❦Boring blog❦

✧NAME: M.

✧AGE: 20

✧RELIGION: Agnostic

✧MY OPINIONS: I'm anti-nazi, against organized religions, pro choice and lgbt rights. I'm also a huge feminist and anti-zionist.

✧I LIKE: Hindu mythology, plushies, vintage stuff.

✧I DISLIKE: Sexism, racism, homophobia, ignorance and gore.

✧STYLE: Goth, Morute.

✧MUSIC: Goth, alternative pop, indie

✧WHAT I POST ABOUT: What comes to my mind.

But then my mom told me my grandma gave us some desserts and if I didn't eat at least one my mom would have got suspicious.

I feel like shit now because I was so pround of myself before :(

So I did some exercise, it's the first time I did them so I haven't done a nice job but at least I burnt something.

I have ate:

-A sandwich with nutella for breakfast

-two plates of pasta

-one plate of meat

-4 confetti

-various pieces of cheese

-two slices of pizza

-one "panzerotto" (a fried thing with meat and cheese)

-half of a small dessert

All because my ocd obsession with food got less strong in the past days and I eat with no remorses.

I feel like a pig and I am nervous because I take some medications that can make you gain weight.

It has become an obsession, I am afraid of gaining weight so much TWT

I just want to starve so much but it's summer so I can't because it's too hot.

I know is dangerous to starve but what can I do?

I always say that I am gonna starve but I end up eating the same.

I felt bad after I did it like always, but I also felt cute and safe.

Someone I can cuddle with and be a stupid doll with no brain or thoughts.

Someone that would scare my intrusive thoughts away and would hug me.

I can't work because of my mental health issues, I feel like I can't maintain a job or have a career.

So I would be completely vulnerable for her.

I would be a good housewife and drink all night.

But she would get tired of me soon because I am a parasite and I would do nothing all day and drink too much.

But I still dream to be her dumb toy to play with.