HE TRIES TO PRETEND HE'S NOT SOFTENING,  pink brows turning up at the middle in shame as he averts his gaze.   itâs hard to see kyojuro looking so  vulnerable & not do something about it, which perhaps bothers him more than anything else :why is he suddenly feeling so many of these human emotions?
itâs not like him to ⌠care.
he cracks far more easily than he expects.   silently the demon drops from the tree & into the grass, where he crouches before the hashira & bends to look into his eyes, his own gaze guarded.
a slow, lazy, almost  predatory blink is offered as inked fingers touch the underside of kyojuroâs chin to tilt it up a bit.
â iâm not testing you or anything, & he didnât tell me to say shit :   he doesnât know that i come out here, y'know.   & i donât plan on lettinâ him find that out. â
which is, of course, nearly  impossible:  kibutsuji will  EVENTUALLY FIGURE THEM OUT.   the crescent moon can only run from his gaze for  so long,  after all.   akaza regards him quietly for a moment, his expression unreadable & his posture tense â heâs trying to gauge kyojuroâs honesty, even though he knows that he  DOESN'T HAVE TO.   the flame pillar has  never tried to deceive him.
â ⌠this is really what you want, then.   not âcuz you hit your head or 'cuz i fucked you up or something. â
His cheeks are still alight with the flames of guilt, his singular gaze turning to become more interested in the grass in front of him. It hurts to hear those words- they sting him to the very core of his being but the soft sound of feet landing distract him if only temporarily.
Oh how Kyojuro wanted to SOB as he looks in those gilded eyes. He can hear Akaza- but the words are but an echo alongside his worried thoughts.Â
âThen why are you saying these things?â he asks into the space between them. Kyojuro so desperately wants to close that space, to pull his demon into his arms but he knows that look on Akazaâs face and it puts a little FEAR into him.
Hard not to be afraid of the thing that almost killed you.
âIâm half blind, not incompetent. Of course this is what I want. I thought I made it clear already?â