texts with friends #63681787263 (with @sparassiss of course)
β a convo about my own depression spiraled into a whole thing about Stilesβ depression and how Derek takes care of him [which probably lowkey aids in Derekβs depression as well]
okβ¦. but now my brain is thinking about Derek helping Stiles out of his depression slump/episode .. kinda.. at least trying.. wanting to take care of Stiles.Β
it probably starts with Derek walking into Stilesβ apartment. the pack hasnβt heard from him in a few days. Derek just so happens to have a copy of Stilesβ keys (courtesy of the sheriff probably). Derek opening up the blinds, letting some light in, staring down at the state of the living room where thereβs just heaps of laundry that are by the washing machine but not IN the washing machine.. like some lazy trail from one room to the machine. thereβs redbull and soda/beer cans all over the coffeetable, video game controllers tangled across the floor, a single dirty plate sitting beneath a blanket on the couch.Β
he knows Stiles is sleeping in his room so Derek just starts cleaning. a little sad that the kitchen is worse but he wipes down and scrubs at the two rooms anyways. throws all the dirty laundry on the floor into the washing machine and starting a quick wash.Β
Derek probably doesnβt wake him up until much later. knowing how much sleep is probably the best thing Stiles needs right now. but the first thing Derek asks Stiles once heβs awake is if heβs eaten anything at any point in the day. Stiles maybe says he had a single boiled egg and a glass of orange juice for breakfast and itβs taking everything in Derek to remain patient and not throttle Stiles?? but he orders two large pizzas and then does a separate order of groceries since Derek probably had to throw away a lot of spoiled takeout containers in Stilesβ fridge and his he hopes Stiles wasnβt nibbling off itΒ
AND and when the pizza arrives they sit in comfortable silence watching a movie that Derek maybe doesnβt care for but at least Stiles is laughing at the terrible jokes which is music to his ears anywaysΒ
AND THEN Derek doesnβt leave until he makes sure Stiles has taken his medication and a shower and fresh pajamas from the dryer before practically tucking Stiles into bed β¦ theyβre not even datingβ¦ yetβ¦Β
S: β¦ i could see the opposite happening too with derek with depression and stiles helping him. them just sitting with each other either way because what else can you do to help someone
lowkey Derek helping Stiles through his slump is helping him in HIS slumpΒ
okay but also this just becoming a think after the first time like.. Derek texting Stiles on random afternoons asking him if Stiles has eaten and if heβs not satisfied with the answer, he damn near hunts Stiles down to give him a tupperware or something homemade or a takeout from somewhere with at least some kind of healthy option. heβll come over on weekends and make sure Stiles hasnβt turned his apartment into a battlefield of trash again. heβs forcing Stiles out of the house even if itβs just a walk down the street and back but it always ends up being an hour long walk anyways.Β
but it gets to a point where Stiles lies about not having eaten or gone outside just to have Derek come over. Derek would ask, βwhatβd you have for lunch todayβ and Stiles giving some shitty answer like a pack of almonds and a tall boy redbull when actually he visited his dad at work and they both had huge sandwiches with the saltiest side of fries. Derek can probably smell the fries on him but presents the food he made to Stiles anyways and sits down to make sure Stiles eats it like theyβve been doing..Β
and Stiles going βyβknow, iβm starting to think this is helping you more than me..β
S: Derek also stays over a lot accidentally because they fall asleep in bed together or watching tv and end up in each others arms but it helps both of them feel safeΒ
like maybe some days Stiles is too tired or lazy to walk to his living room to watch tv so heβs begged Derek to just lay in bed with him and watch tv from his macbookΒ
S: and one day is the worst for either one of them so they just spend hours holding each other sitting on the kitchen floor and breathing together and taking comfort in each other and knowing someone is there for them through their worst times in the worst presentation of themselves
Derek already having a particularly bad day? but he still goes to check in on Stiles and finds him panicking on the kitchen floor
S: and then they move in together so Derek doesnβt have to keep going over all the time and thereβs less mess to clean up and they both feel better that theyβre contributing to each others space. and they still share a bed more often than not because of nightmares. and the depressive episodes happen less and less because theyβre with each other constantly and depend on each other and keep each other afloat
OH Derek for sure being like βlisten just move into the loft, it would make this so much easier. half your shit is already there anywaysβ
S: also stiles doesnβt let them actually get together because heβs like if something happens to me, if I canβt get myself out of this then I donβt want to put that on you and make you lose someone close to you again. and Derek is like no matter what you are to me losing you would kill me too
but Derekβs not gonna let anything happen ! NEVERΒ
