You have to let people love you. You have to let people get to know you. You have to let people help you. Being so completely selfless that you try to erase yourself off the face of the planet and never ask for anything and reject everybody's offers of support makes you very hard to love! Unfortunately. Emptying yourself out of everything that makes you, you is not actually what your loved ones want from you, generally. They want to make you happy! They will be so so sad if you don't give them the chance. It's not all selfish. I promise.

rice is like a best friend and a lover to me

i don’t understand “pushing 30” like that is so stupid. why am i pushing 30 away? fuck that, i am pulling 30. i love her, i want her tongue in my mouth

just finished learning how strong i can be if i have to!! i hope the next thing i learn is something fun and awesome 😁😁😁