RANDOM BOREDOM

I haven’t been this busy. Ayaaan kasi. Tamad.

Inaantok. Pagod. Stressed. Sinong may kasalanan.

PUT YOUR HANDS TOGETHER AND TAKE A BIG BOW.

NOW REPEAT AFTER ME

I was a dumb kid.

Sure, academically smart, good at English and memorizing a lot of shit in a short amount of time, was kind of popular, was even kind of talented. I was also bullied which I thought kind of formed me into who I used to be.

But I lacked the shit that mattered.

I was never practical, always spoiled. I hated failing because I thought my grades were substantial in a way. I was known, but also known to be a bitch, a bully, a backstabber, a teacher’s pet, you name it. I thought hating my family was cool and I pushed what I really felt for them deep deep down. I love them so much to this day, and I’m scared that I’m not doing much to show it.

It can’t be too late to change things, right?

I am friendly now. Not as smart, probably a whole new level of dumb right now but I’m definitely, hopefully making things count this time.

I’m nice and approachable. I’m only a bitch if I have reason to be. I won’t bully you for being stupid or ugly or just because I feel like it. I have learned to cherish every little thing. I don’t want much of anything anymore; I have all I need. I apologize when I know I’m wrong, or even when I just feel the need to. I’m honest with people now, but in a nice way. I try my damndest to be the best I can be, even if I feel like I’d never amount to much.

Nagpapakamartyr na ako. As long as I’m the only one hurting, everything will be fine.

Turns out that was bad too. I’m still trying to stand up for myself. I’m a work-in-progress.

When everyone else leaves me, you’re still there. Technically you’re stuck with me but that’s not the point.

We’re not perfect, far from it, but to me, you’re all I need to be happy.

But that's not a bad thing. You're the second most important thing to me, and the fact that you surpassed food is surprising considering how much I eat.

You guys are my support. You know more about me than my mom.

I love you guys, and I feel- I hope- that you guys love me too.

But if you don't that's fine sure whatever leave.

Just kidding. Don't. Please stay. Thanks for putting up with my shit.

I was a dumb kid.

Sure, academically smart, good at English and memorizing a lot of shit in a short amount of time, was kind of popular, was even kind of talented. I was also bullied which I thought kind of formed me into who I used to be.

But I lacked the shit that mattered.

I was never practical, always spoiled. I hated failing because I thought my grades were substantial in a way. I was known, but also known to be a bitch, a bully, a backstabber, a teacher’s pet, you name it. I thought hating my family was cool and I pushed what I really felt for them deep deep down. I love them so much to this day, and I’m scared that I’m not doing much to show it.

It can’t be too late to change things, right?

I am friendly now. Not as smart, probably a whole new level of dumb right now but I’m definitely, hopefully making things count this time.

I’m nice and approachable. I’m only a bitch if I have reason to be. I won’t bully you for being stupid or ugly or just because I feel like it. I have learned to cherish every little thing. I don’t want much of anything anymore; I have all I need. I apologize when I know I’m wrong, or even when I just feel the need to. I’m honest with people now, but in a nice way. I try my damndest to be the best I can be, even if I feel like I’d never amount to much.

Nagpapakamartyr na ako. As long as I’m the only one hurting, everything will be fine.

Turns out that was bad too. I’m still trying to stand up for myself. I’m a work-in-progress.

When everyone else leaves me, you're still there. Technically you're stuck with me but that's not the point.

We're not perfect, far from it, but to me, you're all I need to be happy.