its actually a while since this happened but i need to get it off my chest. I had this friend who we kinda had a thing, I’ll just call him Alex. sO i was a bitch and caught feelings for someone else, gonna call him Ben and like i didnt wanna lead Alex on anymore or anything; either way we werent really a match anyways, i see too many things i dont like abt him as a bf and like we both remind each other of our exes. I told Alex i wanted to stop calling him but we could still text each other (altho i was busy that week w school so i didnt really text him much) but in the end we couldnt be friends. Hes mad at me i guess and everytime i join their friend group server it feels so awk and i just end up not joining them anymore if hes in the call. ANd now everytime someone brings up his name i get so triggered n annoyed. Ben says that it means that i still care abt him but idk i just really mad we cant be friends. ALSO im mad bc he sounds like hes guilt tripping me when he texts me; idk man its how he talks tho like hes just a really emo n sensitive guy i guess. 

I’m a nerd like yourself. Got a kid. Four years old. Same thoughts run through my mind as well.

I have a feeling it will run through our heads until we are dead and gone. Such is the way of a parent.

immabard replied to your post: My son is going to be two in about thr...

daaaaaaaw c: happy birthday to him! :D

For the past 5 days everything has been fine. I have been so happy with my Valentine and he has been the perfect gentleman. I knew it was moving on fast but I was happy so I ignored the whole thing. And then this again. You again. Don't you understand how obnoxiously anxious you make me? I don't know how to make you happy, well actually I do but it's not possible. I don't think that I am supposed to be with you. I think that God used you in my life to show me what a Godly man is and I am trying so hard to be your friend but you keep coming again and again and again. You keep saying that I am hurting you but it hurts me to try to help you. What am I supposed to do? Walk on eggshells? Pretend I like you? You don't know what you are asking for. You don't want that. And you don't deserve it. You deserve so much better than me, if only you would let yourself do it. Just let me go, it would be better for both of us. 

Please. I'm so tired of all of this crap.