Mercedes says:

Tjat the many minutes I spent on silly doodles, that even cost me some of the quality of study work, was unacceptable, especially given I didnt have the time to ever get better, and what I was putting out almost never went beyond a simple reaction emoji and nothing more. That nothing I did would be worth talking about or remembering.

I ended up feeling intense disgust and cringe against my own work that I ended up deleting a lot of it from bluesky and I wiped out what Ive shared in a server Im active in. All in the fear Id end up wasting time, missing work, all for just an emoji. I meam it does happen, often. Even I sometimes just feel with not enough energy to say more. But I really wanted the artist side of me dead.

They have yet to notice. But I guess its fine. Nothing of big value is lost. There are much better works in the same space from people that are truly dedicated and that have time to improve. I only upload what I can find on the editable I havent moved to external storage. I dont feel any better, just ashamed.