I love every single one of you all, but I’m going through some stuff, and what’s best for me right now is not being here. I need to go make some new friends, and start loving myself more than I do now. Locking myself in my room to blog isn’t the way to go about that.

This hiatus will probably last for a month.

I hope that I’ll be back, and I hope you all remember me when I return.

After I reblog this post to all of my blogs, I will disappear.

To my closer friends and partners, thank you for making me happy, and giving me motivation to keep going.

Stay amazing. 

I just wanted to say, I love and appreciate all of you, and to my close friends, you know who you are~

just once,

hold me close...

I’d like to be told I’m alright.

I’d like to sit by my love...

to watch the stars,

by the light of the moon...

as we waste another sleepless night.

I’d like to be held,

by someone who loves me,

for who I am...

not the part that I play.

I’d like to be loved...

So, like, I’m not sure why, but recently I've felt a bit... alone? I guess? 

Like, I keep seeing these cute couples online, whether it’s just two people bein cute, a “Day in the Life of Us” vid, or like, anything else... I just want that one person, you know? The person who’ll give me affection for no reason, who’ll comfort me during panic attacks, sit with me when I do my homework, watch the stars out of boredom, or even just snuggle with me in the dark.

I don’t want someone who’s always... showing me off, I just want someone who loves me. And not even in a sexual way. I want someone who’s funny, who laughs at my bad humor, and never lets me talk trash about myself... someone who knows that I’m different, but still loves me no matter how weird I can be.

I don’t want a boyfriend or girlfriend for the status.

I want someone who I can just... be myself around.

I want someone who thinks I’m perfect the way I am, but doesn’t idolize me. I want someone who thinks I’m cute, but not in an attractive way, just in the weird things I do. I want someone to give me affection not because they have to, but because they want to. And I want to give it back tenfold and more.

I want someone who loves me as much as I wish I could love myself.

And I want to love them just as much.

I don’t want someone who’s my “lover,” or my “partner,” I want someone who’s my best friend. I want someone who’ll drop what they’re doing and dance with me. In the dark. At midnight.

I want someone who will never be perfect to the world, but will be perfect for me.

I want to be perfect for someone.

I just want two arms around me, and a warm hug when I need it. I want a face that I’ll never forget, and eyes that see how I feel. I want two ears that listen to me ramble, and a mouth with the perfect laugh.

I’ll wait.

I’ll wait until I find them.

I’ve been working for hours,

“ Why isn't anything getting done? ”

I swear that I’m working,

“ Am I doing something wrong? ”

Nothing seems to be working,

So, I have these sort of “personalities” that only happen when I feel like making terrible jokes. I wanted to document my current ones, and hopefully I can catalog them as soon as they come into being.

Jeff - “Wasahh, dude?”

Created some time in 2017

Has maracas and will shake them threateningly while glaring at you

Black mustache and sombrero

Emo hair

Says things like “diddly darn dudes” and “bippity boppity broskis”

Will snap your neck if it comes to it

More threatening maraca shaking

Literally does not care at all

“Your opinion is invalid, my dude.”

SpadidderMan - “Hello, Peons.”

Created 1/31/2019

Tightly pulled drawstring hoodie and upside down black sunglasses

Calls everyone a peon

(Has no idea what peon means)

Thinks he rules over everyone

Species : Pepis

Sworn enemies are kitchen wares

“Nothing to see here, peon.”