the jpiv girls as or3 lyrics
“my head is full of poison and my heart is full of doubt/i’ve got toxins in my bloodstream you tried so hard to suck out/ and it feels like medication and it’s good for me im sure but it don’t matter how your love feels anymore/ it’ll never be the cure”
“im a zombie in my body/ im a train off of the tracks/ i feel dirty/ i feel rotten and the colors are all flat/im a sad shell of a woman and i’ve got maggots for brains/but that’s just a thing that happens when my/ when my baby goes away”
“so im patient/ you’re learning/ pretend it’s not hurting/ cause they say its a virtue/ not not let good love slip away/so im cool and forgiving/ ill take what you’re giving”
“and sometimes at a low point/ i wish for a tragedy/ cause i know he’d come over and take real good care of me”
“he wasn’t smart or funny/ convinced myself he was”
“they seem so desperate for loving/ but baby im not/ gave my heart with zero stipulations/now i take careful consideration”
“we tried to recreate/ our favorite date/ but we didn’t laugh much this time”
“and i melt with you/ your red to my blue/ now i see the world in/ purple”
“everything feels moldy/ like the fruit thats in my fridge/and everything’s thats funny/ i wish i could tell to him”
“and its too hard to describe this/ in a way that feels honest/ but even when we’re not talkin/ i love you baby i promise”
“all the girls at this party are so cool/ thats never been a thing that i could do”
“sometimes i get overwhelmed/ and way too far ahead of myself/ i often get the feeling that i’ll never want somebody else”
“it’s feminine intuition/ cause i always had a vision of us standing like this/ all pressed up in the bathroom line/ you looking like an angel on the walls of versailles/ the most alive i’ve ever been/ but kiss me and i might drop dead”
“and i have this thought/ when i lay in bed at night/ that im trapped inside my life”
“im just searching up my symptoms/desperate to fix them/ ill do anything/ cause lately ive been spiraling/ im not feeling like myself/ and nothing ever seems to help”
“it’s like somebody put a weight on my chest/ i should talk to a friend/ but i cant get out of bed/ my head is spinning/ and my stomach is sick”
“it’s a real quiet house/ with the shower left on/ five beers in the fridge/and the second car gone”
“some nights can be/ so fucking lonely/ but it’s better then begging/ for you to stand up for me”
