sentimental bastard

Remember when joining fandom as a younger person meant lurking for a bit and figuring out the vibe and etiquette instead of coming in on day one and calling people weirdos for liking weirdo shit in the weirdo factory.

i'm sorry i never did your tag game. i love you

ethan hunt is so fascinating to me because he's the trolley operator who would choose to pull the lever to direct the train to hit millions instead of the one friend he cares about. then he will proceed to bodily jump in front of that train to save the millions with the sole belief that god won't ever let him die

also the one friend he saved, once freed from the tracks, started hacking the train to try and save ethan in return. and this is why ethan hunt will never die.

something that's making me actually crazy about final reckoning is that it's bookended by a classic mi-style narration which will self-destruct in five seconds, but in the first one from the president ethan is being blamed, guilted, and pressured into giving up and in the second luther celebrates everything that ethan stood for and reassures him that he shouldn't regret anything he did. it's also notable that luther is the only one who offers him a choice, maybe in the entire movie. fr ends with a sense of uncertainty in ethan; he doesn't know what to do with himself now that his mission is complete, and he's lost the only anchor that's kept him steady for twenty years. and then he gets luther's message. im going insane

i love luther so much. i love that he's the only person in the world trusted with julia's life between mi3 and 4, i love that he calls ethan's entire retelling of ghost protocol "so corny", i love that he tells ethan he loves him and i love that he knows him better than anyone and that it all started with a chaotic emergency team. luther's the only one who's stuck by ethan's side the whole time, he calls it like it is and cuts straight to the heart of problems. and i love him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think the extent to which ethan object-ifies julia is that she’s basically a saint whose suffering he can never atone for & her forgiving him at the end of fallout is just more evidence of her saint-like benevolence. and then his inability to atone for his crimes is the reason the world almost explodes in tfr. so like on the one hand that’s a very unhealthy and depressing way to think and on the other hand the universe is conspiring to legitimise ethan’s view of himself as reasonable. because it almost explodes