whatever.

“I know, I know, I wish things weren’t as complicated.” Naomi brushed strands of her hair behind her ears. “I think she said she’s going to hang with her family overseas for a while. I think she needs some time away.” She shrugged. Naomi wished it didn’t have to come to this. “To be honest, I don’t know what I want. I-I don’t want this to be my last memory of you though.”

“I-I- yeah…” Naomi felt stupid for having such an exaggerated reaction but in the moment, she couldn’t help it. “I know, you don’t have to apologize, it’s fine.” She shook her head. “I guess I came here to explain myself. I’m really sorry, Quinn. I just– I overreacted, I did.” She finaly laid her eyes on Quinn, hoping to other would accept her apology. Maybe she wouldn’t but at least she tried. “I’d understand if you didn’t want to talk to me or be my friend or whatever. I did say some awful things. I didn’t mean any of it, I promise.”

“I know, I know. I didn’t mean to… I didn’t mean to react the way I did. I just.” Naomi tried to give herself some time, hoping she’d be able to say what she had in mind. “You were there when I got cheated on. You knew how much it hurt me but you still– I mean, that’s what I don’t get. That’s why I got mad. It was partially about Melissa but also about me.” She sighed, unable to look at Quinn in her eyes. “I don’t know. I was being stupid, I’m sorry." 

Naomi sighed as she stood there. She didn’t really know how she’d go about expressing herself. She didn’t even know what to say. “I don’t know.” She shrugged, as she looked at the ground. This felt strange. “I just– I don’t like this. I don’t like being mad at you even when I should be.”

Quinn sighed. Naomi was being incredibly confusing. Quinn shrugged, her face mirroring her thoughts. “Then -- what?” Quinn didn’t know, and all she could do was ask Naomi. If she didn’t know either. Then they weren’t about to get anywhere with this. “Then what, Naomi? Nobody’s perfect. No one is. Especially me.” Quinn shrugged again. “If Jack and his fiancee’s relationship was strong enough in the first place, this never would have happened.” She probably shouldn’t have said that. But she could only say what was on her mind if this conversation was going to be an honest one.

Naomi took a deep breath as she arrived to her destination. She hadn’t really thought of what she was going to say to Quinn. All she knew was that they were back into each other’s lives and it wasn’t meant to be like this. “It’s me. Open up.”

“Just try, at least.” Naomi knew that whatever Quinn told her wouldn’t change the way she felt about her now but still. She wanted to try. How could Quinn feel no obligation to justify herself? it was as if she didn’t care. Naomi was known for not caring about other people, being aloof and apathetic and still, she wouldn’t do that to anyone. She wouldn’t go out of her way to ruin other people’s life to that extend and she truly didn’t understand why Quinn had put herself in a situation like this. “But, wasn’t that the reason we broke up? You felt like you weren’t a priority so you broke up with me. And now, what? You purposely put yourself in a situation where you are second. How does that make sense?”

“Stop calling me that.” Naomi moved slightly away from Quinn. She wouldn’t be able to be around her. She was so mad she wanted to cry. And crying didn’t come easily when it came to Naomi. “Yeah, I’m glad to hear the truth about you too. The amount of pain you might be feeling right now doesn’t amount to anything when I’m going to tell one of my closest friends that her fiancé is cheating on her.” She took a last look at Quinn before rolling her eyes. “Was it crazy for me to think that you were better than this?“ As she spoke, she could hear the sudden crack in her voice. Her vision was getting blurrier and that only meant one thing: She was probably about to cry. Naomi tried her hardest to not let that first tear drop as she proceeded with her questions. "You know, I heard rumours about this. I thought it was impossible. You told me about your new job, you seemed happy. Why would you do something like that? Why don’t you want to be someone’s first priority?”

Quinn frowned, Naomi was asking so many questions that she couldn’t even answer. “ I --” She didn’t know how to explain it. She didn’t know what to say. Would it even matter? Did Naomi even care? After all, she did tell her that she didn’t know how she could have fallen in love with her. “I don’t know what to tell you, Naomi and whatever I tell you won’t change anything. I don’t know........”