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i ran/no-clipped around fallout new vegas at 5x speed for like 20 hours and made a map do u like it

He and Adam Adamowicz were the two primary concept artists for Skyrim and Ray did extensive concept work for Fallout 4 and Starfield and did work on Fallout 76 as well.

Ilya Nazarov (primary Fallout 4 concept artist) made a very good decision when he decided to move to a different company a while back.

An even more insidious interpretation is that the concept work on TES VI is done (we know Ray was working on it as of early last year) and now that the concept art is finished Microsoft has no need of him anymore...

Miasma, redone!

Even people who are nice to you want something from you and will try to extort you for it. Even the good people like Three Dog or Victoria Watts or the kind people like Moira or the people of Oasis constantly asking you for things, dangerous things, difficult decisions, you can never really catch a break. You’re trying to people please and help and feel some sort of, any sort of, connection to anyone because you are so, so lonely, all while dealing with this horrible new world you’ve been unwillingly and traumatically thrust into plus the loss of everything and one you’ve ever known.

Even Amata rejects you in the end. I can’t imagine the absolute devastation of knowing that you will never be allowed back home and that you have lost everything, every friend, every relationship, and no one is interested in fostering new ones. 

We are born in the Vault, we live in the Vault, and we die in the Vault.

but that was then. now, at nineteen, the jacket butch is wearing has the snake with brightest greens (paul’s favorite color) and it feels heavy on his back. now, butch looks at freddie in a jacket that’s a size too big, and remembers how naked wally had looked when he stormed out of the clinic wearing only the vault suit, how like a snake that had just shed its skin.

| Fallout: New Vegas

the sudden loss my cat cybergoth was the most traumatizing experience of my life

i revealed my grief publicly shortly after i was doxxed by a member of the cult squatting at fallout.fandom.com

i received an ask the next day deadnaming me, accusing me of killing my cat & comparing me to "kate," another former member of the cult at fallout.fandom.com

this was not the first time this cult attacked me upon disclosing a death in my family

i am also not the first person they've attacked upon disclosing the death of a pet

the next month, i appeared in a server where NP people were present, and they proceeded to shame kate for being a former sex worker in front of me. they talked about punching her and siccing a dog on her. they used a racial slur to refer to her while addressing me

then they called me "a troll" for calling out their misogyny & attacked me mercilessly using libel and sexuality for months and months. they did it in front of my friends and banned anyone who spoke up for me. they explicitly hunted all "sympathizers."

a cryptofascist stalker cult controls fallout.fandom.com. at the bottom of this post, there is a large PSA with evidence and links to other informational posts. there is a shorter, more recent post here.

they will stalk you across the internet for years and use every type of violence to harm you. they will call you a stalker for reacting to their harassment. they will call you a bully for trying to talk to them via any means.

they hate women and people of color. they attack good actors until they disappear.

they will try to contact your job and get you fired. this has happened to multiple people.

there is no reasoning with them. there is no diplomacy. there is no mediation. they will only harm you because the harm is the point.

they call their targets "psychotic" and shame anyone who speaks to them as "enabling psychosis" while attacking the target's mental health as aggressively as possible

the people in power have a secret server (SNM) where they mock the community's "lolcows." they call their enemies "white knights." they coordinate the abuse of children in secret and carry it out as "policy"

fandom tried to stop it and the cult buried everything and bullied the employees involved

they want give the wiki a conservative bent & funnel people into the Discord through Fandom's SEO. this is why there is a Discord widget in the middle of every page, with a unique disclaimer below it.

this disclaimer is unique to fallout.fandom.com because fandom does not want to be responsible for this specific community

the cult shame and stalk anyone who expresses interest in reviewing evidence. they claim that any effort to hold them accountable for their factual public decisions is "a PR stunt for competing wikis."

the people engineering this do not build the wiki. they bully everyone who builds the wiki into enabling them, and crucify anyone who resists their abuse of the platform.

this has been happening for years. the cult leader has been there for over a decade. they want to keep doing this to fallout fans for decades to come.

the suffering is the point. i am far from the first person they have treated this way, and i have not been the last. they have tentatively cast several people as "anachorite 2," the next major abuse target.