I am not who I used to be.

★
wallacepolsom
Aqua Utopia|海の底で記憶を紡ぐ
RMH
Claire Keane

oozey mess
Lint Roller? I Barely Know Her
Three Goblin Art
I'd rather be in outer space 🛸
"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
Cosimo Galluzzi

Andulka
tumblr dot com
Alisa U Zemlji Chuda
Stranger Things

Janaina Medeiros

Discoholic 🪩
almost home
seen from Romania
seen from United States
seen from Saudi Arabia
seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from United States

seen from Germany
seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from Malaysia
seen from United States

seen from Malaysia
seen from Malaysia

seen from Argentina

seen from Malaysia
seen from Malaysia

seen from Japan

seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from United States
@rachelieu
I am not who I used to be.

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
The other day I was talking to my boyfriend about something that happened in treatment and said that “I wasn’t that person anymore.” He asked if I meant that, if I really thought of myself as two different people — then and now. I told him: yes and no.
Yes, it is shocking to me to think about the things I thought and the things I did. I sobbed over pizza, wore heavy sweaters to fool a scale, baked protein bars in an oven and pretended they were cookies. I thought that I could never get a job, that nobody would love me as long as I was fat, that I would be like this forever.
On the other hand, some of those things still happen. I still wish every day that I were thinner. I dream about being able to do it again, only better this time. Some days I cry for no reason at all other than that I am consumed with hatred for myself and want nothing more than to rip my own skin off of my body. Last night, even. I did that last night.
It is easier to think that they are two separate people, that I am not the girl who once took so much Adderall on an empty stomach she thought she was going to have a heart attack. There was a time in my life when everyone knew about my eating disorder, but now I am surrounded mostly by people who either know it only as a passing fact or not at all.
But no, they aren’t two different people. I am both. I do not cry over pizza, I wear sweaters to stay warm, I bake cookies from scratch. When I cry now, it is more in mourning for something I will never have — a thin body, my eating disorder, the crutch on which I had leaned my entire life. My boyfriend asks me if I am okay, and tears leak out of my eyes as my nod turns into a shake. I am not okay, but I am fine. One day, I will be both.

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
January Jones in Mad Men
Kristen Bell shared photos from her wedding to Dax Shepard in 2013. ♥
“We got married in a tiny room in the Beverly Hills courthouse,” she said. “It was still one of the best days of my life.”

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming